A.N: This is a companion fic to Dangerous Affections. You will need to read this fic to understand the Chuck and Blair arc . This will be told mainly through Nate and Serena's POV as the two duos enjoy their lost weekends. There will be three chapters in the Lost Weekend for Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. It does have its own plot so if you just love Serena and Nate centered fics keep reading.
Sorry for the long wait. I was busy with personal things for a couple of weeks and by the time I got back to writing I was still not able to iron out the plot issues I was having. Only last night was I finally able to think of a way to tie in the all the elements together that satisfied the readers and hopefully me making me feel comfortable to post this. Due to the lack of reviews from the last chapter of Dangerous Affections, I was honestly not that motivated to write for this story so I focused on my other Chair fic but rereading the fic this week jogged my memory as to how much I love these characters. For those of you who have been waiting for an update and messaged I hope you enjoy the lost weekend. Once this companion piece is the done Dangerous Affections will, only a have a few more chapters left to it.
Brief Summary of Dangerous Affections (for Serena and Nate): Using the major story lines from the show Dangerous Affections is told only through the point of view of Chuck and Blair. Serena arrival in the start of the fic leads her right into Nate's arms only to have Chuck interrupt them. Threaten; they confess their affair to Blair, who vows to destroy their reputations. Serena only arrived back in town to support her brother Eric after his suicide attempt and when visiting Eric she discovers that Blair had relapsed. Later, at the Kiss at the Lips Party Nate confront Blair for sending damaging photos of his father to his mother publicly embarrassing Blair. The next morning Serena comes to Blair's aid hoping to put the past behind them. Blair accepts the olive branch. At the brunch, Nate arranges to make peace with Blair and listening to his parents who tell him that an engagement with Blair is the only way to fight off an arrest for the Captain he offers her the Vanderbilt diamond as a promise ring, which she rejects. However, he begins to fear that his best friend may have feelings for Blair causing a rift between the two. Serena is now confused as to who Nate has become and wants little to do with him. After the Captain's arrest Blair and Chuck comes to Nate's aid. Nate, determined to get Blair back arranges for her to be at a family press conference in a last ditch effort but Blair is determine that they are in the past. The day before, this chapter begins was Thursday, the day of Chuck and Blair's photo shoot.
Friday- Wanna Just Get Lost Together?
"Mom I am up!" I yelled at the knocking at the door with a mouth filled of toothpaste. I was standing in front of my closet with a toothbrush in my mouth rocking on my feet as I blasted 'Beautiful Girl'. I was still in a fabulous mood after my epic Waldorf Designs photoshoot this week.
The door opened up and I looked up to find Blair standing there with a nervous look on her face like the one she was going to throw up.
"Come in," I mumbled with a mouth filled with minty tooth paste her as I head up a finger and rushed into the en suite to rinse my mouth out. I tighten the robe as I reentered the room and sat on the bed next to Blair. She was wringing her hands together nervously.
"Blair, sweetie, talk to me," I said gently. I knew Blair and I stood on shaky ground. I knew her coming her was a sign of her trust in me.
"I had sex with Chuck," she said when she finally looked at me with tears in her eyes. I tensed up in fear confused over her pained face I feared the worst.
"You wanted to have sex with him right?" I asked quickly needing to make sure. The ghastly look on her face told me that I was way off base.
"Oh my god, of course," she said and I knew she felt uncertain about her coming here. I shifted gears in order to be supportive. It was clear this thing with Chuck was serious for Blair. I was way off base in thinking she wanted to be back with Nate.
"Okay so was it bad or something. Why are you crying?" I asked trying to make a joke, which I usually did when I was nervous. Sadly, my jokes were usually bad in times like this. She did not seem to notice.
"No. It was good. I just think… I think I feel like I am love with him, S," she confessed to me as the look of sickness was on her face.
"Blair why is that a bad thing?" I asked trying to figure out what was going on and I rubbed my hand on her back to soothe her nervousness.
"Because it's Chuck Bass! He doesn't do love. He doesn't do girlfriends and I promised him a one night thing no strings attached. The love word kinda implies string or he would see it as a noose around his neck," she rambled on as she jumped up and paced the room nervously.
"We don't know that. I mean if anyone can change his mind it is you," I tried to be encouraging but the truth was Chuck was a renowned playboy for a reason.
