*The Golden Crystal*
by Mamolove
Email: david_duchovny@hotmail.com
Author's Note:-
Hi! In the mood for an angsty piece of Mamoru
fanfiction? *grin* [Little sweatdrops appear
profusely around Mamo-chan's head as he sees
Mamolove's sly grin]
This story is my version of how Mamoru
discovers the Golden Crystal, the crystal which
is the equivalent to Usagi's Silver Crystal. It
is more towards the manga version Volumes 12-15,
which happens to be my favourite saga, but I
strongly feel that Naoko should have given more
attention to Mamoru instead of Usagi. The guy
deserves more! So, here, I humbly offer
you my story... I sincerely hope you'll enjoy
this!! Let's get on with the show! ^_^
------------------------------------------------
*THE GOLDEN CRYSTAL*
by Mamolove
*Prologue*
I can hear the breeze blowing through
the trees in the forests.... So distant away,
yet so close to my heart.
I can feel the oceans caressing its
depths-- dark and silent. The sensation... So
vivid, as though they were caressing my own
skin.
The smell of earth... Coursing through
my veins, more precious to me than a handful of
gems... Nobody in school or in the orphanage
could ever understand *why*.
Is it a gift, or is it a curse, that I
can sense any person's emotions and see their
thoughts just by the touch of my hand? I feel
their confusion, their pain, their anger....
Their happiness...
I look into the mirror, and I see
myself, wearing a mask, a tuxedo, and a cape. I
see a man, who, years before, roamed alone in
the nights of Tokyo, searching for *something*
he couldn't even identify.
A man searching for his destiny.
Usako....
Princess Serenity....
Sailor Moon....
Suddenly, scenes flash in my mind
without warning. Like a loop, never stopping,
again and again. I suppose I've always
associated these thoughts with Sailor Moon...
"Dead Scream!" One.
"World Shaking!" Two.
"Aqua Deep Submerge!" Three.
"Silence Wall Attack!" Four.
"Venus LOVE ME chain!" Five.
"FIRE SOUL!" Six.
"Supreme Thunder!" Seven.
"Shabon Spray!" Eight.
Eight senshis to protect my love. Eight
senshis with *powers*.
Suddenly, it hits me. Why can't I be
like them - full of raw, blinding energy at
their command. Why can't I summon Earth's power
like they do with their planets? Anger and
frustration fills my mind, and I can feel the
demon in me, always trying to resurface, the
total chaos tempting me...
Only Usako keeps me in check, and binds
my sanity to her with her bright soul. She is
the balance of my darkness, and I still wonder
what I must have done-- for an angel like her to
love someone like me.
While Pluto can stop time, Uranus
can split the skies in two, and even quiet
Mercury can freeze lava, all I do is... throw
roses? I can't even destroy youmas like the
others, unless I use my bare hands. Now, what
kind of hero is that? A useless male who tags
along great female senshis?
Are you watching me?
Are you listening to me?
I feel you close, but I can't see you.
*WHY?!* For the whole of my life, which I can
remember, I have been alone.. I have been
struggling so hard, coming to grips as to who I
am, and what my purpose in life is. I struggle
alone, learn alone, suffer alone -- just to be
the worthy lover of Usagi Tsukino... I want to
protect her so badly, to make her happy, to make
her proud of me.
Kunzite, Jadeite, Nephrite, Zoicite!
Where are you when I need you? Am I supposed to
do this alone? Is this how it should be? I've
never actually said it, but I'm so afraid that I
can't do this by myself. I can't learn anything
without you, I can't discover my powers without
you, I can't be the powerful prince you hail me
to be. I try with all my heart to summon
*anything* from Earth, but it always yields
the same result...
Nothing.
My heart and spirit burns for power to
protect her. Usako. My precious, precious Usako.
I long to taste the power the senshis seem to
yield so naturally. I want to be deserving of
Usako's love... I want to *feel* powers the
rightful lord of Earth should have. Does that
make me a power-hungry maniac? Does that make me
dangerous?
Perhaps it does, for there are nights
when I hear a voice calling for me....
And it isn't Usako's.
It haunts me during the darkest of
nights... Especially when the senshis display
their raw power in front of my hopeless figure.
