When I looked at you as you looked at me
I knew we'd started, and the moment was to speed
But you ended it as it soon as it began
You slashed its life, not caring, I just ran
When we had it, boy, we really did
But why did you kill it
There's no explanation for the things you did
There's no reason why you should hate me so now
All I did
Was respond
I sighed as I looked over at Harry, laughing and chatting with Cho and Hermione. I knew I was being obvious, I knew all I was to him was "Ron's little sister," but I couldn't help it. I loved him anyway. He was closer to perfect than anybody I'd ever known...if only he could know how I really felt about him, rather than just a little-girl crush. He was the first person I had ever loved like this, and I knew I couldn't stand to lose him. But here he was, slipping out of my grasp already. If I'd ever had a grasp in the first place.
How can I help but notice when you sigh
When you feel like life should not even go by
I just hate that when it happens to me
That kind of stuff is just painful to see
So help me, I try to
But all you do is stare
Then I feel stupid, and look away
Then I feel strange, and stop caring
All I wanted to get across
Was kindness
I wish I could tell him - Harry, Harry, don't ignore me, you've got everything I want, look at me!! Find out who I really am - but I could never. I've barely even spoken to him before. I'm just too shy. Only Mom understood - and she's miles away now. I can't even talk to Hermione about this, or even Ron, they'd just laugh. How could a little girl like you love someone, they'd say. Well, I can. Please understand that I can. Harry, Harry...don't pretend I'm not here. Don't pretend you didn't save me last year, don't pretend I don't love you like anything.
I must admit I did backstab a bit
But it was only a result of your "play"
You think it's funny to get me down
I know that's not you really deep inside
Oh, just be
Your True self
I can't stand it anymore
Just be you and nobody will laugh
All I wish you would do
Is just be
I hate to see him talking with other girls, even when I know it's just as a friend. He always thinks of me as 'just a friend.' If he thinks of me at all. Every time I see Hermione, or Cho, or Lavender, or anybody, I just get this painful stab in my heart and I want to hurt them, hurt them badly, no matter how nice they are. Nobody gives me a chance - they say I'm too young. Have they ever loved anybody??? Have they ever watched someone they loved so dearly pretend they don't exist, just leave them behind??
We could be just us
And nobody else
We could be just us
And that's all we'd be
We could be perfect
Just let it happen
I, like you, can be nice if I want to
The rare times when he grins at me - so sweetly - are like jewels in the treasure box of my mind. I remember each conversation, each time he glances at me from far away, every day I touch him in the halls. I will hold onto them forever, as a reminder of what could have been.
One moment of trust you know
Can last forever
So why do you make it
Only fifteen minutes