Well this is the first of hopefully many Klaine drabbles inspired by songs that just wont leave me alone!
Disclaimer: I neither own glee nor klaine nor the song Breakeven...they belong to Ryan Murphy and the script
Please enjoy
Blaine sighed as he flopped down at the only empty table in the noisy cafeteria his eyes automatically sweeping around stopping once he spotted that perfectly coifed hair and beautiful pale skin that seem to draw his eyes to the gorgeous boy like a magnet. To say that he missed him was an understatement. They had been broken up for one month three days four hours and twenty-three minutes, not that he was keeping count, but it already felt like it had been a lifetime.
A lifetime since the last time they kissed and held each other close. Since they had snuggled in Kurt's bed whispering sweet nothings in between soft, slow, sweet kisses. A lifetime since Kurt had left him broken and alone all because of that stupid jackass from the Warblers! Blaine never should have believed Sebastian when he said he "just wanted to talk". He never should have agreed to meet up with him. If he hadn't gone then Sebastian never would've come on to him…never would have kissed him and Kurt would still be his.
Blaine shuddered at the memory of Sebastian's lips against his, dry and foreign not at all like Kurt's sweet soft ones. He let out another sigh wondering what deity he had angered as Kurt sat down at the table right in front of him, his back to Blaine, talking animatedly to the new exchange student whose name Blaine couldn't remember.
Blaine found himself fighting down the sudden urge to strangle the new kid when he made Kurt laugh, a light clear sound occasionally punctured by a small squeak that never failed to make Blaine smile. Blaine smacked his head against the table overcoming the urge to stomp over and claim Kurt for his own, to kiss him senseless in front of every one. It should be him making Kurt laugh not that…that jerk!
But he couldn't, not any more. Kurt isn't his anymore and no matter how much Blaine wished he could turn back Time and undo everything. No matter how much Blaine reached out at night, searching for him he couldn't have him back, couldn't hold his hand proudly in the hallway as they rushed to clean the slushy off of them before class, couldn't call him when he had nightmare after nightmare after nightmare. He was gone and Blaine was slowly falling to pieces.
Smiling slightly as the perfect song popped into his head, the lyrics bubbling to the surface of his subconscious. Blaine began singing quietly as He watched Kurt laugh again.
"I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just praying to a god I don't believe in
Cause I got time while he got freedom
Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even"
The bell signaling the end of lunch rang and Blaine stood up still gazing sadly at Kurt as he left the cafeteria throwing away his uneaten lunch as he made his way through the overly crowed hallway to his locker. He opened it smiling sadly at the picture of Kurt he had put up with the word Inspire underneath it. Kurt had inspired him to do all of the things he never thought he could do and to be everything never thought he would ever be. Kurt was his inspiration but now he had none.
As suddenly as if he had been shocked he whipped his head around unsure of what he was looking for until he spotted Kurt strolling down the hallway arm and arm with the new Kid. Then as suddenly as it had happened in the cafeteria more lyrics bubbled to the surface and he found himself singing again.
"His best days will be some of my worst
He finally found a man that's gonna put him first"
Blaine stood up straight and began the short walk to his next class AP Calculus …the only class he had with Kurt.
"While I'm wide awake he's no trouble sleeping
Cause when a heart breaks it don't break even…even…no"
Blaine sat down at the first available desk he saw…only to find himself two seats behind Kurt. He leaned forward resting his head on his elbow as he began singing again.
"What am I supposed to do
When the best part of me was always you
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces"
He sang it almost pleadingly to the back of Kurt's head wishing he would turn around and let Blaine apologize. Then they could put this whole stupid ordeal behind them.
He spent the rest of the day in a miserable silence dragging himself from class to class feeling worse and worse as the day went on, only talking to give monotonous minimal answers when called upon by his teachers. It was only begrudgingly that he drug himself to glee club after school…He only joined it because of Kurt and it almost physically hurt him to be there and not be sitting next to Kurt.
No one spoke to him when he entered, chatting instead to the person closest to them; Rachel just speaking to anyone would listen or at least pretended to. Nor did they say anything when Blaine took a seat in the front row instead of the one next to Kurt, having gotten used to them sitting apart. But that wasn't what bothered Blaine when he walked in. It was Kurt acting as if Blaine didn't exist that bugged him. He was interrupted from his musings when Mr. Shue walked in.
"Alright class today…yes Blaine?" Mr. Shue asked when Blaine thrust his hand in the air.
"Mr. Shue I would like to sing a song that has been…bugging me all day…if that's ok?" Blaine added not wanting to sound presumptuous like Rachel who would just announce she was going to sing a song.
"Sure… the floors yours" Mr. Shue replied.
"Thanks Mr. Shue…Kurt" he said causing Kurt to finally acknowledge his existence. Kurt turned from where he was talking to Mercedes and the new kid to look at Blaine…not glare just look. It was enough to tear what was left of Blaine's heart to pieces when he saw how Kurt looked at him with that look…it was like nothing had happened…like they never happened. Kurt looked at him like he didn't even know Blaine and that broke Blaine almost completely and he had to force out the next few words without sobbing them.
"I am so sorry for what happened…for what I did. I hope you know that" he said before colleting himself, turning to the band and telling them the song before turning back and beginning to sing.
"They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Cause he's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks it don't breakeven even…no
What am I supposed to do
When the best part of me was always you?
And what am I supposed to say
When I'm all up that you're ok?"
Blaine fell on his knee's practically begging Kurt for answers as he sang.
"I'm falling to pieces yeah
I'm falling to pieces yeah
I'm falling to pieces
(One's still in love while the other one's leaving)"
Blaine smiled gratefully as Puck, Finn, Artie, and Mike sang backup for him.
"I'm falling to pieces
(Cause when a heart breaks it don't breakeven)"
Blaine stood up and ran up to the chair in front of Kurt jumping up on it to stand over Kurt while he sang the next few lines. Hoping he could see just how much Blaine was hurting.
"Oh you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase I took the blame
Now I'm trying to make sense of what little remains ooh
'Cause you left me with no love, and no love to my name"
He jumped off the chair running to sit on the Piano with his legs dangling off.
"I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while he got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks no it don't
No it don't break
No it don't break even no"
He slid off the piano and ran back to the front of the room as the ND boys minus Kurt and the new kid sang backup again.
"What am I supposed to do
When the best part of me was always you
And what am I supposed to say
When I'm all choked up and you're ok?
I'm falling to pieces yeah
I'm falling to pieces yeah
(One's still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces yeah
('cause when a heart breaks no it don't beak even)
Oh it don't break even no
Oh it don't break even no
Oh it don't break even no"
Blaine finished the song, his chest heaving as he fought to calm himself down from the onslaught of emotions he had just released. He looked over at Kurt to gauge his reaction. Freezing when he saw that Kurt had gone back to talking to Mercedes and the new kid like nothing had happened. Kurt smiled at something the new kid had said before Kurt grabbed his hand and squeezed it.
Blaine was halfway down the hallway before he even realized he had left the choir room. It took him a few more seconds to realize that the sniffling sound was coming from him. A couple of seconds later he became aware of some one calling his name.
Not wanting to talk to any one in his present state he broke into a run ducking into the boys bathroom throwing him self into the first unlocked stall he saw. He slid down the back wall hugging his knees to his chest. He then became aware of someone entering the stall and sliding down next to him but he didn't move his head from his knees.
"I miss you too"
Well guise,
I hoped you liked it I'm iffy about it but I'm like that with everything I write.
Kiwi
PS: ConCrit is appreciated!
PPS: Next chapter is coming soon!