The only word the voice in my head says is my
name, and that's enough. I battle it, I try to
bury it, but none of my efforts can overcome it.
All these years of loneliness, of having my
memories taken away from me, of losing my
parents, add up to the maelstrom of despair and
hopelessness that ravage the core of my soul.
Usako, give me only your love. But *I*
will protect you with my life and spirit. I
swear.
I stare deeper into the eyes of the
stranger in the mirror, and I hear *that* voice
again.
"The powerless Prince of Earth."
------------------------------------------------
PLEASE, I *beg* you, [bows profusely], write to
me [Mamolove yells to the Grand Canyon]! It's
heart-wrenching to wonder whether anyone is
reading this at all, *sniff* *sniff* [violin
music please...]! Replies are guaranteed.
Absolutely. Who wouldn't want to thank their
boss after receiving their "paycheque"? *grin*
This story is dedicated to Tiffany-- you're the
strongest girl I've ever met, my prayers go out
to you and I'll always look up to you. Also,
Sidnei, for being so patient with me ever since I
promised her that I'll write a Mamoru story TWO
years ago! And to my dear Samantha! Stay your
unique self!
I would also want to salute Pandora Diane
MacMillan, for having written such wonderful
Mamoru fanfiction. Her stories will have you
loving the man again, and again without
compromising his qualities! And also, to
Sexylyon, for writing, in my humble opinion, the
best piece of Mamoru fanfiction, "Relativity".
Date Mamolove started this story: 2 Dec 1998
(Please knock my head for this. I was too
insecure to even *dare* release this to any
archive!! *sweatdrop*)
Best wishes to all of you!, (& write to me!!)
Mamolove ^___^
david_duchovny@hotmail.com
Come visit "Mamoru Fanfiction", an archive which
specializes in MAMORU, and contains the best
*MAMORU* stories in the net!
http://devoted.to/mamorufanfiction
Sailor Moon is copyright (c) 1992 Naoko
Takeuchi/Kodansha,
TOEI Animation. English Language Adaptation (c)
1995 DIC Entertainment.
by Mamolove
Email: david_duchovny@hotmail.com
Author's Note:-
Hi! In the mood for an angsty piece of Mamoru
fanfiction? *grin* [Little sweatdrops appear
profusely around Mamo-chan's head as he sees
Mamolove's sly grin]
This story is my version of how Mamoru
discovers the Golden Crystal, the crystal which
is the equivalent to Usagi's Silver Crystal. It
is more towards the manga version Volumes 12-15,
which happens to be my favourite saga, but I
strongly feel that Naoko should have given more
attention to Mamoru instead of Usagi. The guy
deserves more! So, here, I humbly offer
you my story... I sincerely hope you'll enjoy
this!! Let's get on with the show! ^_^
------------------------------------------------
*THE GOLDEN CRYSTAL*
by Mamolove
*Prologue*
I can hear the breeze blowing through
the trees in the forests.... So distant away,
yet so close to my heart.
I can feel the oceans caressing its
depths-- dark and silent. The sensation... So
vivid, as though they were caressing my own
skin.
The smell of earth... Coursing through
my veins, more precious to me than a handful of
gems... Nobody in school or in the orphanage
could ever understand *why*.
Is it a gift, or is it a curse, that I
can sense any person's emotions and see their
thoughts just by the touch of my hand? I feel
their confusion, their pain, their anger....
Their happiness...
I look into the mirror, and I see
myself, wearing a mask, a tuxedo, and a cape. I
see a man, who, years before, roamed alone in
the nights of Tokyo, searching for *something*
he couldn't even identify.
A man searching for his destiny.
Usako....
Princess Serenity....
Sailor Moon....
Suddenly, scenes flash in my mind
without warning. Like a loop, never stopping,
again and again. I suppose I've always
associated these thoughts with Sailor Moon...
"Dead Scream!" One.
"World Shaking!" Two.
"Aqua Deep Submerge!" Three.
"Silence Wall Attack!" Four.
"Venus LOVE ME chain!" Five.
"FIRE SOUL!" Six.
"Supreme Thunder!" Seven.
