Harry never made New Year's resolutions. He found them silly because he never could stick to them. But this year, in 2011, he decided to make a change. This year he would make a resolution and stick to it. This year he would tell his friends the truth. This year he would tell his crush his true feelings. This year he would give his heart the freedom it had been denied for the past year. This year...
Harry walked into his living room and looked around. The boys were over for a guy's night, which they all agreed had been put off for too long. He sat down on one of the single sofas and but his lip. It was now becoming harder to say the things he wanted than he first thought. Of course nobody was taking any notice of his unusual quietness. Instead they were laughing about some stupid porno they had stumbled across while flicking through the channels on TV. Harry guessed it would be Tom who first noticed his silent stand because Tom always noticed things and he was the most considerate of the four of them. And true to the guess Tom was the first to stop laughing and looked over to Harry.
"What's wrong?" Tom asked. Danny and Dougie stopped laughing and they too looked to Harry, their eyes just as questioning. Harry took a breath and told himself it's now or never.
"I have to tell you guys something..." he stalled for a moment and then with a rapidly increasing heart rate he continued. "What I want to tell is...Geez, how do I put this..."
"Oh God! Don't leave the band Harry! We need you too much," Danny said looking desperate.
"What? I'm not leaving the band. Are you crazy? This band is my life," Harry said. "But I think you guys have a right to know that...That I'm...Gay..."
Tom stared at Harry with raised eye brows, Dougie's mouth fell open and Danny fumbled his beer. Within a second Harry was walking out of the room and in the same beat all three men were quickly behind him. Tom grabbed his arm and stopped him.
"And where are you going?" he asked.
"I thought maybe you were angry or something...You know," Harry said.
"And I thought you knew me better," Tom laughed then walked back into the living room. Now he was left with Danny and Dougie.
"Ha ha...I know that there was a reason you enjoyed that gig at G.A.Y last year... Nah, I'm just joking mate, I'm happy for you that you can admit that," Danny smiled then turned towards the living room. "Time for that porn that was on...Tom, you better not have turned that off!" and with that he was gone, leaving just Dougie.
"I get it if you hate me...I mean with the way I'm always touching you and shit..." Harry said.
"Pfft...You think that just because you admitted that you're gay, I'm gonna turn around and hate you? Babe, it's gonna take a lot more than that to make me hate you," Dougie said. There was no warning for the next string of events.
Dougie shoved himself towards Harry and pressed their lips together and to make sure that Harry wouldn't pull away he wrapped his arms around the old man's neck. For a moment Harry stood perfectly still, not sure what to do, then his arms snaked around Dougie's waist, pulling them flush against one another. Their kiss deepened quickly. Dougie slipped his tongue into Harry's mouth, making the other man moan. Harry couldn't help the moan because he'd dreamt about doing it for so long. It wasn't planned, it was just a reflex as Harry's hand moved lower until they reached Dougie's arse and gave a squeeze. Dougie's hips jerked forward and he smiled into the kiss as Harry let out another moan, but this time it was louder.
"Shh...You're gonna have the guys thinking I'm giving you a blow job in the hallway," Dougie whispered in Harry's ear. Harry felt the blood rushing south at a fast pace. He pulled Dougie back into the kiss and his hands set to work making their way under the younger man's shirt. After a minutes tracing Dougie's body he pinched one of his nipples. Dougie decided he'd had enough...In the hallway at least.
"Guys..." he stopped as Harry claimed his lips for a moment. He pulled away to continue his sentence and Harry's lip started an assault on his neck. "Don't come into Harry's room!" and with that he was pushing Harry towards the bedroom.