I've always wondered what it would have been like to not wake up one morning. To be happy with everyone that could've been with me. But I know I can't think like that, I have Peeta, Clarissa, & Cooper. All these images go through my brain everyday. Prim, Cinna, Rue, Finnick, Boggs, even Coin & Snow. I can't erase it from my brain I remind myself of it every single day. I always wonder if Peeta feels the same way, But I'm glad that my children won't have to go through everything that everyone and I had to. Clarissa is now 5 & Cooper is 6. Clarissa is very beautiful with deep dark blue eyes and light brown hair. Cooper looks a lot like Peeta, he has green eyes with blonde curly hair. They both remind me of Prim when she was there age.
I wake up to footsteps hitting the floor, I rub my eyes and and get up. It's Peeta. "Peeta" I whisper "Peeta," he doesn't answer. I tap him on the back & he still doesn't answer. I look at his face & his eyes are closed tightly, so is his mouth. I shake him roughly, it startles him & he wakes up. "What the hell are you doing Peeta?" I say. "How did I get in the living room?" He says. "You were sleep walking, are you alright?" "Yeah I'm fine, just another nightmare" "What was it about?" I usually never ask him these type of questions, I just wanna know if he still thinks about the same type of things as I do. "Cooper" he says. "Cooper? Why was it about Cooper?" "I imagined him being Cato, tortured by those mutts." That was shocking. "But why would Cooper EVER be compared to Cato?" "Not that he's compared but that he was in his position, and I saw you shooting the arrow at him, & him choking me, it was terrifying." I hug Peeta tightly, then look at him. His eyes lock with mine, & we kiss.
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