"Shabon Spray!" Eight.
Eight senshis to protect my love. Eight
senshis with *powers*.
Suddenly, it hits me. Why can't I be
like them - full of raw, blinding energy at
their command. Why can't I summon Earth's power
like they do with their planets? Anger and
frustration fills my mind, and I can feel the
demon in me, always trying to resurface, the
total chaos tempting me...
Only Usako keeps me in check, and binds
my sanity to her with her bright soul. She is
the balance of my darkness, and I still wonder
what I must have done-- for an angel like her to
love someone like me.
While Pluto can stop time, Uranus
can split the skies in two, and even quiet
Mercury can freeze lava, all I do is... throw
roses? I can't even destroy youmas like the
others, unless I use my bare hands. Now, what
kind of hero is that? A useless male who tags
along great female senshis?
Are you watching me?
Are you listening to me?
I feel you close, but I can't see you.
*WHY?!* For the whole of my life, which I can
remember, I have been alone.. I have been
struggling so hard, coming to grips as to who I
am, and what my purpose in life is. I struggle
alone, learn alone, suffer alone -- just to be
the worthy lover of Usagi Tsukino... I want to
protect her so badly, to make her happy, to make
her proud of me.
Kunzite, Jadeite, Nephrite, Zoicite!
Where are you when I need you? Am I supposed to
do this alone? Is this how it should be? I've
never actually said it, but I'm so afraid that I
can't do this by myself. I can't learn anything
without you, I can't discover my powers without
you, I can't be the powerful prince you hail me
to be. I try with all my heart to summon
*anything* from Earth, but it always yields
the same result...
Nothing.
My heart and spirit burns for power to
protect her. Usako. My precious, precious Usako.
I long to taste the power the senshis seem to
yield so naturally. I want to be deserving of
Usako's love... I want to *feel* powers the
rightful lord of Earth should have. Does that
make me a power-hungry maniac? Does that make me
dangerous?
Perhaps it does, for there are nights
when I hear a voice calling for me....
And it isn't Usako's.
It haunts me during the darkest of
nights... Especially when the senshis display
their raw power in front of my hopeless figure.
The only word the voice in my head says is my
name, and that's enough. I battle it, I try to
bury it, but none of my efforts can overcome it.
All these years of loneliness, of having my
memories taken away from me, of losing my
parents, add up to the maelstrom of despair and
hopelessness that ravage the core of my soul.
Usako, give me only your love. But *I*
will protect you with my life and spirit. I
swear.
I stare deeper into the eyes of the
stranger in the mirror, and I hear *that* voice
again.
"The powerless Prince of Earth."
------------------------------------------------
PLEASE, I *beg* you, [bows profusely], write to
me [Mamolove yells to the Grand Canyon]! It's
heart-wrenching to wonder whether anyone is
reading this at all, *sniff* *sniff* [violin
music please...]! Replies are guaranteed.
Absolutely. Who wouldn't want to thank their
boss after receiving their "paycheque"? *grin*
This story is dedicated to Tiffany-- you're the
strongest girl I've ever met, my prayers go out
to you and I'll always look up to you. Also,
Sidnei, for being so patient with me ever since I
promised her that I'll write a Mamoru story TWO
years ago! And to my dear Samantha! Stay your
unique self!
I would also want to salute Pandora Diane
MacMillan, for having written such wonderful
Mamoru fanfiction. Her stories will have you
loving the man again, and again without
compromising his qualities! And also, to
Sexylyon, for writing, in my humble opinion, the
best piece of Mamoru fanfiction, "Relativity".
Date Mamolove started this story: 2 Dec 1998
(Please knock my head for this. I was too
insecure to even *dare* release this to any
archive!! *sweatdrop*)
Best wishes to all of you!, (& write to me!!)
Mamolove ^___^
david_duchovny@hotmail.com
Come visit "Mamoru Fanfiction", an archive which
specializes in MAMORU, and contains the best
*MAMORU* stories in the net!
http://devoted.to/mamorufanfiction
Sailor Moon is copyright (c) 1992 Naoko
Takeuchi/Kodansha,
TOEI Animation. English Language Adaptation (c)
1995 DIC Entertainment.