"No. I mean why would he? And to top it all off he has his stupid lost weekend with the guys this week. He is probably going to sleep with all the models in Manhattan and completely forget about the day we shared. And I," she was beginning to ramble and I needed to cut her off.
"Wait, so you did spend all of yesterday with him," I asked.
"Yes, Serena, keep up. I already confessed to screwing Satan's spawn so spending the day with him is the least of my concern at the moment. How do I do this? How do I be in love with someone who just sees me as another pair of legs," she continued her pacing and ranting.
"Blair, I am sure what happened with Nate is hurtful and might make you trust men less," I added. She snapped her head to look at me with her fierce glare. I suddenly knew what I said was wrong and I tried backtracking. "I don't mean like that. Please continue with what happened with the spawn of Satan," I encouraged.
"I came here for advice since you are so well known for being able to have one-night stands with men," she threw out her words harsh and mean. But I knew Blair well enough to know that she got defensive when she was nervous. I bite my lip and let it slide.
"Blair, listen you have feelings for Chuck Bass. I think there is the possibility that he has feelings for you. At the brunch a few weeks ago, you should have seen him when he thought that you and Nate were up in suite screwing around. B, if anyone could change the mind of Chuck Bass it is you. You are the only one who can match him word for word, takedown for takedown, and I think you guys will look awesome together," I told her and she sat down midway through my speech. I could tell her tension was lessening. I nudged her shoulder with a smile and she smiled back. Truth was as much as Chuck seemed into her at the brunch he was still Chuck and I had little faith in him.
"But he has the lost weekend thing still. I cannot talk to him about this knowing he is going to be drinking, sleeping with women, doing drugs, selling body parts on the black market or whatever happens on lost weekends," she said. Her dramatic sass and dark humor back. I laughed.
"Okay… so after, you guys sit down and talk," I suggested ignoring her Blair dramatic flair.
"And I'll wait till he fucks himself through a lost weekend?" she asked.
"No we are having our own lost weekend." She looked at me with confused. "Call Dorota tell her to pack a bag and your passport. Oh, and a fake ID. I am going to handle the rest. If you want to go to school, you can, but if you want to skip we can leave as soon as we pack," I told her. I owed her a lot for accepting me back into her life even after I slept with her boyfriend.
"Passport?" she asked and I nodded gleefully.
"Come on we are going to get lost," I widely smiled and she joined me.
"Let's skip class," she said and threw herself back to lay on my bed. I threw myself next to her our heads touching looking at the ceiling.
"So was he that good, that Blair Waldorf is skipping two days of school? I mean I know he is supposed to be great at it but you are a changed woman. So tell me the details," I asked.
She shrugged. "It's not like I have experience to compare it to," she said. I nudged her hoping to loosen her up. "Okay, okay. It was great, wonderful. His hands were everywhere and always knew where I wanted him to touch me. Ahhh. He was gentler than I could have ever expected. He wasn't bossy or controlling but helped encourage me when I was nervous. It was as perfect as real life can get. There were a few awkward moments but that's expected right?" she asked.
"Yes, that sounds awesome Blair," I laughed and hugged her. "My little B is all grown up!" I shouted. She laughed and told me to shut up.
"S," she looked embarrassed and laughed. My eyes widened as I waited for the next part. "It was more than just the sex. The photo shoot was amazing. He arranged for all my favorite foods. He was so attentive and the way he looked at me in our photos. I wanted to rip his clothes off more than one. After we had dinner and he took me to a burlesque club, he wants to purchase. I danced on stage for him in front of a crowded room. Then we went back to his limo and we… S, in a fucking limo. My first time but it was perfect. Then he rented out the royal suite in the Placae and we did it again and again and again," she giggled sharing with me the details. I admit I was shocked.
"Blair, fuck. I would never would have expected that from you but I guess Chuck brings out your dark side, huh," I teased.
"I never felt so free and bad….okay…Okay so where the hell are you taking me?" she asked and I smiled gleefully. I needed to book the flights but I am sure my mother would help me with that. If she understood anything, it was fleeing a broken heart and a broken relationship.
