IMPORTANT: The last two plot sections have been edited. There were some errors that I caught and I needed to change Logan's decision to make it fit with the continuation. That being said, there is more written. I have 1000+ words but I'm still trying to decide how I want to split it up chapter wise. There will probably be around 3 chapters maybe 4 at most. We'll see. You should have a new chapter by the end of the week at least :) I hope you all enjoy!
A/N: I heard this song and this little snippet came into my head and wouldn't leave. I apologize if there are any mistakes, this was spur of the moment. I kinda like the ambiguous end so you can imagine what happens for yourself but if something comes to me I may add what happens after this chapter. That being said for now I'll leave it as in progress but it may or may not be complete. We'll see.
Disclaimer: Absolutely none of this is mine except the plot. Kurt and Blaine (briefly mentioned) are a part of Glee which isn't mine. The song is 'Waiting Outside the Lines' by Greyson Chance. Julian and Logan are a part of "Dalton" by CP Coulter. I am merely just inspired by them.
Waiting
This was it. He was finally going to tell the blonde prefect everything that had been happening. He would tell him about the stalker and his bloody message and maybe, just maybe, finally tell Logan that he was in love with him.
Nervously he knocked on the door and upon hearing no response, tried the handle instead. The door gave way and presented the brunette with an empty room. Walking in further he found himself drawn to the keyboard sitting by the window.
Memories of the past began to flood his mind. The two friends sitting closely on the bench: one captivated by the ivory and black keys of the instrument before them and the other by the blonde boy at his side. Endless days full of laughter, teasing and lessons.
Sitting down on the bench, he let the familiarity overcome him, fingers mindlessly pressing on the keys. Random notes turned into a familiar melody and soon he began to sing along.
You'll never enjoy your life,
living inside the box
You're so afraid of taking chances,
how you gonna reach the top?
Rules and regulations,
force you to play it safe
Get rid of all the hesitation,
it's time for you to seize the day
He thought of the other boy and the restrictions placed on him. Feeling too much and needing medication to rein the emotions in, leaving him in a numb haze. He pictured those green eyes, sometimes darkening into a smoldering gaze, other times hazy, lost in a fog of nothingness.
Instead of just sitting around
and looking down on tomorrow
You gotta let your feet off the ground,
the time is now
I'm waiting, waiting, just waiting,
I'm waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
It was at this moment that Logan returned from his meeting with Blaine and Kurt, only to find his door left ajar. The sounds of singing floated out into the hallway and Logan stood in the doorway silently watching.
Try to have no regrets
even if it's just tonight
How you gonna walk ahead
if you keep living blind
Stuck in that same position,
you deserve so much more
There's a whole world around us,
just waiting to be explored
While singing he thought of his best friend's ignorance and inability to look at those around him. Logan continuously went after other boys, leaving Julian to stand in the shadows. His heart broke every time Logan's did, the latest boy unable to return the tempestuous ones' feelings. Just once, he wanted to be the one to get the boy.
Instead of just sitting around
and looking down on tomorrow
You gotta let your feet off the ground,
the time is now, just let it go
Don't wanna have to force you to smile
I'm here to help you notice the rainbow
Cause I know,
What's in you is out there
I'm waiting, waiting, just waiting,
I'm waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
I'm trying to be patient
the first step is the hardest
I know you can make it,
go ahead and take it
I'm Waiting, waiting, just waiting I'm waiting
I'm waiting, waiting, just waiting
I'm waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Logan watched as his best friend sang with everything he had, releasing everything he had been holding in. Watching the emotions play across the actor's face took his breath away. There was obviously more going on that he had neglected to see.
As the song was starting to wind down, he suddenly felt as if he was intruding on something he more than likely was never meant to witness. In that moment, Logan made the decision to walk away, Julian to never know that he had heard him.
He had a lot to think about and Julian catching him would only lead to a huge blow up. Julian was already pushing him away and he couldn't lose what few friends he did have. He couldn't lose Julian.
With that, he continued down the hall to Derek's room, the end of the song fading away the further he got.
You'll never enjoy your life
Living inside the box
You're so afraid of taking chances,
How you gonna reach the top?
His fingers finished playing out the last few chords before falling down into his lap. He let a solitary tear roll down his cheek, landing on the keys of the piano.
He wasn't going to get anywhere being a coward and hiding away. He needed to take a chance, even if with every word uttered his heart broke into tiny shreds. He needed to show Logan that he was there waiting. For once he needed to be selfish and do what would make him happy. He could no longer sacrifice himself for Logan's happiness.
With renewed conviction he got up and left the room in search of the blonde prefect again. When found him, he wouldn't hold anything back and he would face whatever the outcome would be. He had been waiting for too long and he was done.