I walked down the blue school Corridors hearing the same old words that i heard in all of my previous schools...
'Dirty emo scum'
'Hey, edward scissor hands been chopping at your arms?'
Laughter follwed after each sly joke they made some of them, the edward scissor hands one included, dont even make sense. It was my first day in this school and i stuck out in a million ways. My black clothes, black hair, eyeliner, the music i liked, but why did i have to be bullied for it in every school i went too. Why couldnt my farther just stick to one job?
I walked into science after getting lost and stuck in multiple dead ends. I walked right to the back of the class room and sat on the back row, i didnt bother to look at who i was stiing next to i just kept my head down as usual.
The class started, was talking about how one day the sun will explode and burn Earth into dust, that was pleasent.
"You know you can look up" The boy sitting next to me had a deep voice, almost like he was in a screamo band. I put my eyes a little further down, i was looking under the table, he was wearing black ripped pants and black spiked boots.
I looked up, he had a huge grin on his face, his bright blue eyes sticking out against the black eyeliner.
This was it, the one school i would have friends in!
"Im Eris"I smiled slightly trying not to get over excited about someone finally being like me.
"Andy, Sixx"He looked straight into my eyes as if reading my soul, it was slightly strange but his eyes were so beautiful.
"Mr. Biersack, anything you'd like to say to the class?"The teacher shouted across the class room.
"Its Sixx actually Sir and no, i think ill be leaving round about now" Andy stormed out of the room, all i wanted to do was run after him but i couldnt it would only make matters worse for me.
Well, my first two periods were rubbish, the teachers hate me and every one pressumes i cut myself, they would be right to think that but they didnt know for definite, predjudice freaks. It was dinner, i grabbed a tray but i wasnt really hungry so i searched around for an empty table.
"Looking for a seat?"It was the same low voice from Science.
"Oh hey Andy...Can i sit with you? its just umm..."I asked blushing slightly.
"yeah course but i hope you dont mind my friends hanging with us although i think you might like them.."
Andy led me to a table at the back of the hall, it was amazing, 6 of us in pure black clothing, i sat next to Andy if course, made introductions, CC sat on the end of the table next to Jinxx, with Jake. Then on our side it was me, Andy and Ashley. We starting talking about bands like Linkin Park and Slipknot, yeah, this was going to be fun.
"So where do you live?"Ashley asked.
"78 Landley Estate, going to my neighbourghs for Dinner tonight"I replied straight faced.
"Thats umm not as bad as you think"Jake replied with a huge grin on his place,
"How?"i questioned, this was getting a tad confusing.
"Jake lives next to you, We'll be there too, Jakes mum invited everyone!"Jinxx said happily.
"Seriously? awesome!"My day was getting from bad to better...
Jake gave me a lift home from school since he had a car, we dropped the others off at there houses first though, i said thanks and gave jake a hug. I walked into my house and regretted it already, the stuffing was coming out of the old sofa and the smell of tabacco already taking over my home.
" HEY BRAT!"My Mum shouted at me lauging. i ignored her and wondered up the stairs, my dad ran after me and grabbed my ankle as i tried to run as fast as i could, it was to late, he had me in his grasp. I was screaming as loud as i could as he slapped he as hard as he could then pushed me up the stairs. My wrist was killing, ignoring the pain i ran up the stairs and locked my self in my room, i didnt bother re doing my make up, i was only going to cry again. I think he sprained my wrist, i could barley move it it hurt so much.
I stood up and put my Avenged Sevenfold hoodie on gritting through the pain of moving my wrist.
"Eris its time to go."My brother said gently through the door, i opened it slowly and sat in the passage with him for a few minutes."You fell down the stairs and sprained you wrist ok? I know it hurts but we cant have anyone find out, they've sobered up now so they dont smell as bad"he giggled slightly making me chuckle a little...
*Andy's PoV*
Eris came up the stairs into Jakes house, i walked across Jakes dark bedroom and answered the door, she had eyeliner running down her face. I didnt even ask what was wrong, it would only make her more upset, i knew what it was like to be in a situation like that.
She looked at us all, one eyebrow raised.
"So, how bad do i look and be honest"She said giggling.
"Absolutely horrific."CC said chuckling a little.
"Come over hear and clean up"said Jake grinning, he handed Eris some wipes and eyeliner. She looked around his room while wiping her makeup off, she was so pretty.
