How Can I Not Love You Chapter 1: How Can I Not Love You, a harry potter fanfic

Yay! my first fanfic for you guys! this just kinda came to me while I was listening to this song so I started writing and voila!
Disclaimer: I own nothing except the plot!
Warning: this is boy/boy. Don't like don't read. It's that simple.

Enjoy!

Can not touch
Can not hold
Can not be together
Can not love
Can not kiss
Can not have each other

You told me you loved me, but that we couldn't be together. It wasn't safe and you weren't sure that you'd make it through the war. Now as I watch you fight, I'm filled with anger. I want to help you, but you won't let me. You're too afraid of what he'd do, but you don't understand that he's already come between us.

Must be strong
And we must let go
Cannot say
what our hearts must know

I should stand here indifferent like all of the other Death Eaters, eager to see the victor, but I can't because I'm too worried about you. It hurts to act like I don't care, when all I really want is to help you kill the Dark Lord and then snog you senseless like I use to do when it was just the e two of us alone together. You keep glancing at me, and though my mask is like stone you must know that in my heart I love you.

How can I not love you?
What do I tell my heart?
When do I not want you
Here in my arms?
How does one waltz away
From all of the memories?
How do I not miss you
When you are gone?

You've fallen to the floor. For one wild minute I thought you were dead, and that's when I lost all control. I ran to confront him for I had had enough. You scream at me to run away, but I can't move. I won't. It's time this ended. Then maybe we can finally be together.

"Draco what are you doing?!" your voices clash together, yet they couldn't be more different. Yours was fearful and pleading, asking me to run away. His was angry and demanding that I move or be killed. Surprisingly my voice was calm and it shocked the both of you. "No, this ends now."

I suspected, for I couldn't see your face, that your emerald eyes were wide with fear and anger. If we live to see tomorrow I'm sure you and your damn hero complex will beat the shite out of me for this. Voldemort only laughed. "Fine, I'll kill you both."

Can not dream
Can not share
Sweet and tender moments
Can not feel
How we feel
Must pretend it's over

I thought about all the lazy days, and care free nights I spent with you. The dreams we shared, the conversations we had, and the passion we felt, while I dueled the Dark Lord. He sent hex after hex at me which I dodged or counter cursed. You watched worriedly from the sidelines dying to help me but didn't. Knowing I wouldn't let you. So you pretended to be indifferent (or tried to). However your eyes betrayed every emotion you felt: anger, courage, fear, determination, worry, and love.

That last emotion was enough for me to throw a few well aimed hexes. I can almost hear you arguing with me on that. 'I'd hardly call those well aimed, Dray, even if you did manage to hit those death eaters.' I would laugh if I wasn't in danger of dying. Maybe if I do die then Old Death could have a nice laugh about it with me. Yet I hope that's a laugh that will have to wait until I've spent a long life with you.

"Very good, Draco, but not good enough. This is how a true master does it. Diffendo!"

Must be brave
And we must go on
Must not say
What we've known all along

With each wave of his wand a new gash on my body ripped open. However I kept on fighting, dancing like a mad man, trying to throw off his curses, even though I was in excruciating pain. I would not stop. Suddenly he turned and pointing his wand at you he screamed "Crucio!"

"No!" as I ran to you I knew it was trap, but I didn't care. Voldemort be damned, screw your hero complex, and damn my pride and the name Malfoy to hell. I was almost two seconds too late. Almost. Just as I reached you he turned his wand on me and the Cruciatus curse hit me. Waves of pain ran through me like white hot lightening. I kept my mouth shut as best as I could, not wanting to give that sadistic lunatic the pleasure of hearing me scream and see me thrash around.

I won't lie to you, love, this hurts as bad as the day you said that we had to end it and keep pretending to be enemies for my sake. I'm sorry, Harry, but you're a git. A stupid, idiotic, git. How can I not love you? How can I not love everything about you? How do I pretend to hate you when I'm watching you dance with death? When I'm afraid you'll go somewhere I can't follow? Tell me, love, how?

How can I not love you?
What do I tell my heart?
When do I not want you
Here in my arms?
How does one waltz away
From all of the memories?
How do I not miss you
When you are gone?
How can I not love you?

Gone. The pain is gone. I can vaguely hear you shouting and swearing. Honestly, love, you didn't pick up that nasty habit from me did you? Cussing like a Malfoy to the Dark Lord, dear me, Harry what will they say in the Prophet tomorrow? Okay I think I'm suffering post death insanity or something now. I hear more spells flying, then sweet silence before the hall erupts into cheers and screams.

I roll over, noting the size of the bloody pool I've made, to see Voldemort dead on the floor. Everyone is trying to hug you, thank you, but you shrug them off and run straight for me, hope mixed with fear on your face. I want to hug you, wipe that awful look off of your face, but I won't cause lets face it, love, I don't have much longer.

Must be brave
And we must be strong
Can not say
What we've known all along

"Draco! Oh Merlin, Draco why did you do that?" you kiss me repeatedly much to the shock of the spectators. Those piercing green eyes looked straight into mine as my arms slowly wrapped around your waist. "You're gonna be fine, Dray." You said reassuringly. I smiled and raised my hand to your face, you lean into my touch. "Harry, love, you never did possess my natural raw talent of lying."

You were shaking and you laid your head on my shoulder. "Please, Draco, stay with me. Don't leave me." I sighed, running my hand through your wild raven hair. "I'll try, Harry, but it hurts really badly." I noticed as I said this that it was really cold. I started shivering. You looked up at my face, with tears streaming down your own. "Draco? No please, Dray, I love you." I smiled wider for that was all I wanted to hear, every single day that I had to endure without you. Those days were complete torture for me.

Suddenly my grip on you slackened as my vision grew darker. "Draco? Draco!" I looked at you and smiled. "Harry, I love you too." Everything went black. "Draco? NO!"

When you are gone?

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