Title: My Soul's Desire

BOLD: Thoughts

ITALICS: Memories

Prologue

Regina felt the darkness envelop her body. She felt impotent, as the darkness prevented her body from making any movements. Her heart felt heavy, she felt the light slowly get sucked out of her heart and soul. Her mind told her to look for her soul mate in the small group of people, but her heart betrayed her. Instead of looking for Robin, her eyes looked directly into those deep-green eyes that belonged to Emma Swan. Even in this state, her heart longed for the person she truly loves, for the one person that time and time again has chosen her, the only one that has accepted her with all her flaws.

And this is how it would all end, Regina thought.

She saw Emma stride towards her, and all she could think about was, Don't be an idiot!

"No! There has to be another way!", Regina exclaimed with desperation.

"There isn't! You worked to hard to have your happiness destroyed!", Emma said starting to reach for the darkness but was stopped by Hook.

Finally, doing something right, stupid Pirate.

The darkness was starting to cloud her senses. She couldn't hear what was transpiring between the Pirate and the mother of their son. THEIR son. Would she be able to see her son again? Would she be able to see Emma again? She opened her eyes to see the woman she loved stepping closer to Hook.

"I love you"

She heard Emma say, and what was left of her heart started to break. Stupid idiot, she doesn't love you. She will never love you.

Emma started walking towards her again, her eyes never leaving Regina's. She saw how she raised the dagger and felt how the darkness started to leave her body and surround Emma's.

If only I had a second chance, just to show you how much I love you.

Emma's eyes still hunt her. Why didn't she move? Why didn't she try and save her? Emma sacrificed herself for Regina, and she let Robin hold her back while the one she loves was lifted into the night sky.

"Such an imbecile", Regina whispered while drinking from her cup of whiskey.

She sat at her desk, looking around the room. She has lost count on how many books she had already read trying to find a way to bring Emma back. It's been almost two weeks since the darkness had taken Emma away and she hasn't made any progress. She closed her eyes and searched her mental list of spells for a possible candidate, a spell that could help them with the search for Merlin. None came to mind.

"If you keep drinking those, you'll never going to find your answer", she heard Maleficent say from the other side of the room. She opened her eyes to see her leaning against the room entrance.

"Also, you need to get out of this house more. People are going to believe you were sucked in by the darkness as well", Maleficent said with a smirk.

Regina had to smile at this, sometimes the sorceress made her feel like her younger self again.

"I would get out more if that stupid Pirate stopped stalking me every five minutes and saying how all of this is my fault"

Maleficent walked in and sat at the couch right across Regina's desk, "You know, if the one you love got sucked into a vortex of pure darkness, you'll be acting all butt hurt and whiny as well"

Regina looked down at her almost empty drink and sigh.

"Too soon, my friend?", Maleficent asked sadly.

Regina looked up surprised and the sorceress smiled sadly, "I'm not stupid Regina. I known you long enough to know when you have feelings for someone. If you looked at the forest creature the same way you look at the savior, you would have married him long ago"

"Really, Mal?! Marriage. Did you smoke some outdated herbs?"

"No, I did not. Cruella was the herb lover, not me"

"That I believe", Regina smiled, "Besides, who will marry a man who has never chosen me first? A man who always chose another over me?"

"Regina…"

"Don't Mal, it's true. First, he chose his dead wife over me"

"That was your sister, Regina"

Regina stood up and threw her empty glass against the wall, breaking it upon contact. She looked back at Maleficent with rage, "Which makes it even more sick!"

She started to walk towards the sorceress, "If he really loved me, he would have done the right thing. He would have talked to his wife and told her he loved me and start a brand new life with me. But he went back to her, to be her husband. Once she was frozen, he seduced me once again, to fuck me not even 2 feet away from my parents' coffins!"

"Regina, please…"

"Emma, on the other hand, always chose me! She sacrificed herself for me!", tears started to run down her cheeks and she felt her legs grow week. She slowly walked towards the couch and sat down next to the sorceress.

"Why didn't you tell her how you felt?"

Regina calmed down before she answered, "Because she is in love with that stupid excuse of a man that I'm pretty sure also steals her makeup"

Maleficent placed a hand on top of Regina's, "I think I might have a solution to this mess, but it's a long shot"

Regina looked up, "What do you mean?"

"It's a Retrogression spell. But it has a flaw"

"What flaw? I've never heard of this spell"

"The Retrogression spell is kind of complex. When you conjure this spell, it will send you to a desired moment in time"

"And the flaw is?"

"The flaw is that the desired moment will stay in a loop until your soul's desire is achieved"

Regina looked at her like if the sorceress has grown an extra head, "My soul's desire?"

"Yes, whatever that is", Maleficent smiled sadly, "Do you want to give it a try?"

"You see Mal, I can't only think of myself in this matter. I need to think of Henry and what it's best for him."

"And what do you think is best for him, Regina?"

"To have his mother, to have both of his mothers. And I can't just give him false hope. I need an answer, something concrete"

"Then, let's give him something concrete. This can work, Regina", Maleficent stood up and walked towards the immense bookshelf on the corner of the room.

"So, what exactly do we need to cast this spell? What is the prize to pay?", Regina asked standing up and walking towards the sorceress. She noticed she was holding one of her Mother's books.

"Your mother, while rather mentally unstable, she was a true master of the dark arts", she said while passing the pages of the spell book until she found the page she was looking for, "Here we go, the Retrogression spell"

Regina started reading the spell and looked at Maleficent in horror.

"I never said that the prize was simple, my old friend"

"Time. The prize I'm going to pay is Time", the brunette whispered, "Time I could spend with my son"

"Time you could use to bring back your son's other mother, to give him his happy ending, to get your REAL happy ending"

Regina looked at the sorceress, "Will you keep my son safe while I'm gone?"

"You know I will, my old friend. And besides, I know Snow will never let anything happen to him"

"And do you trust her, you old dragon?", the brunette half smiled.

"I never said I did, but she and that pretty husband of hers are the best chance you have on keeping your son safe"

Regina took the book from Maleficent's hands and walked towards her desk, "So, I just need to read the incantation and it will take me to a desired moment in time?"

"Yes, read it to yourself and it will take you anywhere you want. Remember, you won't be able to come back to this moment in time until your soul's desire is achieved. Only you would be able to solve that"

"Ok", Regina said nervously, "Please, tell Henry I love him. Tell him I promise that I will be back with Emma"

"I will, you old fool"

"Thank you, Mal. I think I owe you one"

"You owe me nothing. You and that savior of yours found my daughter, this is the least I could do", the sorceress smiled, "Now, I will leave you alone with that book. Next time I see you, I'm hoping you succeeded on bringing back that blond idiot who decided it was a great idea to sacrifice herself for the Evil Queen"

"Go to hell, you stupid dragon"

"And leave you here all by yourself? Never", Maleficent smiled walking out of the room.

When Regina heard the front door close, she went back to the spell book.

"I hope she is right, for Emma's sake", Regina whispered nervously before chanting the spell in her mind:

Soles occidere et redire possunt;

Nobis cum semel occidit brevis lux,

Nox est perpetua una dormienda

She started to feel funny. Her life started to flash in front of her eyes and she was unable to neither see nor feel the room anymore. All the sudden, everything went black.

A/N: Haven't written in a while, so bare with me if there are any errors. I have this story planned out and know where I wanted to go. Now the challenge is, getting to that point. Let me know what you think, this is just a brief intro.

Also, the "Spell" is an actual verse of a Latin Poem and it reads:

Sun can die and be reborn;

For us, when once the brief light dies

There is one eternal night for sleeping