Just wanted to say that all of these characters, settings, and plots belong to Veronica Roth.
He knew he was dreaming, yet, he didn't want to wake up. Every night since she passed, he had these dreams. They were always the same. Same characters, same setting, same plot. It all started with him waking up next to her in the morning. The sun shown off her golden hair, and she wore a slight smile because she knew I was awake. We kissed, got dressed in our all black Dauntless clothes, and headed down to the pit. That must have been the day the transfers would come, because, one after the other, people would fall into the net. The first jumper was always an abnegation transfer, and that put a big smile on her face. She loved seeing that she had an impact on others. Now everyone was fighting to be first jumper.
When I saw that first jumper, I always thought of how I told her that, my theory, was that selflessness and bravery aren't all that different. That led me to think of the night we spent together, and as you might of guessed, led me to realize that we would never feel the warmth of our bodies together again. Never see her shining face again. Never grow old together.
And yet, now I realize I have lied to her. I once told her, "If you die, I die too." As I say that in my sleep, I wake up sobbing into my pillow, just like every night.