Born to be Dissatified
By: Girl of Light Writter: Aniecä
My name is Hyuuga Hinata and this is one of the few facts that I'm sure of. I know this must be a silly remark to start out this story with but that would make you quite incorrect. It's the only truth of the matter that I have found. This is my story which I have decided to share with you.
From the first day I remember something to know the Hyuuga Clan, my clan has drilled some simple statements into my head. These are:
"You must be strong Hinata, for you're an heir; one day you'll rule this whole clan."
"People, like fate, never change."
"How you're born is where you're always be."
I was taught these statements because for me, my father, who's name is Hiashi Hyuuga said these were the 3 truths to every matter. I have found these things to be true, but not I see the whole matter and I wish to prove my clan, my family, my father but especially these statements wrong. If these are the truths, and the whole matter what reason is there to train for I'll be heir anyway. If I am weak, I can't become strong. If I'm born weak, I'll stay weak and forever be weak so why train. Yet, I find myself training only to becomes stronger against fate, my family, father and these statements. I was born weak and even if I can become strong I will have proven two of these statements wrong.
However, there is always the first one. If I am strong, then I'll become are. If I can't change, what will become of me. This statement could easily become false if I decide to kill myself or whatever I want. If I'm weak, I can't change so what does it matter that I must be strong when I was born because I can't change fate. It was a whole circle, unless I'm strong which I hope I am. These are all lies, and I am told I am weak but in order to prove all people wrong, I must prove to myself these statements are wrong and soon the world will follow.
So far, I have found the last statement to be true for I was born to be disasified with my life and everyone will me. Because of four facts:
I love a Man who doesn't love and even if he did, my clan wouldn't allow such a marriage. With the love of the man I love, I will be left forever to be dissatisfied.
I was born to be weak. My sister my minor of 5 years is stronger then I am, she will become heir proving the only statement I even agreed with wrong, I don't wish this.
I was born into a clan of savage people, sealing their own, killing off their own only to strengthen and better themselves.
I was born to not be loved, only lothed and hated. Neji hates me for a reason of my possition in the clan, even if I was to lose the possition I'm sure he'd hate me for being weak and giving it up.
I was born engaged to a man I could never love while I see love from a man who could never love me back. I am worst off then my friend, Sakura.
In short, I can not satisfy others so how can I satify myself then? The answer, I can't. I am born to be dissatisfied.
Today is my birthday, my 16th to be exact. Among the Hyuuga Clan this is a great day. The day I am married, to me it is the day that I am sealed both physically and mentally to the life I was born with, a life of discontentment. This if for two reasons:
Physically
I am being married off to a man whom I do not love.
I am being sealed with the seal so that I may not misuse my Byakugan since I am not Heir.
I do not have the possiblility to be receive love from the one I love.
Mentally
This is the day where I can no longer be able to prove one statement true. From this day forward, I will not be able to become heir because of the seal.
I consider this also a fact because it tears me that I can't change and become stronger, and if I do what is there to gain? I can't become heir and prove one of my causes of disastification wrong.
Also, I was born to be married away from love and live disasified. This proves the other two right, but I wished to prove them wrong. I wanted to be able to change, but Neji was right. You can't.
"Oi, Hinata?" Sakura asked sitting in the room helping me getting on my wedding dress. "Are you sure you don't want us at the wedding?" She asked.
"Yeah, because I want to go." Ino said.
'Yeah, I mean I know Neji and you aren't best friends but we are and I want to be there for you. This is your big day." Tenten said.
"Trust me, this… this is a horrible day. This is a day… a day… I want you to forget… and wipe from your minds… Please?" I begged them.
"Oh, Hinata!" Sakura said crying. "I'm so sorry that Naruto is a dimwit." She said hugging me.
"It's alright." I said. "From the beginning I was born to be dissatisfied, because how you are born is how you shall forever be. I was born this way a nothing can change that." I said.
"Hinata…" Ino said looking down at everyone in the audience for ruining my life.
"Neji is wrong, there is no purpose to life if we have no choice in it. Why train? Why worry about anything if fate has already decided. Why did you decide to be dissatisfied if fate could have just made you agree that you were like this and to end up like this. Neji is wrong." Tenten said.
"Since I was little I have wished to prove him and those who share that belief wrong, I truly did. But I had to many goals for myself. I had two goals to prove two statements wrong, "People, like fate can't change." And. "How you're born is how you'll always be." It's true. I was born engaged to this man, born to be a Hyuuga…"
"You were born to be an heir, in your place stands another. You changed fate. You did it." Ino said. "You said you were born to be heir right? So you did? You changed fate."
