FEELINGS THAT NEVER FADED
By: Dark Zero 178

A/N: Hihi! This is my first romance story! Please be nice. Thanks :)

DISCLAIMER: I do not own Code Geass! :P

Have fun.

Chapter 1: She Caught Me Again

Lelouch POV

It has been a week since my feelings for Kallen Kozuki disappeared from me. You may wonder what happened. So this is how it all went..

It all started on my first day in Ashford. When I first saw her, I began to have feelings. Feelings that I can't seem to identify. Everytime I saw her passing by, my hands began to feel wet and my spine frozen, like ice. The next time I spotted her, I started to feel the tension again. At first, I was really confused. Soon, I finally figured out.

I'm in love with her. Its' a little bit weird for a guy like me to say this but, I actually LIKED it. The feeling of having a crush on a beautiful woman like her.

I often looked at her everytime she's in the same room as I'am. She goes to every class I attend and she sits just right in front of me. I'm totally crazy about her that time. I took pictures of her everywhere. Even if she wasn't looking, I still wanted a photo of Kallen. I practiced my confessions a million of times, every night. Not only that, I studied harder to make myself smart enough for her. I would do anything to make her my girlfriend.

When the day has finally arrived to confess my true feelings, my eyes met the most heartbreaking scene.

She was dating with Gino Weinberg.

Gino was a good friend of mine. He's a good guy but..seeing him dating Kallen is just so..painful. I sacrificed a lot of time, studying hard for her. I wasted my nights, practicing romantic lines,to let her know how much I wanted to have her. I loved Kallen Kozuki. But Gino took her away, leaving all the things I've done for her go to waste.

I was really pissed off. My heart was shattered into pieces. I want to tear my hair off in frustration. I didn't do anything, but ran away with tear-filled eyes. It took me days to move on. But now, I'm okay with it.

Right now, I'm just walking on the school hallways. Being normal as usual. I entered my homeroom and sat on my seat, near the window. Mondays sucks sometimes. I thought as I looked out from the window. Kallen goes to the same classes as me. But who cares? That doesn't matter anymore.

"Thinking about her again?" Suzaku, my seatmate and best friend teased.

"Nah, not anymore. I got tired of it.." I answered.

"Are you sure? You're crazy about her! How come you got tired of it?" he asked in disbelief. I didn't say anything. Because I don't like the answer of it.

"Something happened, didn't it?"

I was caught off guard. He's digging for answers. "Yes.'' I simply replied.

"What happened?"

I'm not really proud of it, but I chose to tell him anyway "She..has a boyfriend. And that guy is Gino." I can feel tears on my eyes. But I'm not gonna let them flow. Not right now.

"I see..that could really hurt. Are you okay right now?" he asked again.

"Yeah, I'm fine. Who needs a girl? I'm happy to be single!" I faked my smile.

"You do. And you're not okay. You have a fake smile and I knew it." Suzaku told me.

I broke the false smile I was putting on and admitted the truth "Fine. I'm not okay. Even after a week." I said. I mentally hit myself Great, I felt like my mind is rewinding to that scene again thanks to my big mouth.

Then, the teacher walked right in.

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I sighed heavily as I scribbled down notes for the lecture. For the past few minutes, all I can think about is Kallen. I really didn't pay attention at what the heck is our teacher explaining. What's on my mind is her. Just her. Nothing else.I tried to turn my eyes on her, but I don't have the courage to do so. I focused on writing again. Yet, I want to stare at her.

After a few more minutes, class was finally dismissed. I exited the classroom and walked in the hallways to find my locker. As I was grabbing my Math textbook, I peeked out from the door, and saw Kallen hanging out with Gino. I'm not eavsdropping, but I can hear what they are saying clearly.

"Its' going to be a star night this Friday." came out the voice of Gino. "I hope you're free. So we can watch it together."

"Yeah, sure! That would be great!" Kallen replied in excitement.

"Cool, so I'll see you there?"

"Yup."

Before Gino left her, he kissed her on the forehead. Which made a piece of my heart die. Kallen walked passed me and I closed my locker a little bit too loud.

"Love hurts." I muttered bitterly, under my breath.

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"Why did I ever fall in love with her in the first place?" I asked myself. I passed by a restaurant and heard a bunch of ladies talking about the star night thing on Friday.

"I'm excited about the star night this friday! I'm totally going with my boyfriend!"

"Oh really? Me too!"

"Its' going to be a romantic night.."

I walked faster. Their conversation is only making me feel more worse. If only I can see it with her..wait, WHAT? No,no,no. Stop it. Am I really over it?

The next thing I saw, are couples holding hands. They were facing each other, with smiles on their faces. I wish I could see her smile at me..IDIOT! WHAT AM I THINKING?!

This time, I ran. I don't want to see another couple making out or whatever. No more couples! I can't take it anymore! Though I still want to watch the star night with her , this friday..STOP thinking about her!

When I finally escaped the last street, I sat down immedietly on the nearby bench Lelouch,you idiot! I scolded myself mentally. Falling for the girl who won't be yours! Do you even have a brain? Or you're just plain bad? I stood up and walked away. I was a barely aware of anything now. All I can think about is Kallen. Nothing could barge in my brain now.

Suddenly, I bumped into someone. I was snapped away from my deep thoughts and apologized quickly. "Woah,woah. Sorry about that!" My eyes widened as I saw a familiar red-haired female that I used to like.

It was Kallen.

"No, its' fine. Don't worry about it." She said. I stared right straight into her sapphire blue eyes, making my spine to freeze and my hands to feel all wet. This was suppose to be the time I should introduce myself and confess my true feelings for her. But its' too late for now, she already has a boyfriend. And I can't take her anymore.

"Um,excuse me?"

I was slapped back in reality and smiled shyly, even if I can feel my melancholy forming inside me again. "Oh, its' nothing. Sorry about that."

"But you were staring at me. Is something wrong?" Kallen asked curiously.

"No, uh..its' nothing. I-I was just t-thinking about something. I know..I-I'm weird." I stammered.

"Uh..okay. I'll see you then." She said as she left.

Weird encounter..ugh, there I go again, saying pretty words! Sometimes it sucks to be me! I feel like punching myself..

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When I reached home, I slid down the door once I closed it.

This sucks. Love can be really unreasonable sometimes. I hate to say this, but I feel like I want to fall in love with her again. Give her a second chance. Should I really forgive her after enslaving myself in such things for how many weeks?

Is there still a way I can make her my girlfriend?

I can't belive it.

She caught me again..

TO THE BLONDE X RED HEAD HATERS ( If you know what I mean ), DON'T SUE ME YET! SOMETHING WILL COME UP IN THE NEXT CHAPTER, I PROMISE! NO FLAMES, NO FLAMES PLEASE!

UNTIL NEXT TIME! :P

~Dark Zero 1718