Chapter one:

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AN: so this I a new story of mine. Earlier I started another but I had a severe writers block and didn't had enough time to wright at the time. A few days ago I got struck with a new inspiration and started writing. I truly hope you like it! (secretly I love it this far hihi)

I shivered from the ice cold rain that continued to fall upon my bare skin. My chest hurt from sobbing, tears streaming down my face mixing with the rain. How could this day turn out so badly I thought to myself. All of this wasn't supposed to happen, what did I do so wrong to deserve this.

Another violent sob worked itself through my body. I didn't know where I was or where I could go. I was scared and alone. This is ridiculous I thought. I am one of the most powerful creatures on this planet and still I sit here feeling sorry for myself like a little lost child. Just get up your feet and search the place you are supposed to attend, probably it isn't far from here.

But then the memories from earlier today came back flashing into my mind burning inside of my brain. Pain shot through my heart again, bringing the sobs back to me. Jonathan's head upon the pile of ashes, I shivered violently. Again I couldn't move from the spot I sat though I was freezing. The sun was already setting and deep inside I knew I had to get moving before it was dark completely.

Touching my belly I thought back at why I was here in the first place. I remembered my mom's sad face and my dad's harsh words. I was supposed to marry Jonathan the leader of my dad's army. But I was so stupid to fall in love with a human, sneaking of secretly behind my parent back to see him. And then I was even more stupid to sleep with him and get pregnant.

Scared as hell I told my parent what happened, my dad was beside himself my mom just round out disappointed. I just didn't love Jonathan, he was more like a big brother to me. I even doubted if he loves me like he was supposed to do. But faithful as he was he granted my father's wishes. My dad said I was a disgrace to the family. Inwardly I snorted, if only he knew what my sister pulled off.

But I would never betray amber. She comforted me that eventful night. No my sibling wasn't a saint either. The next day my dad told me I would join Jonathan and Alex on a trip. He didn't tell me what the trip was about, it had no meaning to me. I had to use my time to get to over think my terrible mistake and to remember what my place was. The only information I got was that Jonathan and Alex had to go to meet an old friend of my dad to help him out with a situation. This friend lived in a reservation in the state of Washington called la push.

The next day we left, I didn't dare to face Jonathan. Even though we didn't share the feeling we had to I still cared about him and I was more than ashamed of myself. When I saw him he pulled me in his arms and whispered in my hair that everything would be alright. My dad just needed to calm down but he loved me and he would love the little wonder I carried with me to.

After two days of traveling we got from Ireland in Seattle. From there we moved further along towards forks. We camped out in the woods. Early this morning Jonathan came back from his round to check if the place was clear of any danger. He looked alarmed and asked Alex to join him on another round, he found a trail and wanted to make sure I was safe. He kissed the top of my head and promised to be back soon. But soon turned into hours and at some point I really started to worry.

I put out the fire, packed some stuff and started to search him. Soon I picked up the trail he talked off but I found another one closer by. It went until the very end of forks. I found a small clearing and the images I found there would always be burned into my memories. There were three piles of ashes and immediately I knew what that meant. Looking around I found another one and I started screaming. Upon the pile was Jonathan's head. I ran towards it and sank to my knees crying.

I felt his presence fading away and I knew he waited for me. I couldn't feel Alex's presence so I knew he wasn't here, knowing him he was after the bastards who did this. As if everything wasn't as bad as it was it started raining. I sat there for an hour at least but I knew it wasn't safe for me there. If Jonathan couldn't fight of three vampires on his own I really didn't stand a chance. I kissed the top of his head whispering I loved him and got up on my feet and started walking back.

To my horror the rain washed away all the smells so I couldn't find our camping spot back. I kept on walking until I found the road and started to follow it. Rage started to make its way up but I knew I had to keep cool, I couldn't turn with the risk of people around. The only thing making everything worse was to reveal my secret. So I kept walking.

And now I sit here, feeling sorry for myself and grieving the loss of one of my best friends. I wondered where Alex was. Off course I had to forget my cell phone at the camp so I couldn't call my dad. The only thing I could do was to search the place where we were supposed to go but my body was frozen and I was scared the vampires that killed Jonathan would come back for me.

I knew they didn't know that I was with them but maybe they smelled my presence and what a catch I would be. I knew the volturi would love to have me; there was a big price upon my head. The vampire that would bring me to them would be greatly rewarded. I was so wrapped up in myself and my grief I didn't hear a car pull over and stop before me.

'Miss' I heard a voice call out to me.

Footsteps came closer and someone kneeled beside me.

'Miss' the voice tried again.

I lifted my head and looked up towards the voice. I middle aged main with a mustache and friendly brown eyes watched me concerned. His eyes widened for a moment as he took in my face. I knew my appearance wasn't something bad to look at with my fire red hair and piercing green eyes.

'Are you alright Miss?' I just shook my head, more tear threatening to spill.

I wondered when I was getting dehydrated. He put a hand upon my arm and I flinched a little, I never met much humans.

'God you freezing' he exclaimed 'what happened?'

I forced the knot in my throat down 'I was passing through with my companions but I lost them on my way, know I'm lost' I managed to rasp out.

I shivered from the cold again.

'Come on, I take you with me. You have to get out of the rain before you catch on to something' he said while he grabbed my arm.

I was too weak to protest, although I couldn't get sick my body was weakened from all the emotions. I let him drag me toward his car. Inside he turned the heater on its highest. I welcomed the warmth but kept shivering.

'Are you a cop?' I stuttered trough my chattering teeth.

'Yup, chief of police from forks' he told me. He turned the car back onto the road. His friendly brown eyes met mine.

'I didn't even properly introduces myself, I'm sorry! My name is Charlie swan, what's yours kiddo?'

I tried to still my teeth enough to speak 'my name is Allyson chief swan but I prefer ally' I stuttered.

'That's a beautiful name ally but please call me Charlie. Chief swan makes me feel like I'm at work and I'm off duty now' he chuckled.

' Okay Charlie' I smiled. ´May I ask where you are taking me?' concern lacing through my voice.

'I'm heading out to la push; I'm eating at my girlfriend tonight. She insisted she cooks while I'm working, my daughter normally does but she says it's not her task to take car off' he chuckled lightly.

I started to relax a little. 'We were heading to la push to; my companions had an appointment with one mister black'.

'Well that comes out handy isn't it, he´s a good friend of mine I can take you to him' he smiled down at me.

'But first I take you with me and get you out of that wet clothes. Sue will rip my head off if I'm responsible for you catching a cold'.

Worry filled my mind again; I didn't know any of these people. I didn't know the place he was bringing me. I drew my knees up to my chin hugging them on the way, trying to capture as much warmth as I could. What did I get myself in to I wondered sighing. The sounds of the car and the warmth coming from the heater made my eyes heavy and I felt sleep creeping upon me.

At first I tried to fight it but eventually the sleep won me over.

AN: So what do you think? Please let me know and review :)