I see my patient into the ambulance and head towards the station, It's Wednesday just before dawn, he will be finishing his shift, I know if I don't go talk to him right this moment I will lose my nerve and I'll spend the rest of time regretting. I tie my coat tighter around my waist hoping I am covered enough to look decent, but who really am I going to run into at this hour.
I see him standing behind the booking desk; he is concentrating on some paperwork. At least he wasn't on the streets tonight, I thought to myself, I hate thinking of him out all night dealing with God knows what. I told him this once and he laughed, "Camilla you too are called out at all hours of the night, at least when we are on shift together I know I can keep my eye out for you and keep you safe". I take a deep breath as I walk forward my shoes clack on the linoleum of the police floor.
"I'm turning myself in…" I stutter as I approach the desk. "…for criminal cowardness." His entire body jumps at the sound of my voice. His face is like stone, not wanting to let me read his emotions. "I have been a fool, denying two people what will make them most happy in this world, I've decided it's time to be brave" I say placing my hands on the desk.
"I see" he says looking away from me.
I look around to make sure nobody can hear what I say next, I can barely believe I am about to speak these words aloud. "I hope so….." I whisper. "… because underneath this rain coat I a practically naked."
He looks me up and down making an assessment, I assume of my lack of clothing, and then looks me straight in the eyes takes a deep breath and practically leaps over the desk to kiss me, his knee is up on the counter and he holding onto my coat so tightly I am afraid it will rip, then I truly will be naked in the middle of a police station. I can smell him, a mix of soap, cologne, and sweat how I have missed that smell I breathe him in deeply and immediately feel at peace again. "I love you." He whispers into my ear kissing along my neck. At the sound of footsteps he quickly lets go of my coat and moves to stand behind the desk but he has taken hold of my hand so tightly I think he fears I will run off. Keeping his voice low he says "I am off in two hours, go back and get changed and meet me back here we can go to my flat to talk." I nod, of course I will meet him.
"I have missed you so much…I have been such a fool." I say with tears in my eyes not wanting to let go of his hand. I hear someone come through the door for booking.
"And I you" he whispers kissing my hand as he lets is go. "I have to work now, my Angel, please don't keep me waiting I'll see you so soon." I nod and walk out of the station. Back to have a bath and change before I meet Peter and we go to his apartment. His Apartment! I want nothing more than to give everything to Peter to share my life fully with him and this will be my opportunity to prove it. Just what does a girl wear to such an occasion as a 7am meeting with her future?