Disclaimer: I do not own the Teen Titans. Much to my dismay...
She held her dagger, and liked the way its hilt fit into her hand perfectly. But she loved how it was textured from the runes that were inscribed into the otherwise smooth steal. She even liked how the metal was cold and heavy on her palm. The knife itself was perfectly balanced, meaning it was meant to be a throwing knife, but it would serve her purpose all the same. And the blade, oh the blade was a beauty all its own. Shimmering with colors so subtle that she could barely tell that they were there.
And you may ask, does she have a reason for doing what she's about to do? What is it? She has a damn fine reason; she can't stand the hate or lies that are shared between her "friends" anymore. She can no longer turn her head away while all of their hearts are broken. And why is this happening? Because of her. Always her. She tries her best to fix it between them, but they never try like she does. They just slap a band aid over the wounds and call it healed. They think they're the only victims of their own twisted deceits, but the only suffer half as much as she does.
She's the one caught in the crossfire, and she's the one stuck in the middle of their masochistic lifestyle. And you may ask how she is in the middle? It's because it's a chain that started with her, and one broken link and the whole chain will fall.
She loved Robin, and Robin loved her back. That's how it began, innocent enough, right? Wrong. There was another, Raven, who was going out with Beast Boy, hooked on Beast Boy, but that wasn't good enough. She was crazy over Robin. She wanted Robin. Raven expressed her feelings to Robin. And guess what? He liked her back. Not as much, it wasn't love, but he did like her as more than a friend. That was a start right? An invitation?
She thought so… So behind Beast Boy's back, they got to know each other a little better each day, and they grew to love each other as friends. But Robin still denied her as a lover… And why? Because he loved her. He only wanted her… Robin broke Raven's heart… By leading her on… Cruel intentions, false confessions… Raven told her, about the issue… But Robin denied it all. He lied and she just took it. Because she loved him. And that was the most important thing, right? No, the most important things here were her friends' feelings. Which at this point, couldn't be repaired.
At least Beast Boy never found out about that. Poor innocent Beast Boy… But hey, ignorance really is bliss, isn't it?
And then there was Cyborg, Raven's Unofficial Ex. Oh how he longed for her… How her wanted to feel her embrace once more… She left him with nothing but a broken heart, and a curse on his lips… They would taste of Raven forever. So he turned to her for council, for friendship… for love. But she inevitably turned him away. And now his heart breaks every time he sees the happy couples prancing around unaware of his pain.
And this is why she was putting the blade to her wrist… Her, the happy go lucky member of the team, infamous for cheering everyone up when they were down. She, who caused the pain, then tried to fix it but failed: Starfire.
Author's Note: Thank you all for reading, and please review (if you have time XD; )