Disclaimer: (I'm only doing this once, so listen closely) Obviously, I do not own Teen Titans. If I did, I wouldn't have to write it here, you'd be watching it on TV. I do own Zavier. But that's it.

Title: For Number One

Chapter: 1: And if It Were?

Key: Self-Thinking

Mind Tapping/ Doubts/ Conscience

Mind Reading

Lyrics

"Quote/Remembering"

SBM Suggested Background Music

o0o (SBM: Don't You Forget About Me, by Simple Minds)

Raven Roth was a painstakingly beautiful girl, half of her allure being her magnificently mysterious and rebellious aura. Though I did not take part in as much of her life as a certain Boy Blunder, as she referred to him. She has helped me fill my gaps, and now I seek to finally fill hers. This would of course, be the final step, my final gift to her, and though she would kill me if she knew I was doing this, I have to make sure her story is clear before I am forced to say adieu. And to make a final note, she will soon know, I wasn't just looking out For Number One.

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With much thanks to Slade, the Teen Titans, including their immensely infuriated and frustrated leader, had taken a temporary residence at the east Titan Tower.

Starfire, Beastboy, and Cyborg had loved the idea as soon as the words timidly left Robins lips. Cyborg especially on the thought that he could spend more time with Bumblebee, although he mourned the loss of his beloved technology, Robin made up for it, by mourning all his lost research and 'souvenirs' on all the villains he had ever faced, and our enchanting Raven was mourning the loss of all of her priceless books, ancient artifacts, and preciously dark oddities. She probably would not have cared much, books were, after all, simply books, but she had found, to her extreme dismay, the small, cindered remainders of one certain book, within its pages had once bound the man who continues to haunt her dreams, Malchior. Now if this isn't already obvious enough, first loves are first loves. They are unforgettable. Especially when their feelings aren't mutual, or at least that's what she thought. Oh, I'm sorry, you still think that's what she's mourning, don't you? My apologies. She was actually mourning the loss of a beloved photo of when the Titans were two, a picture of a battle first won by herself and her new, uptight, friend. Or at least that was her first impression of him. Inside the picture, if you took an extremely close look, you could see a slight, genuine smile tugging at the ends of the empaths lips. One of her first real smiles, and now that she had thought back on it, holding what was left in the sapphire frame, she heard the final whisper of Malchior as his spirit left this world, "You'll never see his real smile... Dear Raven. You're never the cause of a real smile."

Of course, none of the pain she felt inside ever reached her exterior. Normally she would never show her emotions, which would result in something short circuiting or blowing up. Normally, she would release her feelings inside a journal, where believe it or not, she would express herself through poetry. Yes, most of her poems were melancholy, and, in her opinion, not worth mentioning in detail, but there was one specific poem, on which the occasion caused her emotions to get the better of her, and there was no other alternative other than to write how Robin had came to her, and saved her when she was lost. And when they were all united, knowing her friends were behind her, she finally defeated Trigon. I am one of the very few who took witness to that poem existing, even though I didn't really take part in her life until much later... It was an amazing poem, and now she thought it was gone, and all she could do to prevent any danger, was to let the remains of her treasured picture dissolve in black flame... And she took that as a sign, a sign telling her to forget ever considering herself and her leader in any way other than friendship, otherwise more than her belongings would go up in flames...

oBack at the East Towero

Sharing a room already isn't any fun. This lack of fun can only be added by having to share it with a lovestruck girl and a clueless alien...

Beastboy was with Aqualad, Cyborg was with Mas and Menos, and Robin had bunked with Speedy. They were all fine with it. Why was it she was always the one who disagreed? After having heard the two other girls squeal at the third thing Raven found a waste of energy, she stood, closing the book she had recently purchased, and left the room, having all of her belongings levitate behind her.

oFlashbacko (Suggested music: Everything is Alright, by Mountain City Soundtrack)

Raven couldn't deal with sharing a room with those girls. Starfire acted as though she had lost nothing at all. And that there was not a care in the world... Didn't they know better? Slade was back... Again. And now he was stronger... It seemed he somehow retained the powers her father had given her... He had, after all, blown up their tower. How else was that possible?

She searched the tower, it unexpectedly being an almost exact replica of their own tower, and finally realized what would be the perfect room. A room that was dark, and probably rarely used because there wasn't anyone as obsessed with villains as Robin, which meant she could finally be alone. She walked in, and was swept with relief. It was empty... And dark except for the dull glow of the computers... "Sanctuary," the empath breathed, dropping her new clothes and books on the spare couch... She figured she could sleep on the couch, simply place the books on the shelf along with the others, and hide her clothes in the drawers in the computer desk. And so that is where she slept the night, letting the humming of the screens lull her to rest.

o0Author's Note0o

OK, my first fanfiction, chapter one, is finished! Claps and joy. Review please. Bye.