A/N: Hello Humans, I've come to present you with my first Steven Universe Fanfiction. I got this idea after watching the episode "Joy Ride" in which there are HUGE spoilers for, so I'd recommend watching that episode first. :) Anyway, this takes place after the episode. It's pretty self explanatory. Well, Enjoy.

Disclaimer- Steven Universe belongs to Rebecca Sugar and Cartoon Network. The song in this chapter is called Dancing in the sky which belongs to Dani and Lizzy. I would also recommend downloading this wonderful song and read it along with the fic. It'll probably and hopefully, hit you in the feels.

P.s.- told from first person perspective which is Steven.

Dreams

I was laying in bed thinking over the day's events. I couldn't sleep for some reason. I don't know if it was because of what I saw today scared me, knowing that Peridot wasn't in her escape pod and could be anywhere on Earth devising a plan in order to destroy us, or if was all the work from cleaning up that made me too tired to sleep. Just thinking about it made me sweat with anxiousness, so I carefully got up out of bed to get a drink of water as to not make me ache even more than I already was. When I got up, my muscles hurt, almost worse than when I tried to be as strong as Sugulite. I shrugged it off. 'Probably from lifting all those heavy green ship pieces.' As I walked to the kitchen I could hear clattering. I looked up to see Amethyst rooting through the fridge.

"Hey dude." She said, carrying a whole bunch of food and spreading it out on the table.

"Uh, what are you doing?" I asked, rubbing my tired eyes.

"What does it look like? I'm hoggin' out baby!" She began stuffing her face.

"At three o'clock in the morning?" I smiled, knowing that she does what she wants.

She gave me a look. "You know gems don't need sleep, though I love sleep, but food has to be number one before sleep. You should know me by now, steveboy." She said ruffling my hair.

"Yeah, I guess you're right." I said, but on the inside, sometimes I wish I was a full blooded gem so I don't have to feel so tired all the time because of not getting any sleep. "They don't need to eat either." I half laughed, half yawned.

She got done shoving her face of food and sat back in her chair feeling relaxed. 'Hmph, I wish I could feel relaxed.' I thought to myself.

"Why aren't you sleeping? Hmm..lemme guess you're still upset about Peridot?"

"Yeah.." I said, hesitating to say anything more. I really wanted to talk to her about my burdens but I...just can't for some reason. It's not just her that I want to talk to, its all of three of them.

"Awww, it's fine guy. We'll find her sooner or later." She smiled having a determined look on her face. "And when we do, I'll hit her with a chair!" She motioned one hand punching into the other.

I laughed. "Kay, well, I'm going to try and get some sleep." I said, finishing my glass of water and wiping my mouth with my sleeve.

"Night!" Her gem lit up on her chest opening the door to her sanctuary. She slipped in without saying another word.

I tried to say goodnight to her but she was already in the door before I could. "Night..." I said, putting my hand up, knowing it was too late. I walked over to the stairs leading to my small but lovable room. Before I put my foot on the first step, I looked up to the picture of my mom hanging above the tiny staircase. "Goodnight, mom. I love you." I whispered, walking to my bed. I laid down, snuggling into the comforter. I closed my eyes, trying to lose myself in the dreamworld. Suddenly, my eyes jerked open. I heard something, familiar. I looked to the Warp Pad below, but didn't see anything as well as the kitchen and living room. I shrugged to myself, laying down once more that night. I closed my eyes. I heard it again. At this point I was beginning to get annoyed. I just threw my pillow over my ears encasing a sound that sounded like the blood coursing through my veins, from the nervousness. I decided to turn on the radio on my alarm clock.

Tell me, What does it look like in Heaven? Is it peaceful, is it free like they say? Does the sun shine bright forever? Has your fears and your pain gone aaawwwayyy? It sang.

It was a song that pulled at my heart strings. It reminded me of my mom. I listened to the next verse that made me want to bawl my eyes out, wishing that my mom was here with me right now.

Cause here on Earth, it feels like everything, good is missing since you left...and here on Earth everything's different, there's an emptiness...

By then, tears started rolling down my cheeks. I started to sing along.

Oh-Oh-I- I hope you're daaaannncing in the sky, I hope you're singin' in the Angels choir, and I hope the A-A-Angels know what they have. I bet it's so nice up in heaven since you arrived...since you arrived.

By the time the song ended, I started to drift off to sleep.

Steven's Dream:

I was in a pink colored room...kind of like my mom's, except it wasn't made of clouds. It had a soft cotton and grassy like feel to it. I looked around, hearing my name being called. But before I could figure out who's the soft and velvety voice belonged to, I heard a sobbing noise.

"I'm never gonna make it outta here! Never!" Said the voice.

Then I heard a pound. It sounded like a fist connecting with a metal bar.

