Disclaimer: Don't own IY! Although I wish I could own miroku! SNIFF!
A/N: I was depressed so I felt like writing if you like it ill add more! Its supposed to be a two chapta fic! So you ask and I will give!
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The Well
"Why are you doing this to me! Why!" Kagome cried out as she collapsed in tears. Getting no response from Miroku, she whispered dejectedly, "Don't you care at all?"
Miroku looked down in shame, trying to hide his self-loathing. "K-Kagome-sama I'm so sorry." Miroku stuttered.
Kagome looked up at him through her bangs. 'Kagome-sama.' The words tore through her heart. After all they had been through, after all that they shared, he talked to her as if she was a complete stranger, a nobody… "It's okay Houshi-sama." Kagome bit out, her bitterness clinging to every word she uttered.
Miroku dropped to his knees, his fall cushioned by the soft mud. It started raining when she asked to speak to him private. It was as if Buddha was crying for his stupid disciple who threw away his only chance at true love. 'You can't take back what you've did.' Sang his conscience. She didn't truly love him. His staff fell to the ground making a clinking sound as it went down. Miroku took a deep breath and looked up at Kagome. "Kagome I am so sorry." Miroku whispered between silent sobs that wracked his whole body.
Kagome looked up. A smile on her lips that didn't reach her eyes. It brought a chill to Miroku's spine, 'she looks so dead, did I do this?' Miroku thought to himself. But Miroku was snapped out of his musings as he heard a hallow laughter coming from Kagome. He looked over to her to see she was standing. "Don't be! I was just one of your stupid whores who thought you had a heart. Now I see you're the worthless hentia I always thought you to be." Kagome said in an accusing manner and slapped him on his cheek.
Miroku's heart broke into a million pieces. "Kagome." He whispered in a pleading manner. He lunged at her before she could run off and tightly hugged her waist. His tears soaking her already drenched clothes. "Please Kagome."
"Let me go Miroku!" Kagome screamed banging her fists on his back but he wouldn't let her go. She broke down and cried. It felt as if her heart was being wrenched from her body. Kagome's fists dropped to her sides and her head dropped. "Why Miroku, why?" Kagome managed to choke out. "Why!" She screamed out to the forest. "Why do you this to me, Miroku?" Her words seem to echo throughout the forest forging a rhythm with the falling rain.
"Answer me God-Damnit!" Kagome cried out in frusteration. "Please Miroku." Kagome said in a broken whisper. Threading her hands through Miroku's hair freeing it of its binding.
"Kagome," Miroku whispered tightening his hold around her waist. His heart was breaking more and more hearing Kagome's voice so broken. He did this to her. It was all his fault. He ruined the only good in his life.
"I thought you loved me." Kagome barely breathed out staring straight ahead watching the rain fall down to the ground.
"I do Kagome." Miroku whispered into her waist.
"Lair!" Kagome screamed as she collapsed into the mud with Miroku still hanging on to her waist. Kagome couldn't stop the sobs from escaping. She didn't want to sound so hurt. "Then why did you do this to me?"
"I don't know. I was afraid I guess." Miroku answered fearing her reaction.
"Don't you think I was afraid too! Huh! After all I would have to live with your death as a reminder that I failed to save the one that I loved." Kagome could taste the mixture of tears and rainwater as she licked the side of her cheek in a nervous gesture.
Something in Miroku snapped if he hadn't done what he did then she would have been more hurt. He had to stay strong for the both of them. He abruptly pushed Kagome away from him. Not suspecting the push Kagome fell backwards sinking into the mud. Miroku stood up. He had to do this for the both of them. She would hurt less. He was just saving her the inevitable misery that came with loving him. He clenched his fists in determination. "Your right." He said in a voice dripping with hatred. Kagome didn't move from where she lay. She just welcomed the falling rain with open arms. " Didn't you hear me you're right! I felt nothing for you. I used you to make Sango jealous. I don't love you at all. How could I love such a Naïve girl. Your barely a women, you don't know anything about the world. A child like you would NEVER satisfy me. You're just a pathetic inexperienced geisha no one wants. "
Kagome clenched her eyes shut and rolled her head from side to side covering her silky black hair with mud. "You don't mean it." She whispered.