I was a bit annoyed as I waited for my friends to show up at school. Yesterday, Blair and Chuck did not show up for school and now there were reports on Gossip Girl that they were seen on around town together. My texts and calls to Chuck this morning went unanswered. I knew that there was something going on with them and honestly, I was nervous to find out what. I had spent the past few weeks angry with my parents but Chuck and Blair were my lifeline. I thought I was gaining ground getting Blair back since she was constantly coming to my defense these days. Yet, it seems like that it was all for nothing. They were closer than ever it appeared. I knew they look too close at the Kiss at the Lips Party and after at the brunch Chuck was acting weird. But I thought by making my attentions clear to Chuck he would back off but I guess being boys means nothing anymore. I was tired of this shit. I was tired of losing everyone and finding out that no one in my life could be trusted. I blew the cigarette air out of my mouth as I leaned near the front gate hoping one of them would show up by now. The temperature had dipped so they stopped sitting at the Met Steps in the morning so they should arriving here any moment. Yet it seemed waiting for my classmates to come to school was wishful thinking. Serena and Chuck missing school was one thing but Blair was uncommon. Fuck it if they were not coming I was not staying.
Throwing the cigarette to the ground and snubbing it out, I pulled off myself off the wall. When I turned the corner looking down at my phone ready to call Chuck and figure this out I ended up bumping right into a girl knocking her down.
"Owww!" she yelled as she fell and I instantly reach down to help her up muttering numerous apologizes.
"Nate, umm it's okay," the smiling blonde told me as dusted off her skirt. I knew she was one of Blair's new minions yet I could not remember her name.
"No, I am sorry I was not looking where I was going. A lot going on," I explained.
"I was in a rush. I am sorry. But you seemed to be going away from school," she asked.
I gave her a tight smile and shuffled in place hoping to get out of this situation. I needed to speak to Chuck about what was going on with Blair.
"You don't look so good," she said and I rolled my eyes at her comment. Here this girl was who I did not even know was telling me what everyone knew. "I am sorry, it's not my place. You probably don't even know my name. I am sorry about everything that is going on with your parents and Chuck and Blair sneaking around on you. By the way it's Jenny," she rambled on.
"Jenny? Chuck and Blair sneaking around, do you know anything about that. I know that you are one of her min-errrr- friends. I mean I just want the truth and I feel like if I ask them they are not going to tell me the truth," I confessed. I knew Blair's minions were loyal but I was hoping that the new girl in the group was less loyal than the others. I needed to know if Blair and Chuck were together. Chuck was the only person who really got me and in his distant way, I was sure that he also cared about me. If he slept with Blair after I asked him not to then I knew how little he actually thought of me. How little he thought of Blair to treat her like all the others. I spent years looking out for her and I was done doing that. She needed a guy that would actually treat her right after what happened. That may not be me but it sure as hell was not Chuck. The way she came to my side though even after everything had happened reminded me of the Blair I knew when we were younger. The girl was fiercely loyal and kind behind her mask and I realized she was just hiding that she was still that girl. I wanted to protect her from him. I needed to protect her from him. I loved her first and I needed to show her that Chuck could never be what she needed.
She looked nervous and looked around. By this time, I knew school had started and she was late. She looked towards the school and then back at me. I ran my hand through my hair hoping my good looks would incite her to tell me whatever she seemed to want to say.
"I saw them. Tuesday, they snuck away fifth period, that's when the juniors have lunch, right? I saw them enter the art room when I was in the hallway going to my locker. They were together in there," she passed me her phone showing me a picture of Blair and Chuck together kissing in the art room.
I felt sick but this must have been how Blair felt the day I told her I cheated on her with Serena. In that case, we were actually dating. "Did you show anyone else this?" I asked. The girl should have not have this photo unless she was going to send it to Gossip Girl.
"I told Chuck. He begged me not to show you," she confessed. "I don't even know why I took it." I looked at her with suspicious. I knew what mean girls were like and I was trying to determine if Jenny was a small fish in a tank with sharks or if she was a shark herself.
"Thanks for telling me the truth," I told her and turned to walk away.
"Wait… where are you going," she asked placing her hand on my shoulder.
"I wanted to be alone. I just want to get away," I admitted.
"Coney Island," she said. "You must go to Nathan's for a hotdog. This time of year it is pretty quiet and it's the perfect place to think high and away from the city."
"Thanks," I said as turned to walk away from her. Suddenly I realize how alone I was in the world. No real friends at the moment and my family had already fallen apart.
"Hey, Jenny!" I called out back to her she had already walked a few yards away. "Want to get a hotdog!" I yelled out and she smiled brightly.
"Of course, you probably don't even know what the right toppings are," she teased as she walked back to me.
