Author: xxSpreadYourWingsxx a.k.a. Denise
Title: Everytime
Summary: Inspired by the song Everytime by Britney Spears, but NOT exactly a song fic. This story is set during NM, and It starts 2 months after Edward leaves. Bella was raped and she got pregnant, at the age of eighteen, with her rapist's children. Bella decided to keep her children while fighting the emotional problems that the rape brought. Now, two years later, more drama hits her. Between Jacob imprinting on her baby, a car accident, being in a state of deep coma, what could be added to this mess?? Easy, the Cullens' return. THE FINALE HASN'T BEEN DECIDED YET. Feedbacks and reviews are needed and appreciated!
Characters: the ones owned by Stephenie Meyer plus Edward Anthony Jacob Swan and Renesmee Alice Carlie Swan.
A.N.: I never liked alternative ending, but lately I changed my mind and I wanted to try and write something like that. This is actually a dream I'm having every night and I feel like if I don't write it down, It'll hunt me forever! lOl. I hope you like it.
Everytime
BPOV
"COM' ON BELLA, KEEP ON PUSHING. COM'ON WE'RE ALMOST DONE! YOU'RE DOING AN AMAZING JOB!". The Doctor kept yelling at me. I screamed out in pain as I pushed one last time. Finally, babies' cries erupted in the surgery room.
"Congratulations Bella, you made it! Look what a wonderful pair of twins we have here! A beautiful little girl and a strong little boy!". I lifted my head-which felt twice its size after all that pushing- to see my two little miracles. The best thing that happened to me after my Edward left me.
Actually, being raped and finding out you're carrying your rapist's child is not exactly the best thing that could happened to a girl; especially when you found out you're pregnant with twins, at the age of 18. But I needed someone to love unconditionally, someone that wouldn't break my heart by leaving me behind; and maybe children are what I needed. That's what helped me though the pregnancy.
I was already heart-broken after he left…but then after I got raped…I felt numb. It was hard for me to fight all of this; but, another consolation was knowing that I wasn't alone. My dad and Jacob were with me though it all. Renee and Phil too took the first fly to Forks as soon as they were told what happened. Both my dad and Jacob felt guilty because they couldn't save me from being raped. No matter how many times I've told them they could have done nothing.
We couldn't imagine I would've been raped in Port Angeles anyway, so It isn't their fault, it's mine if all. After Edward left me, since I didn't care at all about my security -as I thought I had nothing to lose-, I went to Port Angels often...especially alone. If someone would've told me that, that faithful cold November night would've happened what actually did, I wouldn't have gone there alone, walking though the dark streets of the city.
It's August now and, as I held my children in my arms, I feel somehow whole again. Of course, there will always be a missing part of me, the part that Edward took with him; but I need to stay strong for my children. They need a strong parent that had to be both mom and dad, since they'll live with just me and Charlie. But then again Jake will be a sort of big brother to them.
"So Miss Swan, how are we going to call them?". I've been thinking a lot about the names, since I found out they were twins. Their names were a pathetic way to "celebrate" what I had with these people. Or at least, what I thought I had. I knew I was supposed to hate them for hurting me like that by leaving; but deep down I knew I couldn't.
"Edward Anthony Jacob Swan and Renesmee Alice Carlie Swan". By now tears were rolling down my checks. He said "It will be as if I never existed". Oh boy, he was so wrong. This way I was sure I would never forget him. Not that I had a doubt, but I needed to say his name out loud, to hold someone I loved with all myself close to me. This way I would NEVER forget.
Everyone was mentioned. My beloved Edward; my best friend Jacob; Esme and Renèe; my best friend Alice and Carlisle and Charlie. Esme and my mom's names formed the name Renesmee, and Carlisle and Charlie formed Carlie, my baby girl's middle name.
"What wonderful names. They suit them, you know...". The nurse was trying to be nice to me, seeing as I was still in pain and I was crying.
I asked to have just female nurses and doctors, since I still had problems trusting men. It was really…embarrassing…but sometimes I was scared of being in a petrol station with all men. The Doctor said It was normal, so I didn't have to be ashamed of that.
"Ok, now we're going to clear them up, and then we'll bring them in your room as soon as possible". I headed her my children and another nurse took me to my room where my parents with Phil and Jacob already stood, along with Jessica, Angela, Ben and Mike. The others were all outside, because the nurses wouldn't let them in all at once.
"Congrats, honey. You made it. I can't wait to see my grandchildren. I bet they're beautiful!" My mom Renee was as excited as I was. After all, It doesn't happens every day that you're eighteen years-old daughter gives birth of twins.
"Thanks, mom. Yes, they took them to clear them up. They'll bring them as soon as they finish". I repeated her what the nurse told me, while I hugged my girl friends.
"Oh My Gosh, Bella. I can't believe it. It seems yesterday you came in our school, and now we're at the hospital waiting to see your children. I bet you're excited. I am for sure. It's so amazing..." as always Jessica went on and on with her rambling, but this time I was happy to hear her talk like this.
I was so happy they forgave me for my previous behavior. I was a zombie before the pregnancy. But after I found out, I changed. I don't know exactly why. Maybe it was because of my fear of being alone again, or maybe because I understood that my friends needed more attentions, especially if I didn't want to be lambed as a whore for being pregnant at eighteen. I was so scared for nothing. My friends helped me though it all. They laughed and cried with me. Especially Angela. She also came to the hospital as soon as she got the news I got raped.
