AN: Hi everyone!

Once again I was reading New Moon (because currently my aunty and cousin have decided to start borrowing my Twilight books and reading them) and that made me think 'How did Edward feel when he got the phone call that Bella was dead?' So basically, my take on how I thought Edward felt in that very moment just before and after. Hope you all like it!

Disclaimer: I only own this idea, this laptop, oh and this cookie (hehehe!), Steph Meyer owns Twilight.

Feeling Dead

Alone. That very word described how I felt right now. I felt so alone, even though I had Esme and Carlisle I still felt alone. Everyone tried to tell me I wasn't, but they had no idea. I ran from them and that's how I got here, on the side of a mountain.

Curse this life I live. If I weren't this thing I would be able to go back to Bella. Every time I close my eyes I see Bella smiling at me. I love that smile, it cried for me to come back. I see Bella's face everywhere I go. Maybe I should go back, yes maybe...

No. You promised you wouldn't go. Bella deserved a life without danger of becoming what I am. A life without being hurt anyone, anything or me.

I had to track down the danger that wanted her dead. I had to track down Victoria.I snarled at the name. That name more cursed then I was. My phone vibrated in my pocket. I lost focus of my thoughts looking to my jeans pocket. I pulled the phone out and flipped it open.

Rosalie?

What did she want? Why would she be calling me? I hit the button. "Yes?" My voice sounded annoyed.

"Look, I know you aren't in the best mood but I have to tell you something" Rosalie said in a rush. Her voice sounded almost worried.

"Just leave me alone" I said coldly. I had no time to hear anything from Rosalie right now.

"Just listen to me for once in your god damn existence Edward!" Rosalie said loudly. "Alice...had a vision."

She called me up to say that? "And?"

"She went back to Forks."

Huh? Alice went back to Forks, after I told her about what I promised. Something in her vision had to do with Forks, Bella. "Forks? What is she doing there?" I said flatly. I didn't really care what she was doing there.

"She...had to...check something. Her vision was..."

There was silence on the other end. "Was what?"

"Bella's dead...Okay, Alice had a vision that Bella had jumped off a cliff a few days ago. Edward, I'm so sorry. "

That other end went dead. I shut the power off to my phone. No...No it can't be true. I looked to the clouded sky. Bella couldn't be dead, no way. I had to check.

I quickly dialled the number the number for her home. It rang a couple of times before someone answered. "Swan residence," answered a voice didn't recognise. It had a husky tone to it.

"This is Carlisle Cullen, is Charlie available to speak to?" I said imitating my father's voice.

"He's not here," the voice said now sounded partly annoyed.

"Where is he?" I asked.

"His at the funeral,"

I shut my phone. I felt it all coming on me, all the pain. No...

I sobbed wishing I could cry right now. I collapsed on the ground feeling like I couldn't stand up anymore. Pain, agony, sadness washed over me. I felt my world shatter around me, like the sky was cracking and falling into a million pieces. My whole world was dark, cold, meaningless and empty.

My existence meant nothing now, she was gone. She was gone...

And I would soon follow her.

Whoa, deep. I know Edward seemed a bit bitter at times in that but who wouldn't be if you were in his situation? I'm well aware Steph has done her own version of this, but this just how I thought it would have been, so it's completely different the one Stephanie did (which I have yet to go off and read). Anyway, I hope you all liked it and if you have time please review!

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