This is my first story (Kinda of second) so don't be to harsh but still be firm, this is the first chapter of many so keep looking out for updates! (Oh yeah I do not own South Park or any of the people in this story)

"Oh my god, What am I gonna do! I have to do something.I can't just stand around telling myself and everyone else that...that im straight!I feel like something is eating me from the inside out, like,like some sort of bug, that will not go away till I tell somebody. I think today will be the day that I tell somebody if anything I think my best bet will be to tell my best friend and the person I have a crush on ,Kyle Broflovski. I thought about telling my parents but I think my dad would disown me on the spot, because when we watch T.V. and see something about a gay person being killed or how they want marriage rights, he says with the upmost hate in his eyes "Those fags don't know when to stop, huh Stanley" most of the time I nod or say

"They sure did dad" than give off a kina of a nervous laugh. But I hope when I tell Kyle he will not change the way he thinks of me, I mean when Kenny told us that he was bi we were all cool, expect for Cart man he called Kenny a dick loving homo and left to go hang out Clyde and them.

and the last person I'ill have to tell is my girlfriend of a year and a half, Wendy. I really hope she will understand, I know it sounds cliche but I still want to be friends with her but i just can't keep doing this. Not only to myself but to her. I knew for sure that I was gay when we were at her house and we were making out, and she asked if I wanted to do it but i kept making stuff up that I knew were untrue, like I needed to go home or I didn't have a condom. I have used these excuses at least 20 times. She hasn't asked to make love for a while but I think she has giving up for now.

"Stan Marsh! can you please tell me who conquered the Athens, Sparta or Persia." Mr Garrison asked me.

"Umm let me think"

"No time for thinking!Next time you better tell me what I want to hear or I will give you detection for a week! Know you better pay attention!

"OK... bitch" I mumbled

"What was that" Mr Garrison asked

"Oh nothing sir" I almost stuttered

"Damn right nothing" Mr. Garrison Yelled

Just as he said this the bell rung and school was over we all got out of our seats and headed for the door to leave so our weekend could start. I saw Kenny and Kyle Standing over by there lockers so I started to walk over to them.

"Hey guys whats up" I said

"Not much, but I think Kenny has some news" Kyle said

"Oh yeah I forgot, big news right here you ready,alright here it goes"

"Dude just say it" I said

"OK OK, im gonna ask out Butters!" Kenny said with excitement

"Oh sweet dude, when you gonna do it" I asked

"When we get back on Monday, maybe when were on the bus so if he says yes we can fool around in the back" Kenny said with a evil grin on his face.

"But what if Butters isn't gay" I asked

"Come on Stan, you're gonna tell me that Butters ain't gay, I mean just look at don't forget I have a built in gaydar" We all laughed at this as were walking out to the parking lot

"Well i'll see you guys later"

"Later Kenny" Me and Kyle said at the same time.

"You still want a ride to your house Kyle"

"Yea sure Stan, but let me do something first" Kyle said

"OK but hurry up I need to be home by 3:30 so I can start cleaning up the house so you can spend the night"I said, Kyle and I always spent the night at each others, and switched off every week.I watched Kyle run up to Butters and start to chat him up, what ever Kyle was talking about it was making Butters nervous, I could tell because Butters would always play with his hands and look to the ground when something was making nervous. Kyle finished talking to Butters and jogged back to my car.

"What was that about, Kyle" I asked

"Just some stuff, don't worry about it" Kyle said with a grin

"Well, alright lets go then" I said as I got in my car, Kyle is so lazy sometimes, I say this because he lives like ten min. anyway I would take him any were he wanted as long as I could be there with him. I still hope after tonight he would still want to be my friend or maybe even better... my I pulled my self out of my trance to strike up a conversation with my best friend.

"So what are you gonna bring when you come over"

"I don't know, I could just bring the same stuff I always do"

"OK then sounds like a plan" I said as we reached Kyle's house "See you in a bit dude"

"Yeah, see you later Stan" Kyle waved as I left his driveway, I just kept thinking I really really hope he just says yes to who I am. But right now I can't think about that, right now I need to think how I am going to tell Wendy. All I know is that I am going to tell her today. Because if I keep waiting it's going to get worse. I mean what if me and Kyle came into school holding hands and she see's us without me telling her whats up, yeah that wouldn't be weird.

"All right her house is coming up I can tell her before I go home"One of the good things about living in a small town is that everybody lived really close together and about thirty seconds apart.

When I got to her house, I got out of my car and tred to think of what to say "How about, it's not you that made me gay, it's just how I am." No, that would never work, uhh I don't have time for this I guess I'll just have to wing it.I walked up to her door and knocked. From the sounds of it I think she was coming from upstairs, then in a second the door whipped open and Wendy was standing there with nothing but a towel on I just thought to my self "As if this wasn't all ready hard enough, She comes down here in a fucking towel!Sigh might as well get this over with"

"Oh high Stan" She said trying to sound sexy, but sounded more moody if anything. "I didn't know you were coming over" As she said this she started to let her towel fall a little so she could let her some of her cleavage show. "So you gonna come in or you just gonna stand there looking dumb"

"Um well I guess I'll come in" I said with a little discomfort in my voice. As I walked in she lead me to her living room and I took a seat, but she stayed standing.

"So Stan what brings you here, did you want something to drink, eat maybe a little show." Wendy said as she started to take her towel off.

"Wendy stop!" I said raising my voice a little, she seamed caught off by this, but compiled "Alright thank you." I said "I think we really need to talk, not so much about us but more about me, know this is pretty hard for me so please all I can beg from you is that you don't freak out, I-I can't stress this enough"

"Well this seems like it sounds a little big Stan, maybe I should go put some clothes" Wendy said as she started to walk towards the stairs.

"Well you can do what ever you want, b-but it should not take to long" I said just wanting to get this over with, thinking she shouldn't over react because not only are we boyfriend and girlfriend for almost two years, we have been friends ever since the forth grade. we both under stand each others feelings like clock work "OK Wendy you know you might want to sit down for this,alright I've been keeping these feelings in for the longest time so please please don't judge me,I-I I am

gay.

How will Wendy react to Stan? Will Stan be able to tell Kyle, and if so how will he take it? Find out in the next chapter!

Hope you all enjoyed that first chapter next one will be on in about a day or two hope you all review! (When I put these chapters out I will already be half done with the next one so keep in mind that my updates will never be to far apart)