ok, jsut so you know my grammer is nicely bad and my spelling isn't any better...the whole cheack over thing ( i can't think of the name right now) is puting me to sleep. but plwzzzzz give me a chance...maybe help me out...

I dont own the wwe or anything that goes with it, but i do own Julie.

always-alone-but-never-alone

I sat down out side of the stadom, I know I shouldn't have ran off like that again but what can I say she pissed me off.

I heard the door open behind me and a voce call out to me, its Mike, the head gard and my best friend.

"I'm comming! jsut let me grab my bag!" I yelled grabing my bag off the ground

" I know your not going to tell me what happend so go write, there only seting up the ring right now so no one should bug you or anything" Mike explaned as he locked the door

I nodded and gave him a hug and ran to 'my seat' as all the gards call it

when I got there I seen a guy siting there, it wouldn't piss me off if I was in a better mood but right now it did.

"hey this is my seat get your own." I snaped making him jump

" I dont see your name on it." he said not looking up

I laughed, cuz my name was on it, I carved it in there my first time siting there.

"look under it, you'll find Julie Himgood" I said siting behind him and pulling out my notebook and pen

I didn't see if he looked or not I started to write my quote of the day

you cry, you fight, and you laugh. you dont talk about it to anyone, so nothing ever gets better... you know that if you if talk about it people would take pitty on you and thats the last thing you need...somedays it good somedays its bad, but even on the good days you know the bad ones are on there way. you tell your friends that you trust then, so why can't you tell them about this? they all know somethign is going on, cuz you call them and ask to stay the night or it be let in to be by your self. yoru crying doesn't help the fighting, the fighting doesn't help the laughing, and the laughing never helps the crying...

I looked up to find the guy and Mike waching me

" what? is it my time to go? cuz I do have tickets for the show Mike."

Mike laughed" you dont have to go. Mr. Hardy was jsut scared cuz you wouldn't say anything to him."

I started laughing, Hardy was jsut lost about waht was so funny.

"whats so funny" he asked looking from both me and Mike both of us where still laughing

I pointed to mike telling him to explane it witch he did

"Jul blacks out when she writes, she puts her hurt, happynest, tears, and love into everyting she fucken writes. and I'm guessing this was a quote and it was tears and pain" Mike said the last part looking right at me

the look he gave me made me stop laughing at once.

"ok... can I read it?" he asked grabing the notebook off the floor.

I grabed it out of his hands before snaping at him, " look I dont care if your god your not reading anything i write. you wont talk to me, you wont tuch anything of mine, and you will not ask about my life." after my litte speach i jumped over a few seats to the eage of the realling and jumped off landing on a seat below.

I got off of it and looked up, seeing both Mike and 'Mr. Hardy' waching me, I fliped them off and walked away.

must have ended up backstage cuz a ran in to someone...no I really ran into him...

"SHIT!" was the only thign that came out of my mouth before I landed.

I looked over to see who I ran into...John Cena.

"great just fucken great" i said under my breath as I sat up

John sat up and looked at me "are you ok?"

i nodded as i looked through my stuff to see if it was all there

"who are you? and what are you doing back here?" john asked holding out a hand for me to help me up

" julie, and i really dont remember walking fucken back here, and if you have anything else to ask keep it to your self cena." i snaped geting up on my own

he put both his hands up " ok i want ask anything anymore, but i do know you shouldn't been here the doors dont open for like 5 hours"

i rolled my eyes " no fucken duh!" i yelled

i guess some people heard the last bit cuz in like a min ten people where around me...and to say the least i didn't like it

" what?" i snaped looking at everyone in the eyes

"who the fuck are you?" hunter (HHH) asked and everyone nodded

" im a bitch who is sick of people asking me that" i said pushing past john and walking to mikes office

i knew a few people where fallowing me but i just keep on walking.

once i got to mikes office i opend the door and walked in

" you know you if your going to fallow me you shouldn't walk so fast and so close" i said siting down on mikes desk looking at everyone in the door way

everyoen looked shocked but Mr. hardy who hit hunter in the back of the head

" so you would be..." hunter looked at the name on the door, " mike?"

i laughed " nope." i said grabing mikes back and pulling out a pack of gum, " want a pice? no? to bad"

"then who are you?" micky james asked

" didn't i say a bitch sick of people askign me that? oh and 'Mr. hardy' get the fuck away from me."

everyone looked at Hardy then at me then back at hardy.

" you could have killed your self by jumping off that thing like that." hardy pointed out

" but i didn't" i said as i got off the desk

i looked everywhere for my stuff that i had mike keep here for me.