"I have so you know made a mean hotdog at Yankee Stadium," I joked.
"From the box seats?" she said giving me a look of judgement. I laughed aloud freeing myself from the weight of everything that was happening.
"When I said I was going to come with you I did not know I was going to need to have all my shots in order," Blair sassed out.
"Come on you are going to have the time of your life," I promised her. "Sure as long as I don't use an organ on the black-market,"
"Happy to see youth dry humor is back. So tell me more about the modeling thing with Chuck. That was surprising and a better reason to leave the city because you know when Eleanor finds out she is going to kill you,"
"I know. But it was pretty great. I don't know if I would do something like that again it was pretty exhausting but more enjoyable than I expected.
"Think about soon you and me are going to be the faces of major lines. It's so awesome, B."
"So, what is the plan when we get there?"
"Drink, dance drink, powernap, and then suntan then drink and dance again."
"Sounds like a plan to get taken by kidnappers"
"Dramatic much, B. Let your hair down have fun. No one even knows we are here."
"My parents might kill me for this."
"Relax and have fun. Maybe we can find you a lover, huh? Since you are a woman now," I joked and she laughed with me.
"Shut up or I am going to bite you," she threated causing me to double over in laughter.
"No, you can't. I don't have my tetanus shot yet and you did screw Chuck Bass," I joked. She rolled her eyes but I could tell was holding back a laugh. "Go to sleep I am sure you are tired after your deflowering," I teased finally making her blush enough to know I should stop.
I could not help but tease her. Blair Waldorf and Chuck Bass, together, it seemed so unbelievable. Then again, a lot has changed since my time away. The four of us had always been a team. Friends since grade school we promised to not break apart and yet we were splintered more than ever. Starting because of Nate and I. I was always so jealous of how together Blair's life was. It seemed perfect from afar. I knew she had her problems with her body image and her mother but when you are in your early teens it seems like everyone has a better life than you do. Half of me wanted that and the other half wanted to validate myself knowing Nate wanted me. I should have stopped after a few kisses but it grew out of control and soon enough we had sex and there was no going back from that.
Then something happened. Something I did not expect. Nate kept messaging me long after everyone else had stopped. He texted, called, and wrote messages to me on Facebook. At first, he asked where I was and eventually he just started telling me about life at home. There were no grand declarations of love just a friend talking to friend who never responded. I lived for those messages. My only reminder of my past life. That is why when I bumped into him at the Palace after coming back I could not help myself and neither could he. I created a romantic ideal that we were star-crossed lovers hiding from everyone. It was silly. There were no words or explanations. I needed Nate and he did not protest. Blair was the furthest thing from my mind. Therefore, we snuck up to Bass suite looked around for a moment for Bart or Chuck and then grabbed at each other. I know I would have slept with him if not for Chuck walking in. Honestly, I debated with sleeping with Nate once more. It was only after sharing pizza with her and Eric did I remember that Blair was more than just a friend she was family. We cannot choose our family it just happens that why and we love them and stick by them through anything. Blair was my sister and I knew then that we would get through this.
I just wish someone would tell Nate that I was not interested. Until the brunch, he was texting me every day and cornering me every chance he had to confess his love. And the day of the brunch I was so confused. After my break through conversation with Blair that morning about her and Chuck I arrived back to find Nate and Dan waiting for me. I brushed Dan off telling him to come to the Bart Brunch that afternoon and Nate followed me up to my room. I just wanted to talk to him and I knew the room we were in was empty since my mother has stepped out to see Eric. He pushed me up against the door as soon as I closed it, there was no Chuck to interrupt us this time. Nate and I had sex again. The moment it happened, I yelled at him and myself for being so weak. He went off about Blair sending photos to his mother and he was sure that Chuck and Blair had sex. I knew they had not from my conversation with Blair that morning. I told him so and the guilt was written on his face. One look at his face and I realized that I was a pawn in his plans for revenge against Blair and Chuck. Did he even see me as a person? He left to talk to Chuck. Chuck, who at this point seemed like the better man because of the way he treated Blair while Nate just used me. That was why I got nervous when Chuck asked about Nate and I. There were no lasting feelings there only regret and shame. After taunting Chuck after he made me look horrible in front of Dan, the one not fucked up thing in my life, I felt sick to my stomach at the thought of Nate and Blair back together. But seeing him proposing to her, or whatever he called it made me realized how weak of man he was. The texts and declarations stopped after that. We pretended the day of the brunch never happened. I pretended that Nate and Blair were prefect for each other once again when I thought that was what she wanted as she took care of him through his father's arrest. I told myself Nate was only acting out because of what was happening at home. I made excuses for him and he stopped reminding that he was so in love with me. Everything was back to normal until suddenly Blair somehow fell for Chuck Bass. Spoiled Nate would not take that well.
