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She laughs like god, her mind's like a diamond.
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She likes to think of herself as Alice, tumbling down the rabbit hole but instead of magical creatures and her being a hero, it's a path of lies, sex, drugs and everything that you see in the movies.
Except it was her life.
Except she didn't want it to be her life, not really.
She wants to escape, get out, but she's stuck in this world where everybody lies and fake smiles and pretending to be happy is a must. So she fools them all into thinking that she's bright happy Serena!
She's fooled them all, she's fooled herself into thinking that's who she is.
That she likes the glamour, the glitz, the drunk stumbling out of clubs Georgina Sparks hanging onto her arm as camera phones flash and she ends up splashed on the front page of Gossip Girl.
They all love her, they all love ditzy Serena who'll kiss you when you're feeling sad and dance with you when you ask her to dance. They all like her because she doesn't seem to care about much.
She cares about Blair, Nate and (maybe) Chuck.
She cares about Georgina.
She cares about parties.
She cares about kisses.
She cares about the next hit.
That's all they see and she hates it but happy smiles as she greets them with hugs and kisses that are meant to land on cheeks, sometimes on the lips and giggles that make you feel drunk and smiles that go bright, bright, bright.
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