"Shut-up!" Said another, much more aggressive voice.

I made my way through the fog, focusing on the soft voice calling my name. As I came to a clear ending, I saw what appeared to be a figure standing at the end of the fog tunnel. She had huge pink curls that cascaded down to her shoulders and down her back, with a white dress and belly button gem, in the middle of a star. I knew immediately who she was. I ran to her, hoping that she wouldn't disappear into clouds or something. I looked straight into her eyes with her giving me a soft and gentle smile. I ran right into her arms, embracing her with everything I had.

She put her arms around me as well and started to speak.

"Steven. I'm always with you. I would never leave you." She said, a tear streaking down her pink tinted cheeks.

"Mom, please...come back. I-I need you. We need you. I feel like I'm the reason why you're not there, like it was my fault." I stuttered, starting to sob in her arms.

"Oh Steven. It's not your fault. It was never anyone's fault. It's just nature, and nature can be cruel at times. But don't let it get to you, sweetheart. You live with wonderful people. They are your family, and so am I. You are a loving and caring individual. I will always be a part of you."

She hugged me even tighter.

"I-I know. But, sometimes I feel like the gems...I feel like they think that I'm the reason you left." I started crying again.

"But you're not...you must talk to them Steven. Talk to them about the things that bother you and you'll feel better. Don't keep it bottled up inside of you. You're amazing. Don't let the small things ruin your soul. Talking helps." She said, gingerly brushing her finger against my cheeks to wipe the pain away.

"Okay...thanks mom. I-I love you!" I sobbed, knowing that the dream was coming to an end.

"I love you too, sweetheart." She smiled.

We sat there embracing each other until I heard a loud scream.

End Dream

"STEVEN!"

I opened my eyes to a frantic looking Pearl, and a worried Garnet and Amethyst.

"W-wha?" I shielded my eyes from the light.

"Oh Steven, you're okay!" They all hugged me, Pearl with tears in her eyes.

"W-what's going on?" I said sleepily, still being tired. Then I realized they were hugging me a little too tight causing the pain in my muscles to reach a high level. "OWWW! Please, take it easy will you? I'm still hurting from yesterday's clean up."

"Oh, sorry Steven." They let go.

"So what's all this shouting about?" I rubbed my eyes.

"You've been sleeping since yesterday!" Amethyst shouted.

"We're just glad you're alright." Garnet said, calmly.

"Y-yeah..." I said wringing my fingers, thinking about the dream I had. It didn't seem like it took that long. As I was sitting there thinking, I guess I was staring because Pearl snapped me out of my trance.

"Steven, are you alright?" She asked, a little worriedly.

I sighed. "Y-yeah." I smiled a fake smile to reassure her. "I'm fine, guys. Thanks for waking me up." But I couldn't help but think they were the reason the dream ended. I didn't want it to ever end. I was with my mom, in her soft and ginger arms. I don't thought back to it and I began getting a little mad about them waking me up.

"Are you sure about that because you were crying in your sleep and throwing tantrums for the past day!" Amethyst blurted out.

"Amethyst!" Pearl shouted at her. "He wasn't throwing tantrums, he was just squirming." Which as you all know becomes a full-blown argument between those two and it was starting to irritate me a little. It became louder when Garnet interfered trying to break up the two.

I couldn't help myself so I accidentally yelled. "PLEASE, COULD YOU GUYS TAKE THIS SOMEWHERE ELSE?! My head is killing me." I said putting a pillow over my head. Then I heard them all, they were quiet now. I took the pillow off of my head and saw them standing there looking flabbergasted. They were all shocked that I yelled.

"Steven...are..are you absolutely sure you're feeling alright?" Pearl was staring at me with a weird expression, like I was an alien or something.

"I'd probably be better off if you guys would leave me alone, please?" I was trying to be polite, I don't know what came over me. Why am I being so ignorant? I thought to myself.

But they just kept staring. Garnet and Amethyst both started too. It was annoying me to high heaven. "WHAT?!" I yelled.

"Y-your eyes...they look...terrible." Pearl said, her hand covering her mouth.

Just then a knock came to the door...it was a familiar knock...I knew who it would be...

A/N: Sorry for leaving you guys on such a cliffhanger, but I'm horribly tired which could explain all the feels. I truly hope it made you cry, because it certainly made me, and I have no sympathy for you whatsoever. LOL. Oh, and btw, I can't, for some odd reason, describe fight scenes. So I will try and work on that. Anywho, the two other voices in Steven's dream, we'll get to in the next chapter. Oh, and another thing I forgot to mention, I don't have a plot for this. I don't have a plot for any of my fanfics I just write what I feel. So I hoped you liked it, it was really fun to write and tell me what you think! R&R! ;)

-Rosey