"Allie mentioned that her head was hurting and nobody even noticed because they were worried about my hypothermia, and there she was walking around with her brain bleeding and nobody knew how bad she was because they were focused on me," Kristina cries

"Sweetheart it was an accident, everybody did the best they could, you can't feel guilty for something you couldn't do anything about," Sonny consoles Kristina as she cries.

"This is just like with Keifer," Kristina yells as Brenda walks into the room.

"How is this even remotely similar?" Sonny says with an edge in his voice.

"Because he died and I lived. The doctors couldn't save him. I loved him so much and now he's gone," Kristina cries and Sonny wipes the tears.

"He didn't deserve your love," Sonny with tears in his eyes.

"Yes he did. I was the only one he could…" Sonny cuts off Kristina.

"You were the only one he could smack around and put in the hospital because he couldn't stand up to his dad," Sonny raises his voice.

"Daddy don't say that! He loved me, I still see him in my dreams, why couldn't the doctors save him? What did he do that was so terrible to make my mom kill him? What did he do to deserve his father's beatings? What did he do to deserve me breaking his heart multiple times? What did he do to deserve the life he got?" Kristina stands and snatches the wires from her arms. "Why couldn't I save him? I was so scared you'd kill him, so I said Ethan did it and it cost him everything. I was so stupid and scared dad".

"Don't you ever say that. Yes he had a bad childhood, but that's no excuse for putting his hands on you.

"But if I was a better girlfriend, he would still be here. I should've gone to that party with him and wouldn't have gotten so angry. Dad he was so angry, I humiliated him. I just wanted to tell him how sorry I was."

"There's nothing to be sorry for. What? If you went to the party he wouldn't have been angry enough to put you in the hospital? He wouldn't have been run over by your mom? Why do you want that? So he could smack you around some more?"

"He was getting help, and I…dad I miss him," Kristina cries.

"Don't say that! He was a coward. He put his hands on you like Deke did to my mother," Sonny choked. "And I feel responsible for not noticing. I wish I could've protected you."

"I didn't want anyone to know especially not you. I wanted to protect him. He was going to Harvard and the temporary pain was replaced by his love. He was always sorry afterwards. He would buy me flowers or jewelry. It was like he needed me to forgive him."

"That's textbook abuse Kristina. When Deke would hit my mom he would come back with flowers and chocolates and she would always forgive him."

"Was he nice in the beginning?" Kristina asks.

"He was the best. We played catch, took me to see the Yankees, he loved my mother like no one else had before. We felt safe because he was a cop." Sonny said.

"What changed?"

"One day he came home angry and was half drunk and it was the first time he slapped my mom, but we thought it was a one time thing until the next time and so on. He put her in the hospital a bunch of times, broke bones, called her names…" Sonny gazed off.

"Keifer would call me names, and it was like we were fine one minute and the next I said something wrong. I was always walking on eggshells. He hated Michael and every time I defended him he would get upset."

"Is that where your split lip came from?" Sonny asks.

"Yeah Michael sent Max and Milo to warn him and they broke his phone. It all happened so fast. But I made up a lie. Sometimes I hated him and wished he would die, but now that he's gone, I don't know if I'll love or trust anyone as much as I did with him."

"You will sweetie I promise. You'll find someone who's amazing and treats you right. I promise," Sonny says.

"What if I become like you? You don't trust anyone to let them close. Or what if I find someone like the way you treated Claudia?"

"I'm sorry that you saw me treat Claudia that way, I was angry and I don't regret it, I just wish you didn't see."

"That doesn't make it any better dad! Did you ever hit her?"

"No not once, I made a promise that I would never hit a woman after what Deke did to my mother,"

"The words hurt worse dad, you said you were happy you lost your child after the accident, how could you say that? Were you off your meds?" Kristina cries.

"I know Kris!" Sonny snaps and she jumps. "I made so many mistakes in my life and I've only wanted the best for you. I said the worst possible thing because I had just found out that my wife put Michael in a coma. I didn't mean to say that. I love all my children and I'm sorry we lost our baby, but I'm not sorry that he won't be suffering from the loss of his mother at the hands of his brother. It was a complicated situation and I wish you were never involved."

"I think I want to be alone right now dad," Kristina says resigned.

"Please don't shut me out Kristina, I love you more than anything," Sonny tears.

"I'm just tired dad."

"Okay, I'll see you tomorrow?" Sonny asks.

"Actually I just think we need time apart, I'll call you," Kristina says and turns away from him. Sonny shuts down and walks out the room with Brenda following close behind. He can't hear anything just the blood pumping in his veins. He goes to the roof to get fresh air.