Chapter 1 Blaineless is the Opposite of Painless

(This is my 1st Glee fanfic so I would love reviews!)

(Disclaimer: this fanfic is based on the tv show Glee. I do not own any of the rights here.)

(Also, in this fanfic: Blaine and Kurt do NOT have sex in Season 3, Episode 5. The fanfic begins as Christmas break begins for McKinley High in Season 3)

Kurt wiped a tear from his eye as the car drove off into the distance surrounded by a sea of Ohio's farms. That voice that always energized him and those eyes that always helped him find optimism, would never touch him. He would have to rely on his voice to bring him energy and he would have to stare into his own eyes in the mirror if he wanted any hint of the satisfaction or confidence Blaine gave him.

"Too bad Blaine's moving," Finn said as he patted Kurt on the back. "He seemed like a nice boyfriend." Kurt almost burst into tears. "School just ended for the winter so we have about two weeks off. No school, that should be fun, right?" Kurt shook his head. Since all of his friends were away seeing Grandma for Christmas or basking in Florida's sun, a long two weeks stretched in front of Kurt. If Blaine were here, break would be amazing. They could go ice skating, work on songs for New Directions and kiss each other all they wanted. Perhaps they could even do what they almost did after they visited Scandals the first time. That would never happen now. Kurt only had himself for company.

Blaine's family though was moving to Chicago, his Father received some new job. Kurt cried when Blaine told him the news. "I wish I could stay but we have to go," Blaine said.

"I'll miss you so much, honey," Kurt replied. He hugged Blaine. Then the lips moved closer and closer until they touched. It only lasted 10 seconds but it held passion as the lips pressed each other. Blaine's tongue reached into Kurt's mouth but only for a second, yet its touch was filled with electric fire. "I will never forget you," Kurt said. As he stared into Blaine's eyes, Kurt saw the reflection of his face. It had tears streaming down it.

"He's gone now," Finn said as the flashback ended. "Let's go inside and see Mom and Dad. Yeah, I know it sucks. Rachel's gone too, she's seeing her Chicago relatives for Christmas. She will be back though, it is only two weeks." Kurt nodded but he would not see Blaine again in two weeks, he would see Blaine again never.

As Kurt walked into the house, he heard Burt talk with Carole. "Damm, I can't believe it. They have to have a revote for the congressional race because the voting machines were supposedly tampered with. It's on January 3rd, right before school starts for Kurt on the 5th. At least Sue and the other candidates are taking their names off the ballot except for the nasty guy who ran the Santana ad." Kurt ignored him as he retreated to his room.

Kurt stared at the wall. No Blaine, no more Blaine. Where though could Kurt find another guy? Wait, perhaps Scandals had someone. Kurt checked his wallet, he still had the Fake ID. But how could he get to Scandals? Then Kurt remembered what Karofsky said, "Taxis."

An hour later, Kurt stood a block away from Scandals as the taxi sped off through the trees. It was probably the best idea to not tell the taxi driver exactly where he was going. Being out and proud was important but telling someone he never met while in a moving vehicle, not a good idea. Kurt hesitated for a moment. Today was different, no Blaine was here to hold his hand or protect him. Kurt was alone, facing this dimly lit bar surrounded by a dimly lit road. He took a step back, he could not go in there. After a minute of breathing slowly, Kurt nudged the door open, showed his I.D and sat down at the bar. As he heard the slow song "Come into my world" by Kylie Minogue, Kurt scanned the bar. It was empty, except for Karofsky, sitting on the far end of the table.

"Hey Kurt," he said as he walked over to Kurt. "Where's Blaine?"

"I don't want to talk about him," Kurt said. "He moved and he's never coming back." He stared at the wall.

Karofsky moved back. "Man, sorry about that. Are you doing a long distance relationship?"

Kurt shrugged. "I really don't know, it's not the same if he's not there in flesh and blood, right?"

Karofsky nodded. "I've never had one but from what I have heard, long distance relationships never work, no matter how much you guys want it too. You can't kiss your boyfriend on Facebook, screens don't taste good. Unless Blaine can come back, you should look for a guy nearby. You're cute, you'll get a guy in five minutes."

Kurt looked at Karofsky for a second. "Wait a second, are you flirting with me?" Kurt asked pointedly.

Karofsky moved his hand. "Oh dude, don't worry. I already have a boyfriend now. Don't tell anyone though," he whispered. "Anyway, I've learned a few things from the gay dating world. Want to hear them?"

"Go ahead," said Kurt.

"Losing Blaine was really tough," Karofsky said. "Feeling sad about him forever does not help. You need a guy you can love like Blaine, someone who fills his gap. Also, it's a big time for you. High school is about to end, things will change. You have to experience the world a little bit. You might find the guy who will take your virginity." He stopped for a second. "No, don't rush it at all but don't hold back. If love comes knocking, hold open the door. You have a big heart unlike me. I was a cowardly idiot. Guys will love you but make sure you give them a chance." Karofsky stared at the counter and paused. "So that was my two cents," he said.

"Thank you," Kurt said as a small smile appeared on his face. He still stared at the wall though but glanced at Karofsky for a second.

"Hope it helped," Karofsky said. "Later man," he tipped his cap and left the bar.

Kurt stared at the wall for five minutes as the song "Somebody's Watching me" began to play. Could he do it, could he find someone new? Blaine though, he was just too irreplaceable. Then again, Lima, Ohio was only so large. He would not find another gay teen in weeks. How many even knew Scandals existed? Then he heard the door open. As it closed, a voice said "Hello cutie, you are really thirsty. Mind if I buy you a drink?"