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Chapter 1: Disregarded

Her blonde hair sway side by side. Big chest bounce as she walk to the guild but she stopped at the door and swallow a mouthful of air. She forces herself to smile and she knew her mask of happiness was slowly cracking. As she opens the guild doors there she sees Lissana Strauss happily talking with Team Natsu's member. And the white haired girl saw Lucy. Lissana smile change in to a smug blonde smile persuasively as the team Natsu passed by her like she didn't exist. They were too busy chatting happily as they sit down to an unoccupied table and Lucy could only smile. Her nakama's look at her worriedly. And she hates the pity stares she receives from them.

She hates being treated weak and useless. She clenches her fist; tears threaten to spill to her chocolate brown eyes. And then she remembers what Lisanna said yesterday.

Flashback

"You're taking what is rightfully mine, you stole my team, you stole Erza's friendship with me,you stole Gray's good friendship to me and what's more is that you stole my Natsu to me! If you weren't there maybe our relationship might go to another level! I despise you! You stole everything what was mine,you bitch!"Lisanna shouted full of fury.

"I'm stronger than you! I mean look at yourself in a battle you always hide behind your zodiac keys or if not, you're behind team Natsu with your tails behind your legs! BECAUSE OF YOU MY TEAM ALWAYS GO HOME INJURED! YOU ARE NOTHING BUT A FUCKING BURDEN TO THEM! I SEE YOU DRAGGING THE TEAM DOWN IN THE GMG GAMES AND HOW YOU TAINTED MY TEAMS NAME!" she shouted more as Lucy hopelessly cries.

"Just quit forcing yourself in team Natsu you stupid slut!"

End of flashback

Until know those words linger to Lucy's mind she sat down to the bar and saw Cana drinking her booze face flushed grinning at the blonde.

"Vvhat's ish wrong lushie, why the long face?" the brunette ask lazily still grinning sheepishly.

"N-nothing Cana….I-im just a little stress you see."the blonde head couldn't help but to feel guilty lying to one of her closest brunette eyed her suspiciously and was going to ask more but Lucy smile wider as if assuring her that everything's fine but deep down it hurt like blonde head want to say what's wrong but she knew that she's relying again to she scooped away from her brunette nakama who only gape at her.

YOU ARE NOTHING BUT A FUCKING BURDEN TO THEM!

Lisanna's word haunt her again and she felt stabbing, throbbing pain in her chest where her heart was she knew if she collapse inside the guild the she will feel nothing more than a instead she ran out of the guild away from everyone's pitied looks,away from her nakama's,away from her team mates that made her feel as if she were now nothing to them but a replacement to them, and lastly away from the pain.

She didn't know how long she runs. She just follows where her mind demanded her. In front of her apartment. She didn't know where to go because in times like this it's best to run to your parents arm. How she snuggled at them and how they tell them she's there warm bodies wrapped around her small frame protecting her from any reality slams down to her crushing her hopeless fragile wish. Her parents are both deceased so she always run to Natsu's arm or her nakama's….

"Lucy stopped your relying to them again…."

"There's only one way to make the pain go away to stop thinking I'm weak…."

"And that's to do a solo mission, you need a fucking breather, Lucy, Take a grip at yourself"Lucy scolded mentally.

As a cue she took her luggage and stuffs some dress and other things she need in a mission. Smiling contently at herself, she sleeps at her soft mattress and consciousness welcome her.

The next day Lucy walked to the guild with her luggage. A huge fake smile plastered in her face but not her confidence. It was real confidence that Lucy Heartfilia wore when she was once a young princess.

"Ara, Lucy where are you going?" the white haired bar maid asked

"Mission!" She answered chirpily

The fairy tail members were glad when Lucy was back to her normal cheery attitude; even Gajeel and Laxus .They were horribly worried to their celestial summoner. These past few days she was so dull and somewhat lonely. They know already know why some tried approach her but an animal or Lisanna would suddenly show up in front of them asking if they want to accompany her and of course they can't refuse their nakama who died and was revived after 11 even Happy could go to Lucy because Lisanna always ask him to tag along with her or bribe him sometime with fish. This maybe cause Lucy to think that they were avoiding her but no today this sick joke need to stop. They were going to explain it to her crystal clear.

"But Lucy you didn't even pick a mission yet for us! You're such a weirdo!" Natsu said as he laugh at his humourless joke.

And at that minute everyone wanted to smack his head, real hard.

"NATSU SHUT UP!"The fairy tail's Titania scolded and smiles at Lucy "yes Lucy, I'm quite not aware of the mission you will pick? May I see for a moment our mission?"Erza asked smiling gently.

"Yeah, Lucy I kinda miss going on a mission with you." Gray said as he scratch the back of his neck blushing faintly. This made Juvia send playful glare at Lucy.

"What did you say ice prick!" The fire dragonslayer shouted and the next thing happened they punch each other. The red head titania was going to smash both of their heads when Lucy said making them halt in their actions and the guild stop frozen at what Lucy exclaimed

"What are you talking about?I'm going to a solo mission."

"WHAAAAAAAAAT!" The whole guild shouted except Lisanna who was smiling happily to herself.

"But Lucy we're a team!"Gray argued

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"But Lucy I can't forgive myself if something happens to you!"Erza said

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"Oi,oi Luce you might hurt yourself think about it at least let me come with you!"Natsu shouted half scolding her and half worried at her.

Hearing this, the blonde mage clenched her fist and lower her head. Her bangs covered her glaring eyes. There are them again making her feel utterly weak. Treating her pathetically useless making her more believe what Lisanna said

I mean look at yourself in a battle you always hide behind your zodiac keys or if not, you're behind team Natsu with your tails behind your legs!

"I don't care you're not my parents to tell me what I need to do! You're just my team mates and partner! For FUCK SAKE STOP FUCKING TREATING ME LIKE I'M FUCKING WORTHLESS!" She shouted at the top of her lungs. Finally, she voice out what she wanted to say for a long time ago and fuck it, she can finally breathe normal again.

Everyone froze. They never thought that Lucy was so depressed for treating her like a delicate doll.

After Master Makarov agree to Lucy going on a solo mission. She didn't dare to bid goodbye to them.

And that was the biggest mistake they have done for letting Lucy go on a solo mission. Because that was the last time they would saw the blonde celestial summoner

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Scratch that, not last time but not the same. Human again

AUTHORS CORNER:

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