Why They Call It Falling, Now I Know
By Ricco Ragazza
Disclaimer: I don't own Star Wars, Amidala, Anakin,
Obi-Wan Kenobi, Qui-Gon Jin, lightsabers,
or anything else along that same line! I know you know that, but I have to put
that! Please, don't use my story without my permission. If you ask me I'd be
glad to let you use it though!
AN~ Well, this is a short fic, all about Amidala and how she fell in love with
Anakin. I think it's pretty good actually, and I hope you think so, too!
Please, PLEASE, review it! It'd help me out if you left me your opinion and
some suggestions! I need all the help I can get! Duh, you all know that by now
right????? It'll only take a sec, too. What's a lil'
old second anyhow!? If your in a really good mood, and
have some free time on your hands you can e-mail me: riccoragazza@aol.com And tell me what you thought! Now, THAT, would make my day! That's what I need after a long day
of getting yelled at my sport and singing coaches! So, ya,
know, if you aren't too busy…?
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Why They Call It Falling, Now I
Know
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~By Ricco
Ragazza~
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I never understood love. I mean when you are young, you
think you understand everything. Even when older people say that to you, you
even think you understand what they mean by that. You don't, though. It all
comes to you in time. It never seems like the biggest triumph though, after
all, everyone thought you already understood, even you did.
I was four-teen, I was a queen, and most of all I thought
I knew just about everything. I didn't think life could throw anything at me
that I hadn't seen or heard of, or imagined after the attack on Naboo. Of course, I was wrong. It almost makes me laugh to
think of how I was back then, bull-headed and strong. I'm not quite the same
now.
The years after the attack on Naboo
proved my theory right. There were problems, yes, but I was ready for anything
they could throw at me. I understood the meaning of friendship, not! I'm
beginning to wonder if I knew anything back then. I had some of the best
friends in the universe, and I knew it. Not! I knew the concept, but I hadn't
really realized it yet. You know how it is, when it takes things so long to
finally register in your mind. I wish I could have understood how lucky I was
back then, because now my friends are gone. I knew I was lucky, but I didn't
really know it, if you get my drift.
Time is a very high price to pay for knowledge, nothing
hits closer to my mark. If I knew then, what I know now…how many times have you
thought the same thing? Regrets. I have to admit, I
have a long list of them. They're hard to live with, but like everything, when
you realize you can't take them back you quit thinking about it. But, then of
course, that time it took you to figure that one out wasted at least a year of
your life, and so the cycle continues.
Like I was saying, the years went by faster and faster as I
got older. I guess they go by faster because you remember everything more
vividly as you get older. When you're young, all memories seem to be in some
sort of fuzzy light. Well, the years went by, and I welcomed them. When I was
finally eighteen, I met someone.
I thought it was love, I won't lie to you. When you fall
in love, you'll know it…yes! A very, very true
statement. If there is any doubt, it isn't love, believe me. Although,
for me, my bullheadedness got in the way and I thought people made all the
stuff about riding off into the sunset up. After all, fairy tales always speak
of love, and everyone knows how truthful a fairy tale is.
He courted me for about, let me
see, about six years. I was happy, I wasn't jumping for joy, but I was
relatively happy. He was a prince from a strong planet, I bother to mention
which one, because I'm sure you know who I'm talking
about. He was a great guy, and I thought since he was so wonderful that I had
to be in love him.
That's when it happened, another war.
Well, that's when I realized people could surprise me, and
they could amaze me with their cruelty. Clones, someone was using clones
against us. It was an awful news, and the whole
universe turned upside down. Well, in the turmoil from being turned upside down
and thrown around, two old friends showed up at my door one day.
I laugh as say I didn't recognize either of them. When the
older one said he was Obi-wan Kenobi, and I called him a liar. He didn't look a
thing like the Obi-wan I remembered. The man standing next to him, I had no
idea who that was, but he smiled at me. I didn't look at his face. You know,
how you glace quick enough to see he's smiling but don't look long enough to
see what he really looks like?
Obi-wan laughed and asked if he could come in. I caved in
when he showed me his lightsaber, Qui-gon's old lightsaber. I
apologized and laughed at myself. I led the two of them in the house and got
them something to drink.
When I came back, and had given them their drinks, I asked
Obi-wan who the man beside him was. The man smiled with pride, at being called
a man I'm sure, but his smile was unlike that of a man's, it was the smile of a
boy at heart. Obi-wan looked at me funny for a moment, then
said that I should know him. I finally met the man's gaze and that's when it
happened: I fell in.
When I looked into his eyes, I saw everything I had ever
dreamed of, hoped for, needed, wished for, it was all there in his eyes. They
were the most beautiful blue eyes in the universe by far I'm sure. His eyes gave
me strength, they gave me hope, they gaze me a reason to hold on, and most of all they gave me love.
I know now why they call it falling. I can't really
explain it all to you, but I promise, when you meet him it'll come to you, oh,
yes, it will come to you…
::END::
EN~ I hope you liked it! This is my first attempt at a new
writing style, so you know it's not very good. Gotta
get worse to get better, right?