"its in the pink bag under the desk" i heard mike say from the door

i looked up to find everyone gone " thanks." i said before grabing the bag

i felt mikes arms rape around me "be nice to everyone...ric is here, remember the last time you seen him? he asked about you, i told him i'll send you over there " he wisperd in my ear i nodded and walked out the door to find him

Ric was my farther that i never had.i meet him at my first show. i got lost on my to the bathroom before the show, i had a bad day and i was going to get rid of the pain but cutting, i couldn't find the bathroom so i sat down on the steps and cut there, Ric stoped me and let me rant...and even punch him.

i felt tears fall from my eyes as i remebered that day. i sighed once i reached the door with his name on it.

"clean?" i asked through the door

" jul?" i read Ric ask before fallign over something trying to get to the door

i tryed not to laugh when i heard him cuss at what ever triped him before opening the door

i jumped in his arms before i let the tears fall from my eyes.i felt him rub my back to clam me down

once i clamed down he spoke up

" lets get somehtign to eat before i even ask." he said grabing my hand and pulling me behind him like a little kid would do to him mother at the candy store

i laughed and started to run next to him

once we got to caketering we where raceing.

" I WON!!" i yelled jumping up and down on a table

Ric took one look at me before grabing come cookies adn start throughing them at me. i scramed and jumped off the table.

once all the cookies where...well every where we sat down to eat.

" so im guessing, yoru mother pissed you off and you came here to write, am i right?" Ric said geting right to the point

" nothing gets past you, wanna read the quote of the day?" i asked smilling

Ric nodded and a pulled out my notebook and opend it to the pace and handed it to him.

i wached his face closely for any sines of feelings... but i couldn't see any

" baby, this is really good. do you still have the one that you made for me?" he asked looking through the notebook

Ric was the only one i let read my stuff. i pulled out a older looking note book, it had a pic of Ric and me from the first day i meet him, i handed it to him

"thanks" he said looking for the quote and saying i made for him

" no pro, after all you are my farther." i said geting up to get more food before he could say anything

when i came back Ric wasn't alone at the table, he had hunter and hardy talking to him, i sighed not really wanting to go over there

"Yo, i got you a new water." i said handing him a water with a hotball in it

he took a drink out of it with out looking at it, once he tasted it he made a face that i to a pic of with my cell phone

" jul... what was that for?" he asked looking at the water

" you did it to me last year when you came for my birthday." i said stiking out my tonge

hunter looked at Ric " you know her?" he asked

"sadly" ric said looking down to hid his smile

i smacked him upside his head with a notebook that was left out

"OW!"

" sorry, but i didn't have anythign that would hurt worse." i said trying not to laugh

Hardy laughed at the look on Rics face

" shut up jeffy before i hit you," i said useign his first name for the first," you to hunty." i added before he could start laughing

he looked at me liek i lost my mind, he knew who i was. he only put up with me calling him that. i meet him the day i meet Ric

"julie?" he asked not really beliving who i was.

i haven't seen him sence then. i had brown hair now i have black with red strkes through it

" who else calls you hunty? cuz the last time i knew was some new percon tryed to call you that and you kicked his ass on raw" i pointed out

hunter laughed and gave me a hug " god i missed you." he said before pulling away

" i missed you to but you could have came to see me or even call me, and don't say that you didn't know my number cuz i know dad gave it to you" i snaped, i wan't to happy at him

he looked down in shame, and Ric got up to get a new water

" wait, hunter putdown by a girl? this is new" jeff said shocked

" yeah hes put down and he ant comming up in my book." i said picking up all my notebooks but the one with the with me and Ric on the frount

Ric came back and opend the note book again and started to read

"why does he get to read them?" hunter asked waching Ric

"cuz i trust him and hes the only person i see as a farther" i snaped at him

"oh," he sighed before looking at Ric, " remeber i would loke to get DX back and i want you to be part of it." he said before geting up to leave

"damn it, hunty...im sorry, i know you where going through hard shit," i said making him stop "this is for you." i said handing him a notebook with DX on it everywhere " everything in there is from my half of it is saying and the rest are qouts" i said once he took it

he nodded before walking away , i looked back at jeff and ric to find them both looking at me "what?"

jeff just smiled before going to get something to eat

" you did the right thing jul " ric said making me smile

"well well well if it isn't the little bitch. whats the matter can't find your way home." micky james said from behind me

Ric laughed " jul, you should wach who you piss off"

" i'll try," i said before turning toto micky james, " look i never said anything to you, but now i am. fuck you you want to pick a fight go find someone would get payed for it. hell go find someone who wont kick you fucken ass" i snaped before trunign back to my food

