Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing or any of it's characters. If I did I would be rich and I am not so if you sue me all you will get is bills for loans.

Warnings: This story is gonna start out angsty, there will be character deaths (5), it is not R at the moment but it will be soon if only for language. This isa YAOI, meaning guys will be in love with guys. If this bothers you read something else, just don't flame me you were warned. Lastly this is my First story and I don't have a beta so if it is not the best written, sorry but let me know what would make it better.

Pairings: 1x2, 3x4, 5x?.. that's it for now

Here we go crosses fingers

Chapter 1: Losing All

"C'mon wake up… Wake Up… WAKE UP!!!" The blond lay motionless in his arms, "please, please wake up… I need you to wake up." The soft baritone voice took on a needy and desperate tone, "Please Cat… Baby I can't be alone again, not again… please love you have to wake up…. Love please wake up… I need you." Tears rolled down Trowa's normally stoic face as Quatre remained unmoving in his arms, his aquamarine eyes wide yet lifeless.

He was dead. Realization hit Trowa, shutting down his rational mind. The pilots had been pinned down when they arrived at the base. The five teens had barely made it through four corridors before they had been faced with a hail of bullets. Trowa and Quatre had taken cover on one side, Trowa was currently holding the blond who had been hit by a number of bullets in the initial attack. Heero and Duo were across from them attempting to attend to Wufei, who like Quatre had been hit in the first wave of gunfire. But now Quatre was dead, and his lover had snapped.

"no.. No.. NO!!" Trowa grabbed his gun and ran firing aimlessly toward the enemy. He knew he would not survive his attack, he didn't want to.

Duo watched helplessly as his friend's bullet riddled body fell lifelessly to the ground. Trowa had once again proven that he would fallow Quatre anywhere.

"Duo, keep your head down." Heero had once been an emotionless perfect soldier, Duo had changed that. He had learned to deal with emotions he had been taught to suppress. His lover had helped him, his lover who he now needed to try and keep his best friend from dieing. Wufei had been hit by two bullets. One was in his abdomen, Heero figured it had hit his liver judging from the dark color of the blood. The second had hit his chest. His wet, bubbly breaths spoke of fluid, most likely blood, in his punctured lung. Heero knew that he would watch his best friend die but he tried in vain to stop it.

Wufei was becoming less coherent as the blood escaped his body, "Where did Trowa go?" His voice was becoming weaker.

Duo's already pale face lost the last of his color, " He went after Quat 'Fei." Duo would never lie, but why let his friend who was already hurting bear more pain.

Heero could tell what his lover was doing and stayed silent. He fell back on his training and refused to let any of the pain of losing three of the only four people he saw as family die, show.

Wufei's eyes cleared for a moment, "Heero… Duo." Both pilots knew that Wufei had something important to say to them if he was using their first names.1 "I will miss you.. My family," he took a labored breath, "tell Quatre and Trowa I will miss them." The Chinese pilot took another labored breath, "I will get to see my Nataku again." With that a slight smile curled his lips and he let out his last breath. 2

"Fei… Wufei.." Duo didn't expect a response, his friend was dead. Another friend lost. It was happening again. "Heero," his voice sounded stained and lost, "It's happening again."

Heero knew what Duo was talking about. They had shared their pasts with each other. "Duo listen to me. This is not your fault," by now the braided pilot had started shaking, "love you have to focus."

Duo blinked and nodded, Heero's common endearment pulling him from memories. Still his voice was slightly strained when he replied, "We have to retreat."

Heero hated to fail a mission but he agreed. The information had been wrong on this mission. This base was suppose to have a skeleton crew and a hanger of half finished mobile suits. Instead the pilots found a base with a skeleton crew and two newly stationed units of soldiers, who had brought a shipment of completed mobile suits that were to be checked before deployment. Now they were being pinned at the end of a hall and had lost three of their teammates, their family.

Two of the five teens that had started this mission headed back the way they had come. There were few soldiers along this route since they had cleared it once. They could not have retreated earlier despite the ease of navigating their way back to the entrance they had used. Trowa and Quatre had been pinned down on the far side of the hallway and even if they could have moved Wufei he would not have made it the two miles to where they had left their truck. Neither Heero nor Duo was willing to allow a member of their family to die alone.

Both teens made it to the base door. Both froze at the sight that greeted them. Orders were to kill the Gundam Pilots on sit and this base was taking that order very seriously. Facing the door where the two pilots stood was at least thirty armed men and ten mobile suits. This was it.

Time seemed to slow. Duo did not reach for his gun, he grabbed Heero's hand and looked into his eyes, "I love you, forever."

Heero's response came as the Oz soldiers opened fire, "Love you forever, Koi."

Dull cheering was heard by the translucent figure that stood of the bodies. Two boys lay dead., hands clutched tightly. Two sets of eyes, one cobalt blue and one amethyst were locked on each other without actually seeing. All five of the Gundam Pilots were dead. The figure muttered to itself as it floated there, it's silver eyes full of pity, "This will not do. No, this will not do at all."

A/N: ok so there is chapter one. Please don't hate me cause they are dead, I will fix it. If you love angst this will lighten, especially in the next chapter (which is already started). Christmas, then school will keep my updates slow, I apologize but I will be working on it so if you are interested in it please be patient. If you wanna be my beta leave a review, I could use one. Reviews are more than welcome since this is my first attempt and I would like to know what people think.

Thanks, Solo's Ghost