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In My Cold Eyes

You're such an idiot, Kudou-kun.

Do you think we're part of a fairy tale? Where eventually all of your problems will be solved and you'll get to live happily ever after, the end. With all your talk of "someday" and "winning," like narrating a book about a grand game.

This isn't a game, Kudou-kun.

You and I, we aren't allowed a happy ending. We lost that privilege a long time ago. No matter what we do, no matter how we do it, we've lost. You understand that, right? You should. You're a detective, a rare one with those cursed things called feelings. Every time you win a case, you break a person. Every time you win, you lose.

I'm trying to help you, Kudou-kun.

Yes, that is my excuse. You should feel special. I made it just for you. That same way I made that antidote a long, long time ago.

What? You really think I spent all this time working on it? I have better things to do, like keeping us alive.

…We have the best disguises in the world, you know. Models would kill for our youth, scientists would kill for our secret, murderers would kill for our knowledge. You want to go back to your life Kudou-kun? You never will if you don't survive. You never will.

We've lost, Kudou-kun.

We won't make it out of this alive. But as long as we're still in the game – there, I even called it a game for you. I do a lot of things for you – we can try to keep them from winning, too. That's always been the goal, hasn't it?

You have a bad habit of surprising people, Kudou-kun. That's why I'll leave that antidote somewhere for you to find. Don't mistake me – this isn't a case for you to solve, and I'm not giving you any clues. I'll probably be dead long before you find it – and then you'll hate me, and curse me, and stomp on my grave, which is good, because if you forgive me I'll never forgive you.

I hate you, Kudou-kun.

You saved me, and now you won't let me go. When we both lose, we'll have nothing left to lose. And even if you somehow win, I'll be the one that makes you lose. Do you know why?

Because then you'll drink that stupid antidote, and life will finally show you what you've won.

Cheers.