Ric went back to him notebook, and the next thing i knew someone hit me. i did a back elbow before geing up to see who it was.

micky of corse, i rolled my eyes before doing a kick to the face, nocking her out. i sat back down to finsh eating

" you know you shouldn't have done that vince is going to flip." ric told me

i nodded and keep on eating blocking out everything and everyone

once i was done i looked around to find that there where more people and micky wakeing up

"Ric, did you see what happend to micky?" Vince asked from behind me making me jump

Ric pointed to me. he must have found somethign he liked cuz he wouldn't look up.

i laughed when i felt vinces eyes on me " she wanted a fight. i told her to find someone who would get paid for it and she hit me when i went to eat so i kicked her." i said turning to look at vince

" do i know you?" he asked lookign at me closely

"yep about...3 years ago is when you first meet me i was about 12. " i said tryign to think

"julie?" he asked

" have a changed that fucken much, i mean yeah i died my hair and got my ears pierced a few times, but thats it," i ranted," wait not i got a tatoo on my back and my shoulder but theres ntohign after that. i still write in like six notbooks a week"

"ok sorry but its the hair that is the bigest change." vince said over the gaspes of the onlookers

i got up and huged up and wisperd in his ear" you know you shouldn't say im sorry around to many people you might kill them"

vince smacked me upside my head, and i backed away from him " ok i needed that one..."

Ric started to laugh out of like no where, i rolled my eyes " daddy im going to go and get ready for the show im at ring side right side i'll have sines" i said before running off

when i got back to Rics room i opend the door not thinking that anyone would be in there, but there was a veary naked guy looking for somehting

" god its called pants!" i yelled hiding my face

" oh sorry," he said i heard some move ment," im good."

i sighed before movieng my hands " god what if daddy walked in here, he would have a cow" i said to my self as i looked for my bag

" daddy?" the guy asked

" Ric Flair, hes not my real dad or anything, but hes the closest thing i got" i explanded throwing daddys bag out of my way " have you seen a pink bag?" i asked

"umm...yeah its on the back of the TV."he said grabing it " so whats yoru name?"

"julie, yours?" i said after i grabed it

"Randy" he said siting down

i grabed my back pants and my pink tubtop that had one of my sayings on it ' life is one big ass jump' and on the back it says ' so why not push someone off to see how far it really is'

i wached as randy read it "i love it, where'd you get it?

" i made it the saying is a Hope saying" i said beofre going to get changed

when i came out i seen Ric and back and explaning who Hope was to randy

"hay daddy, is rand this slow?" i asked geting in my bag for my pink flipflops

"yeah well itsn't not easy to explane that you put qouts and sayings on the wwe page useign the name Hope" he said throwing his hands in the air

i smiled and looked at the clock i had 20 mins to get to my seat before the show started

i jumped when i felt someones hands on my lower back

" you should get to you seat." Randy said not moving his hand

" im 15 Randy" i said geting up "bye daddy." i said before walking out

i waited till i was a few feet away from the door before i started to run, i couldn't take a shortcut cuz i dont want everyoen around me askying why i was backstage

i got to my seat just in time to pull out my sine before the them song started, i screamed when i seen hunter come out iwth somethign in his hands. when he walked past me i seen it and i fliped out knowing the was going to read somethign out of it

"HUNTY!!!!!" i yelled over everyone else

hunter looked at me before acting like he didn't hear me. i sat down giving everyone durty looks

once everyone clamed down he started to talk

" i was thinking the other day, about DX. i really want it to come back, so i went to my good friend Ric Flire and asked him if he wanted to be a part of it, well he just told me that he would love to..."

i blocked out everyother thing he said i couldn't belive that Ric my Ric would team up with DX i looked up at hunter to see he was holding up the notebook

"...well i good friend of my gave me this today and i had time to read through it, " he locked eyes with me and i sighed and nodded my head saing he can read out of it, " and there is somethign that i think you all should know about," he opend it to the qouts half ," theres happyness and thers pain, the happyness can come from anything so can the pain. pain and happyness are just things you feel there all in your head, but if you can't feel then are you still alive? could you move around and talk to poeople who are trying to make you feel? i think so...feelings is the one thing that makes everyone the same,but no one wants to be the same..." everyone was quite when he finshed i sat back in my chear wiping my tears away, hunter got of the ring and walk over to me, i smiled when he reached over for a hug witch i gave him "thanks for the notebook...it means a lot to me" he wisperd in my ear before walking back to his dressing room.

hate it, love it, or want to tell me my spelling and grammer sucks ( not really wanting that...cuz i know that by now) R&R!

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