After Nightfall (après nuit)
by illoria
a/n: sequel to "towards morning", this time from anck's pov. lyrics
from the goo goo dolls - iris. powerful song, ne? ^^;
i really like this one. i've tried to explain anck-su-namun's character, and
finally did! whew! =D
I love him.
I have hurt him more than anyone could ever understand. The world has melted away, and the expected heaven has abandoned me. I try to keep from falling as I see nothing but blackness around me. Ebony like my broken soul.
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And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
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I feel teardrops falling before me. Cold teardrops, frozen teardrops. I am free from the chains of the past and the shackles of the present, but tied up in suffocating nothingness as I search my soul for his essence but find only my own evil inside. It is my fault. It is all my fault.
It is I who cursed him. Because he dared to love me . . .
And I love him.
It is I who tore through the darkness surrounding his soul and gave him everything that I am. I who gave him eternity. I who gave him death.
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Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
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My heavy, painful chains were shining strands of a love so true that it was condemned to die throughout all eternity. Gold too pure to be made by mortals, they threw a curse over it and changed soft strands of immortal gold into impossible chains of eternal death.
And I couldn't see . . . I couldn't see.
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And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
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My tears fell with his soul, both quickly dying. I couldn't see him falling because I fell at the same time, and we died separate deaths in a world so cold and foreign, consumed by a curse so familiar and dark . . . And simultaneously we were freed. it means nothing.
I chase my tears into the darkness. Falling downward I am searching for truth. hope. love.
I remember my soul and wonder where it has gone.