Actually, she was with me when I came for the routine exams, to see if I had gotten infections or bad diseases, and that's when they told me I was three weeks pregnant. I cried as soon as my doctor told me, but she was there holding me and telling me everything was going to be alright. Our friendship got stronger thanks to everything that happened…and I couldn't be happier about that. Even though I missed my first real bestfriend…my sister…Alice Cullen.
After half an hour of chatting and laughing and opening presents, my dad and Jake went to the cafeteria dragging Ben; Mike and Phil with them. Charlie and Jacob knew I still had problems trusting men, especially when none of them two were there with me, telling me they would never let anything happen to me.
Just as they exited the room, a nurse came in with Edward and Renesmee.
"Oh My Gosh, Bella. They're absolutely beautiful!!"
"I've never seen two babies cuter than them!"
"Oh, God; I'm a Grandma!!"
The room was filled with "aww"s and compliments and a proud smile formed on my lips as happy tears escaped from my eyes. "What are their names?". I knew this question would actually come out, I just hope I wouldn't have blushed like I did. "Edward Anthony Jacob Swan and Renesmee Alice Carlie Swan". More traitor tears rolled down my checks.
"Oh, Bella". Angela was the first to understand and she came to hug me. Soon after, my mom and Jess were hugging me too.
"I just…felt like…I had to…" I said pausing from word to word. I didn't want my voice to break and give it away.
"I think Edward is a good name for this little one, and honestly I imagined you would have done something like this, but why Renesmee…I mean, I absolutely love it, it suits this pretty little girl, but it's unusual..." Jess asked nervously.
"It's a mix between my mother and...Edward's… mother's name…". I spoke Edward's name carefully. My mom sensed this and her hand caressed my shoulder.
"I love it". She said with a understanding smile. I couldn't help but give her a smile. Then a knock was heard and the boys came inside.
"Ooh, look at what we have here!". Typical Mike Newton. I guess you just have to get used to him. He can be a great friend when he understands situations. He really helped me with my sudden mood changes and with my trust problems. He never held my hand, and never tried anything. He just limited at being a good friend.
"Oh God, I can't believe it. My grandchildren…". My dad was absent while he looked at Edward and Renesmeè. Jacob too was mesmerized by the babies. He kept looking at Renesmee as if she was the only one in the room...like a blind man seeing the sun for the first time…really strange. But then It hit me.
"Oh my God, Jake, tell me this is a joke!". No answer
"Jacob Black answer me, NOW!". His head tilted up and he looked at me with an absent look on his face.
"No, it can't…you can't...NO!!!" I was starting to rising my voice when someone called from the door.
"Okay folks, visits time's up! I'm sorry but you have to go, Miss Swan needs sleep". A small yet large nurse told us.
" I guess we'll see you when you get out from here. We'll come as soon as possible. Bye Bella" my friends said goodbye and they kissed my babies on the forehead before disappear in the hallway.
"Bella, honey, what's gotten into you…rising your voice like that…" My mom looked at me like I was crazy.
"Nothing mom, I'm sorry. I guess I'm just tired. Could you and dad please leave me and Jake alone one second…please?!". I needed to talk to that stupid dog of my best friend right now!!
"Ok, honey. Me and Phil will come tomorrow morning. Bye Bells, love you. Bye Edward, Bye Renesmee". My mom also kissed the babies' heads and my forehead before going back to the hotel with Phil.
"Ok Bells, I'll be home. If you need something, Jacob will be here with you. Don't hesitate to call me if you need something."
"Don't worry dad, we will. Bye". I said without breaking eye contact with Jacob.
"Ok, so...bye". And my dad left too.
"Bells, before you attack me, remember when I told you about Quil. You didn't take it that bad! It's the same thing!". I could see he was trying so hard to make me see the situation in a different way, but I was too furious to see things clear.
"how could you!? It's my baby girl. I held her once and you already want to take her away from me?!" I was rising my voice as I got further into my speech.
"No!! no, no, no Bella, I won't! I'll be everything she needs. A big brother, a best friend…everything she wants! I just want her to be happy! Is this much different from what you want for her..?!"
"This is not the point..." I knew I had no point of fighting with Jake, but I just brought them in this world and HE of all people wanted to take one away already?!
"Bella, please, you know I hadn't planned this. But this explains why I was so attracted by you, even though I knew, you were, no; you ARE in love with that bloodsucker…". I couldn't take it anymore.
"Go out Jacob". I wasn't really mad, even though I had tears falling from my tired eyes. I guess It was just…too much emotions for this day.
"Bells, I'm sorry I didn't want to…". I could see he was sincerely sorry, but I needed to be alone with my children now. I took a long breath and relaxed myself. After a long pause, I lifted my head and looked at Jacob straight in the eyes with a pleading look.
"I know Jake, I know. I just…need some time to…let it sink it all in…That's all. Let me think about everything. You're right. I know how these things go, but it's hard when you actually live it". I paused a moment to gain my voice. "Don't worry, you can come tomorrow". I tried to put a smile, but I failed.
"Okay Bella. 'Night. Goodnight Edward, Goodnight Nessie". I froze
"How did you call her?!". No, not like the Lock Ness Monster!!
"Renesmee It's a bit long…". I cut him off
"GO OUT JACOB!!" I yelled
"Okay, Okay..I'm out!!" and with that he went away.
Ok, here we have the first chapter. I hope you liked it. Sorry for any grammar mistakes.
Please review and let me know if you like the idea, or else I won't go on. I don't want to go on if no one likes my fic.
xx Denise :)