So I'm having a problem deciding what to do for Ch. 13 of Truth as well as what to do with TJNJ and HSS. I got bored a few nights ago and wrote this for Twilight, I'll keep it short for now. Hope you enjoy.
Empty.
Numb.
Lost.
I felt these things the most, in my emotional whirlwind, as I stared blankly ahead. He was gone. The three words kept repeating in my head over and over as I glared at the T.V that was on in front of me. I lost him. Three new words remind me my efforts of keeping him with me failed and I feel so numb, so empty now. So numb to the physical and emotional pain. I'm not sure how much of myself being lost without him here to help and guide me I can take.
People are giving looks of pity and sorrow every time I walk down and it makes my stomach churn. It's only been a week since he left me alone in Forks and I'm a mess. I'm depressed; I don't eat, barely sleep and hardly move.
Everything feels foreign now especially this town and everyone in it. I feel like a stranger to not only those around me, but to myself as well. I thought he and I had forever, that our little routine would be the same until it was my time to move on and out.
The only real family I've ever know is gone and I know there's only one person I can blame. God how I hate his guts from taking him from me with every fiber of my being. Because of them, because of him the only man that I knew would be there for me whenever I needed him is gone. He's never coming back and it's Jacob's fault because Jacob killed him. He killed Charlie, the boy who was supposed to be my best friend killed my father.
Let me know what you think and I promise I'll have updates to my other stories before the month is over.