Chapter 1- No One
Jade's Pov.
I stomped through the halls of Hollywood Arts, kids quickly moving out of my way as I made a b-line for the vending machine. Once there, I inserted my dollar and typed in the code for a water. My heeled boot tapped against the floor impatiently as the machine spit out my drink. As I was reaching down to grab it, a tanned hand beat me to it. Straightening, I glared at Beck as he held out my drink. Making sure to claw him with my nails, I took back what was rightfully mine before heading in the opposite direction.
"Jade!" my ex-boyfriend called behind me. I could easily hear him catching up to me. I huffed, keeping my vision straight so I wouldn't have to see him. What did he want now? He already had the loyalty of the people who were once my friends. Plus, he had feelings for Vega, so what did he need me for? "Look," he started from my right. "I know you have a grudge against me, but I was wondering…I mean…can we just be friends? Sure, we may not be together anymore, but I still want to be able to talk to you."
Was he serious right now? I was in bed for an entire week sobbing over this guy, watching him flirt with other girls, and sobbing some more. It had been a month since our breakup, and I still wasn't over it. After what he put me through, he thinks we can just be friends? No, absolutely not! Unfortunately, my stupid heart had another idea. I spoke without meaning to, and it wasn't what I wanted to say.
"You're talking to me now, are you?" I hissed, still not looking his way as I stopped at my locker.
"You know what I mean."
I yanked open my locker and stood there for a moment, just thinking. Would it really be so bad? I'd be able to talk to him, and I wouldn't have to fake hating him. No, what was I thinking? This boy broke my heart and I was going to just give him his way?
Absolutely not.
I turned and narrowed my eyes at him. My bag was clutched in my right hand as I restrained myself from lashing out.
"Let's figure this out, shall we? We dated for two years, were exclusive for a year and a half, I cared for you, and treated you better than anyone else in my life. You of all people know how hard that was for me. And, within ten seconds, you threw me away like trash. You do the math."
With that, I slammed my locker shut and walked past who I thought was the love of my life. I turned the corner, my back was against the wall, hiding me from view. Finally, the bell rang, and the halls started to clear. Deciding it was safe, I snuck back into eyesight and into the janitor's closet. I immediately plopped myself down on the ground as tears started to poor down my face. I choked back my sobs so no one would hear.
Beck was officially out of my life, as far as I could tell. He had been the only person that I had opened up to. He saw sides of me that some people didn't even think I had. He was what gave me confidence, he was my anchor. Now he was gone, and any confidence and dignity that I had went with him. Who did I have now? Absolutely no one. When was the last time I saw my dad? Oh, that's right, at my play, and then he left again. He was probably on his huge boat somewhere in Hawaii with my step-mother.
Where was my actual mom? At the moment, she was at work managing people's bank accounts, but later tonight she would surely be with her new boyfriend. I didn't even bother meeting him, since he'd be gone in the next week just like the others. When was the last time one of my 'friends' texted me? Oh, yeah, telling me I was a jerk for taking Tori's place in the awards.
And that brought me to Victoria Vega. I wanted nothing more than to blame her for Beck leaving me, to claim that she stole him from me. But, even though Tori was part of the reason Beck left me, she wasn't the whole problem. True, Beck had developed feelings for her, anyone could see that, but I hadn't been fair to him the last few months. In fact, I hadn't been fair to him throughout our whole relationship. I had trust issues that I really couldn't help because it was how I grew up. No matter how much I wanted to, I could never bring myself to open up to Beck completely.
Sure, he saw different sides of me, and we took the large step of losing our virginity to each other, but even after that, it was hard for me to fully trust him. I loved Beck with all of my heart, and I still do, but I guess I just couldn't convince myself that he wouldn't leave me, no matter how hard I tried. It only hurt our relationship, and I knew it did, but every time I saw him talking to another girl, especially Tori, I'd become even more unsure. Some may say how I reacted was out of jealously, but those people were wrong. It was really out of worry. The worry of Beck was leaving me for one of them, and he had.
Sure, Tori and him were only friends now, but they'll become something more. And, when that happened, I would truly be broken. I'd have no one, and any hope of me getting Beck back would be gone. What was I saying? The chance of me getting Beck back was already gone, so why hope? The bell would be ringing soon, and if I missed another class, I'd be called to the office. My only choice was to return to the cold, collected, un-emotional Jade West that everyone knew.
I still had ten minutes though, so at the moment, it was safe to let my guard down. A few sobs managed to escape past my lips, and they couldn't really be controlled after that. So I sat there, a mess as I cried over my pathetic life. No one cared about me. No one in the world cared about me. I was all alone.
I had no one.