Hi everyone! So, I reread all of my previous SasuNaru stories, and I've been roleplaying a lot with a friend of mine, and it hit me. I'm gonna take those stories and turn it into one big story :3 Please read and review!

Warning: Yaoi (boyxboy), Suicidal thoughts, Cutting, Lemon and mpreg later on.

I do not own Naruto or any of the characters besides Tora, Kaito, Akemi, and Utada. SHINee members belong to the band SHINee.

Enjoy! xoxoxo Rosalye

"Can you believe this? I mean, honestly! It figures the day he takes a sick day, we get stuck with sentry duty!"

Sakura and Sasuke stood outside in the darkness, guarding the academy from any enemies who might wish ill on the school. Sasuke shrugged apathetically as Sakura fumed. He was used to all of her ranting by now. He was able to tune it out. "I mean, honestly! Naruto always slacks off!" She turned to Sasuke, arms crossed and face flushed. 'How annoying,' he thought. "Don't you agree, Sasuke-kun?" He shrugged again, just trying to shut her up by this point. "The kid's not that bad," he murmured half-heartedly. That did the trick. Shocked, Sakura went silent for about ten seconds. Thank God for small miracles. "Did you actually just say something nice about someone? About Naruto of all people?" she questioned, plopping down on the stone steps. Sasuke crouched down beside her. Damn, now she was going to start asking questions. Goddammit. "It was a mere slip of the tongue," he explained. He shook his head sullenly. "And nothing more," he whispered, almost inaudibly, as if he were speaking aloud to himself. Immediately, Sakura began to press him on the matter. "You don't sound too convinced by that, Sasuke-kun," she noted, digging a finger into his ribs. Sasuke brushed her off, rubbing his side and ignoring her implication.

She could sense that he was thinking about something very deeply, like when he was worried about something Itachi had done recently. For one, he was madly chewing on his bottom lip, that was a sure sign, and he kept his eyes on the full moon above them while his fingers tapped out a random rhythm on his knee.

"Is it Itachi?" she asked, intent on finding out. 'Itachi? Stupid girl. I would have hanged myself or slit my wrists or some other form of suicide by now if we didn't have guard duty. Why tonight, of all nights?' thought Sasuke bitterly. He shook his head, raven-black hair falling and obscuring his vision. With a quick flick of the head, he tossed it away. "Or a girl?" Her tone became hopeful in the end. 'Shit. Shit, shit, shit,' he thought, panicking slightly. "No, Sakura, it's not a girl. Shut up, will you?" He stood up and began pacing. Sakura, believing she had stumbled onto something, refused to be deterred. "If you like someone, it's okay to tell me!" she began, speaking faster and faster as she grew more confident that she had found the problem. He liked someone! He might like her! "We're friends Sasuke-kun! I mean, I know it might not be me and is probably Hinata or someone, but..." "Sakura," he cut her off sharply, glaring, but she kept on talking, rarely stopping to take a breath. "I mean, it's seriously not a bad thing! Any of us girls would be more than willing to…" 'She's not gonna give up is she?' he thought, defeated. 'Dammit. Guess I should tell her the truth then…' "Sakura, I'm gay." He said it so quickly and quietly that she barely heard him. Sakura stopped dead in her speech. "What?" she gasped. He took on a pained expression. "Please don't make me say it again," he moaned, sitting down beside her and burying his face in his hands. "Now do you mind stopping your pursuit of me? It's never gonna happen!" Sakura rested a hand on his shoulder and watched him, afraid of saying the wrong thing. "Is it true?" she dared to ask cautiously. Sasuke groaned. "Yes, it's true, alright? Look, Sakura, you're a sweet girl, and very pretty to boot, but my rejections do have good reasons behind them." He ran a hand through his hair, his sleeve riding up just a little. That was when the horror hit her. From what little exposed skin she could see, she managed to make out several angry red lacerations lining the inside of his wrist. She'd thought it was just a rumor, and yet here the proof was right before her very eyes. What Sakura did next caught him completely off guard. In one swift, fluid motion, she stood up and pulled him into a hug. "I'm so sorry, Sasuke-kun," she whispered. Angrily, he jerked away and pushed her away from him. "It's none of your concern," he hissed.

They held the silence for about ten minutes, and then Sakura said, "Sooooooo…" Sasuke looked up. "What now?" he growled. "Do you… like any of the… guys here?" He glanced at her briefly, and then hid his face in embarrassment, his face turning bright red. "You don't have to tell me," she giggled. He made a noise that sounded like a chuckle. "It's complicated. I want to tell you, but I'm too embarrassed to!" She giggled again. "You can wait, Sasuke-kun! I don't have to know!" He blushed deeper. "God, I feel like such a chick, giggling with you over some guy. Promise you won't tell?" She smiled and nodded. "It's Naruto," he said, and then hid his face a third time. Her grin slowly grew wider and more malicious. "Well, I promised that I wouldn't tell…" she began ominously. Sasuke peeked at her curiously from between his fingers. "So YOU will tell him!" "NO!" " Just write a letter or something!" They argued for a considerable amount of time, before Sasuke finally caved. "Fine. Get me the damn pen and paper." Sakura found some for him quickly, eager for Naruto to find out. Maybe they would hook up! Unwillingly he began to write.

"Dear Naruto,
I'm sorry I've been avoiding you. It's nothing personal; it's just- well, ok, it is personal. I'm sorry; Sakura is making me do this, I'm not very good with words when it comes to things like this...

This is awkward, considering we're on the same team. You have no idea how hard this is, but I can't hold it back any longer. I feel like I'm about to overflow.

Naruto... I like you. Alot. This could either end well, or you could hate me forever. That's why I had to tell you, before what is to come. I'm sorry.

With LOVE,
Sasuke"

When he was finished, he looked at Sakura. "Um, Sakura?" he called. "Yeah?" "I have to do something. Will you be okay on your own for a while?" "Um, sure," she responded uncertainly as he broke into a jog. "See you later!" 'What was that all about?' she wondered.

It wasn't until he was far enough out of earshot that Sasuke muttered, "Yeah, I'll see you later, at my funeral." He snuck into the back door of the house, leaving the letter on the kitchen counter for Naruto to find later. He slipped silently behind the couch, where Naruto himself was snoring, PlayStation controller in hand, and grabbed his switchblade from the end table. The sight of the innocently sleeping boy broke his heart. Did he really want to risk waking him up right now? Yes, yes he did, desperately so. Slowly, he bent down and placed a single, soft kiss on the blonde's lips. "Goodbye, Naruto. I love you. We'll meet again, on the other side, I promise." He then left, heading towards his final destination, blinded by tears. 'Damn you fate. Damn you Cupid. Damn you most of all Naruto…."