"No, no, no, no, no, no" Says a quiet voice in the silence that had just spread over the party being held in the shed. Then a sound registers with your ears, it is not a sound you have ever heard before, it is a horrific scream, a scream where you can physically hear in the sound of a heart shattering, of a world ending. I wasn't until about 2 minutes later I registered the sound was from me. I looked around, Pandora was crying, shaking against Thomas, JJ was stood in a shocked silence, his body sliding down the wall the he had jumped back into when Cook had pushed open the door leaving the room in silence. I then spotted Cook all eyes had been on him when he said in a quiet voice that was still so easy to hear
"Freddie's dead." He was dripping blood from a part of himself, but he was not bothered about that. It seemed Katie was though
"Cook why are you bleeding?" She said, the only sound apart from her voice the sobbing coming from people.
"The bastard who killed Freddie tried to kill me too."
"Who was it?" Asked JJ in a stricken voice.
"Some git called Dr Foster." It was then my world ended, I was running before I even realised it. I had no idea where, just away, far away.
I ended up at the lake; the lake where Freddie had dived in swam after me and told me he loved me, kissing me in the middle of the lake. That was the first time he had ever said he loved me. I watched the faint outline of the lake, it being blurred due to the amount of tears falling. I stood up, and jumped into the lake, keeping my head just above the water, feeling it over around me, before I sunk underneath the watery edge and waited for the darkness to claim me so I could be with him again. Instead of hearing the beating of my own heart echoing in my head I also heard, a voice. A voice that whenever I heard it made me feel safe. Freddie's.
"Effy no, I'm not worth it." It said, I chuckled slightly,
"Yes you are, you are worth my life, you have saved it enough." I said
"Why do I deserve to have you die for me?" He asked,
"Because you are dead because of me, Doctor Foster was my Doctor, I told him all about you, this is my fault." I replied, my voice catching. The tears still pouring down my face.
"You always told me that we were together forever, that there was no life for you if I left, but left me Freddie, How can I keep strong and positive, keeping myself okay, when the person who I love was murdered by the person who was working to make better?" I breathed a deep sigh,
"I can't do this." And with that I let myself fall into the water, forcing my head to stay under it.