Why do I do this to myself? The union, it is forbidden. Not by the Gods, no, but by my wicked Step-Mother. The evil bitch who wants nothing more than to reign over Shangri-la with my father by her side once more. She doesn't love him. She never has, and there is nothing that can be done to make me believe that she ever did. Something as cold and brittle as her couldn't love, not even the ragged, cruel being that was my father. I would never believe it.
Bring your secrets to me, just give me your hands and I'll let you feel the wounds, they put in me...
For a while, she had me convienced that I was just like him. Blood thirsty and duty bound to claiming Shangri-la for its rightful owners. Them. That's all they cared about. Power, and their precious empire. But I knew, deep down, I was nothing like them. Either of them. I may have my father's pride and strength running in my veins, but my heart, that was just like my mother's. She was kind and loving. Gentle, even, when it came to me and my father. I still loathe his very being for his betrayal to her. The only thing I do not regret about the union of him and my Step-Mother would be Lirin, my little sister. She is the only reason I haven't slaughtered the bitch and brought my mother back on my own. I doubt she would mind, really, though. It wasn't like the bitch gave her any attention that wasn't cruel.
If you believe in me, how can I be dissolving...
I stand here now, loathing those who I was forced to serve. A Youkai Prince, caged like a bird with a broken wing. Trapped, with the one whom could heal me standing just out of my reach on the other side of the bars. I bend them, scratch them, even gnaw on them, anything to get them to move. I need to reach her, I need to feel her. But I can't get to her. She's slipping, farther and farther away with each day that passes, and each day, I try a little harder to get out. I can't let her go, she's all that's keeping me sane. She can't disappear.
Silence can you hear me, press me to your lips and I'll suck the poison out, who will heal me...
My Step-Mother's voice rings loud and clear in my ears. "You'll never break free," She cackles. "You are mine, mine Kougaiji!" My eyes close, and I sink to my knees. No, I won't give up. I am not hers, and I will never be hers. My head is forced back and those same words creep into my ear. A poison slipping into my veins with no cure in sight. I'm slipping quickly, I can't fight it anymore, my will is dying...
If you keep killing me, how can I keep absolving, your sins into me, begin the poisoning...
Suddenly, the cage door opens. My eyes squint with the painful new brightness that has just shone in my face, making me squint to see the slender figure hidden in the light. Straining my eyes, I notice it is Yaone, my friend, my partner, and my secret love. She extends her hand, offering me a smile and a way out of this hell.
Time, time, time, we're not, waiting...