I was somehow stuck on a Ferris wheel in the middle of Coney Island on a windy fall day. The sky was clear and I could see the beach and the city skyline. The city only served to remind me of all the things so wrong with my life. Everything was falling apart as I sat here with a virtual stranger as she went on and on about the ways to spot a fake bag. I only half listen, well ready not at all but I think she knew that. She was just trying to fill the awkward silence. It was around ten when Chuck messaged me How da fuck am I the only one in school and I thought of responding back telling him I knew about him and Blair. But that did not seem like the right thing to do so I ignored it for the moment. Jenny stopped babbling and I closed my eyes letting my head full back as we went again round and round. Her hand came out to reach for my hand and my eyes opened as I looked at her and she smiled.
"I am sorry about your dad, it must be really hard," she said. It was genuine, I could tell. People the past two weeks had apologized but never meant it. "My mom… she betrayed our family. Not in the same way but she cheated on my dad and ran off. She just left us. Here I am starting high school and I need a mom the most and she just…" she trailed off looking out back into the city unable to face her own parent's mistakes.
"It sucks when parents aren't your heroes anymore," I added.
"Yea, but at least once upon a time we thought they were. So many people don't ever see their parents that way because they were never loved the right way," she offered her hopeful youth on display.
"I guess. But my father…" I coughed out the lump that was in my thought. I needed a drink. "he was a cheat, a drug addict, and theft. And I am no better than him," I confessed thinking back to the girls I slept with these past weeks, all the alcohol I consumed, the few blackouts, and the sex with Serena. The day of the Bart Bass brunch was the worse. I sleep with Serena in the morning, wanted to fight Chuck after the Gossip Girl post, wanted to marry Blair before brunch, got high after brunch, and by dinner was drunk off my ass at the point where I think I threw up on Bart fucking Bass himself. It was a fucked up day overall. I could not get Blair to agree to marry which meant cementing my father's arrest warrant. I was just as bad as my father was. The apple did not fall far from the tree.
"You are a good guy Nate. You might be a little lost. But you are good," Jenny told me.
"How can you know?" I asked her but a part of me wanted to believe her.
"I don't know you were able to be friends with Chuck all these years without killing him," she said laughed and I agreed but I knew I was no better than him really. He just showed the world who he was with no shame and I hid behind my persona.
Dude, u comin rite tonight? Chuck texted and I bite my lip in thought.
"Sup?" Jenny asked as she pondered my face. We were now eating our hot dogs outside of Nathan's Famous Hotdogs.
"Debating whether or not I should go to Chuck's lost weekend thing now," I confessed as I watched her pour relish, mustard, and pickles on her hot dog. I was a simple ketchup guy despite my previous boast.
"Getting drunk with the guys might be good for you better than pizza with me in Brooklyn," she teased.
She was right. A night of forgetting did sound good. And if it was on Chuck's dime than it was even better.
Yea c u then was all I responded to him. Lost weekend here I come and I did not want to remember a single bit of it. But come Sunday morning Chuck and I were no longer going to be friends.
No Chuck in this chapter but next will be loaded I promise. This is more of a beginning to the rest of the drama that will pick the lost weekend. They do party on Friday but imagine clubs, alcohol, and whatever is crazy fun filled. Blair and Serena's location will be describe in the next chapter. Also, a character POV change will occur in the next chapter. No it will not be Jenny. She will not be seen for the rest of the lost weekend. I needed her conversation with Nate to make him seem less bad. He is not my villain in these stories but I know that some people might think of him as one. If you haven't guess the major plot of the story is all of our main character are lost at this point in their life as they transition and try to negotiate dating and friendships.
Serena and Nate the day of the brunch. now we all know what they were whispering in corners about. Three-shot.
Please review and let me know. To all the Chair fans who are still reading this for the Dangerous Affections connections I hope the coming Nate and Chuck confrontation and Blair and Serena gossiping is enough for now. Stick with me for two more chapters.