"No, it was never meant to be that I would become fate. I was born weak, and that's how I'd always be. It was planned, my father said so, I was lied to." Tears ran down my face. The gong was rang. I stood up and walked to the door where I'd walk in to be sealed and married.
I placed my hand on the door. "Hinata…!" A voice yelled. I couldn't turn around, I knew who it was.
"N. N. Naruto. Kun?" I murmered.
"You can't do this!" He said. "You have to help me change the Hyuuga, I'll help you be happier and stronger. You can't do this to yourself."
"No. I was born... to be… dissatisfied… with life… it's no hope… to try to… change it." I said sadly.
"Tsunade-obaa-chan said that you could come with me, on a three year expedition of gaining stength and I wanted to take you with me because you need it… you're so…"
"Dissatisfied?" I asked. He nodded. "Naruto, how people are can't be changed. I know that know. How we're born is how we'll forever be."
"All babies are born weak Hinata, so wouldn't all people be weak then?" I nodded. "Okay then I'm helping change fate for you. They can't deny you as heir if you haven't been sealed and you're stronger then anyone when we come back, right?"
"They could, for treason, and against marriage orders."
"Nah, they'll forget about. Trust me. Jiriaya-Sensei is coming too."
"Um… isn't he… well… um…"
"It's alright. I already told him that I'd kill him if he used you in his stupid books or even looked at you in the wrong way. Don't worry, I've got your back, I'll protect you."
"What about clothing and such?"
"Nah… we'll get you new stuff, k?" I sighed and looked worried. "It will be alright Hinata. It will, I know it." He said hugging me. I blushed and looked at the ground.
"Hinata… you have to go." Neji said.
"Why, do you… care now?" I asked.
"Because without you the clan is going to lead itself into distruction, they'll need you come 3 years. They'll accept you as heir, and you will be strong. All the statements besides the first will be proven wrong." Neji said.
"Why… do you want them… falsified?" I asked.
"Because that means that he isn't born to be a branch member, you'll bring peace within him, you'll prove fate wrong and save everyone. If not for him… for me." Naruto said holding my hands in his.
"You… why?"
"I never had a family and after seeing what happened to the Sasuke because of their power crazied heir Itachi went off the handle. I want to make sure that you're happy, your life is good and that you don't allow that to happen to you, or anyone else. Please?" Naruto practically begged.
"Ano… Alright. Bye." I said to Neji. He nodded and turned around.
"You didn't see us, got it." Naruto said but Neji didn't respond.
"Anyone there?" Neji said turning around, but Naruto pulled me out.
"Let's go." Naruto said grabbing my hand and pulling me toward Konoha's gates.
Perhaps, there is hope. I am proving fate wrong, not getting married, not being sealed, becoming heir, receiving feelings from Naruto-kun, becoming stronger. It was all what I wanted. For once in my life all was well and I wasn't feeling what I was born to fell… dissatisfied. I felt… satified, for now.
At this very moment, I was proving all three statements wrong but soon I would make the first one true but I trusted Naruto to keep to his word and make my dissatisfied life from birth, satifiable at least, maybe, possiblly much more.
I was born dissatisfied with who I was, what I was born into, who I was to be, who I was to marry, what I didn't have, what I did have, what was lost and what couldn't be changed as well as what was promised me.
I was born disatified with being Hyuuga Hinata, born into the Hyuuga clan, to become heir, marrying some random guy, being without love, being miserable, my love, the fact that I would always be like that, that was a truth and become heir as well as living I hoped to.
I was born disatified, but now I am not, because of Naruto-kun. The girl who was born dissatisfied with her life has proven the second rule wrong and became satified with her life thanks to him because I am going to change, he changed me, for he is the one I love. I was born to be dissatisfied, but no longer.
A/N: I don't know where I came up with this idea but in one sitting I decided to type this out after a long fight with my close friend and I guess it helped me because I'm feeling better. This story is really wonderful and I'd be extremely pleased if you'd read it and tell me what you think of it. It's a OneShot so there will be Epilogue, possibly if you would like one. Every time I write a one shot I get requests for a epliogue or sequel which I'm up to with my shorter stories. Thank you for reading, please review so that I can hear what you think of it and if you want an epilogue. If not, this is the end. Thanks. Aniecä