"Waw, nice bed"She said smiling. She was right, it was a coffin, id love one of those but i just had a black double bed.
*Eris's PoV*
Jakes room was really nice, Andy offered to put my eyeliner on for me so i let him, he was good at it, better than me anyway.
"Whats wrong with your wrist?" Jinxx asked looking slightly worried.
"I dunno actually, i had my headphones in and fell down the stairs at home..."I said trying not to show a sign that i was lying.
"Does it hurt?"CC asked.
"Yeah..alot"I said blushing, i was telling the truth this time, it was really really sore.
Ashley came over and moved my wrist slightly.
"OUCH!"i shouted kinda loud my cheeks went bright red."Sorry"i said.
"Eris, you've sprained it, we have to get you to a hospital"Ashley said wide-eyed.
"No seriously ill be fine"I said re-assuring him, he put a bandage around my wrist and asked if it was any better, i told him it was and i wasnt lying but it was still really hurting.
We went down stairs for some food, Jakes mom was a really good cook.
"Thanks , the Shepards Pie was lovely"I smiled.
"Its fine Sweetie, hows that wrist?"She asked politley.
"Better, silly me,i should watch where im going"I faked a laugh then we all headed home, i gave each of the boys a hug, i didnt want to leave!
I was sitting in my room texting Andy and Ash on my Iphone.
'hey Eris, its Ashley, save my number yeah? Did we tell you we were in a band? All of us are, come to band practice after school, Jake will give you a lift home'I couldnt believe it, i wondered over and sat on my bed starting to type.
'There, ive saved your number, sure ill come, Jake wont have to give me a lift though but tell him i said thanks anyway:)'
I told Ash and Andy i had to go so i put my phone under my pillow and wondered down stairs for a drink. I opened the fridge and pulled out a can of redbull. My parents were asleep on the sofa so i was pretty much safe. I turned around and opened the can, then i saw it, the knife just sitting there on the bench. I put my can down next to me and picked up the kife, it dug deeply into my skin blood streaming down my arm, i done it again and again up and down my arm. What had i done? I ran upstairs into the bathroom putting toilet roll onto my wounds. After about 20 minutes the bleeding stopped and i fell fast asleep on my bed.
My alarm went off, it was 6am, memories from last night flooded back to me. No-one could now about this, i put a bullet for my valentine hoodie on and some black skinny jeans on and quietly left the house. Jake said he would give me a lift to school, he was already in his car so i jumped in the front with him and we headed off to school.
"Hey Andy"I smiled as we got out of the car, we stood waiting for the others then headed of to our lessons, i had one of them with me for every lesson so i always had someone for company.
After school we all jumped in Jakes car and headed of to band practice,
'Never give in,
never back down,
when your life feels lost,
fight against all odds,
never give in,
NEVER BACK DOWN!'
"Black veil Brides are my new favourite band"I said quietly, it was true the guys were amazing i couldnt believe there talent.
"Seriously?"Asked Jinxx Hopefully.
"Damn yeah!"I smiled.
We all gave eachother hugs before we left.
I gave Ashley a hug, then my sleeves came up a little on my wrists. I didnt realise so i just left them,
"Whats that?"CC asked me gently.
"Whats what?"I said questioningly.
"That on your wrists"Jake came over and pult my sleeves right up my arms, tears rode down my cheeks violently.
"Eris, im so sorry"apologised CC, i ran out of the garage, tears still streaming down my cheeks like a water fall, i couldnt believe i was so stupid that i hit bottom level.
I found myself in an abandoned park, i sat on one of the swings, rocking myself slowly, tears still rolling down my cheeks. I saw Jake in his car with all the other boys, they walked over to me shouting my name. I just ignored them, i couldnt stand up, i was too embarrased to look up, i felt so small against the world.
I felt 2 soft fingers lift my chin up, it was Andy, the others were on some sea-saws, he looked at me, i tried as hard as i could not to make eye contact.
"Eris"he said softly, he wiped the tears off my cheeks with is hoodie. I looked him in the eye.
"Dont...pretend...Andy"i said in the middle of sniffs.
"Pretend what? Eris, of course im going tell you you shouldnt do that but bad things happen to everone, you have friends to get you through it now!"His voice was so soft, so kind. He stood up properly instead of kneeling infront of me. I stood up on the seat of the swing and kissed his red lips looking deeply into his blue eyes.