'Stay strong Miroku, this is for the both of you.'
"Go back home Kagome and never return. You don't belong here. You're not worthy enough for this task. Go home."
"You don't mean it?" She cried out with so much uncertainty that her statement sounded like a question.
Miroku didn't want to see his Kagome like this. The Kagome he knew would be so sure of herself. She would scream and rant and never let go but the Kagome he knew was gone. He broke her when she saw him having sex with Sango and the whole time he was having sex with Sango all he could think about was Kagome. How much silkier her hair was, how her skin was so much smoother, how her voice was laced with so much more innocence then Sango's. That's when he knew he didn't deserve someone as pure as Kagome; only god's right hand angel deserved her. (A/N: Yeah I know he's Buddhist) And he knew from this point on things would never be the same. He did it for her own good. 'Please stay strong.' Miroku prayed to an unknown god.
"Get over it Kagome I despise you."
Kagome sat up. She knew she looked pathetic. She was covered with mud and her hair was sticking to her face and back in clumps. But right now that wasn't her concern. The only man she ever truly loved, the one she was willing to give up everything for, never truly loved her. It was all lies. No, she refused to believe it.
"No I don't believe you. You're lying you don't mean it!" Kagome cried out.
Miroku growled out in frustration and grabbed Kagome's face roughly making her look into his eyes. "I don't love you Kagome, I love Sango. I always did." Miroku felt his heart wrench, this hurt even more then her yelling at him. Her eyes looked so pained brimmed with tears. Who couldn't take this heartache. 'No Kagome, I love you! I love you more than life itself. I love you more than tea, more than groping women, more than ominous clouds hanging over mansions. Please Kagome don't leave me because I'm lost with out you!' His mind screamed out.
Kagome could she the hatred in his eyes and felt the harsheness of his fingers digging into her cheeks. 'I don't love you Kagome, I love Sango. I always did.' The unwelcome statement rang through her mind. Bringing tears to her eyes, and even worse, pain to her heart. She looked over his face memorizing every contour that she loved so much. She brought her hand up to his face in a daze, not really thinking about what she was doing. Kagome traced Miroku's lips, his soft lips that where so tender when he kissed her, his cheeks, and his beautiful amethyst eyes with her fingertips. Kagome withdrew her hand from Miroku's face when she felt jealousy wiggle its way into the pieces of her heart thinking that Sango had the experience of Miroku's lips all over her, his body, his hands, everything Miroku had he gave it to Sango that night when they made love, and today when he admitted that he didn't have anything left for her to take because he wholly belonged to Sango. Kagome was going to push him away from her and run to the well but something stopped her.
"Miroku why are you crying?"
Miroku gasped and his eyes turned loving. He couldn't do this to her, he loved her way too much. Miroku pulled Kagome into a bear hug. Reveling in the feeling of her body pressed against his. It felt so right and their bodies melded together perfectly. But he had to protect her from his curse. Miroku almost lost his resolved when he felt Kagome hug him back just as tightly as he hugged her, but he had to go through with this if he wanted her to have a chance at happiness, and of course he did. Even at the price of his own happiness.
Kagome felt chills run down her spine as Miroku's hot breath caressed her ear. "Goodbye Kagome."
Before Kagome knew it Miroku grabbed the shards from around her neck and pushed her into the well. Kagome screamed Miroku's name as she reached out her hands for him to save her but he didn't move a muscle to save her. Miroku stood there just staring at her, soaking wet, his amethyst eyes filled with love and tears, mouthing those three little words. I love you. That was the last thing Kagome saw as a blue light engulfed her whole body.