And I Cry

by Cherie-24-Addict

No one understands the pain of someone who can't find the light at the end of the tunnel; often enough, they can't even see it. You can hide it sometimes, but the truth is, it'll always come back to you. What are you supposed to do, laugh or cry?

July 22, 2010

24: And I Cry

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And I Cry

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If you believed I was important,

You wouldn't have patronized me.

If you considered me a friend,

You'd see how you're killing me.

If you loved me,

You'd lead me to the light at the end of the tunnel.

If you cared about me at all,

Any of you,

I wouldn't have dug myself into this hole.

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I can push it away sometimes,

If the conditions are right,

If the sun is out

And my nails are pink.

And I laugh.

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But it is never gone for long.

It always comes back.

So the gray clouds roll

And my nails are black.

And I cry.

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And I am numb.

And I am helpless.

And I am incoherent.

And my notebook is scraping my inner thigh to shreds.

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And the scary thing is,

It feels better than anything else.

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You know what this means - R&R time! I'm sorry for the sporadic updating (math is a bugger), but I wanted you to keep seeing some of the poems I wrote while I was at camp. I'm not done yet!