The Golden Doe

This one is for PD, or known as Periwinkle Dwarves.

Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter.

It is a bit of Angst, and it is a oneshot I think.

Okay the made up spell is a mix of the word 'power', the word 'animal', and the word 'soul' in latin. This spell is ancient, and has to do with the soul, which the person releases (willingly) a piece of their soul, and it is a powerful animal. The animal is usually the same as a normal patronus. This one is gold colored, because of the soul in it which guides it. The animal was supposedly used in Wizard and Witches battles, because the animals though they can get hurt, the soul inside will just go back to the owner. So no one can really harm the animal patronus. But they can hurt people, even with their wands, witches and wizards can be harmed depending on the animal. Like a stag could stab with its antlers. Lily's doe is capable of biting and probably kicking.

Oh and the doe is relevant because of the saying 'the golden years' which I think is marriage...anyway read.

Third

Lily was standing out in the rain.

James, watched her. He wanted to say he was sorry, that it really wasn't his fault.

But it was, because HE had ended it, not her. He had caused her to cry, not her.

Lily stood, five feet away from James, her back turned away from him.

" Lily?" James tried.

Lily didn't turn around, but let one tear slowly roll down her cheek.

" What do you want? Are you here to tell me that now you're cheating on me?" Lily asked, anger covering her hurt. " Are you here to tell me why you broke up with me? Is that what you want?"

" Lily I never wanted to break up with you!" James pleaded, not daring to get any closer to her.

" That's a lie James Potter. If you loved me, then why would you break up with me? Is there someone else? Do you like my friend? Anyone else? Or is this just because I'm not a pretty as I used to be? Because I'm not the one for you?" Lily snapped, not turning around.

" Don't say that Lily. I do love you, and you're beautiful, and you are the one for me. I just can't be with you," James said.

Lily whipped around. " What now? Are you afraid because you love me? If you loved me James, why would you do this?"

" I did it to save you," James replied.

Lily rolled her eyes. " It's already over James. I don't want to talk to you right now," she said, shoving past him and walking back toward the castle.

James sighed, following her, but still scared.

He followed doubtfully, and he still refused to tell Lily why he had broken up with her. But he had to.

He ran, desperate to catch up to her. He ran up, spinning her around.

Despite the cold rain, he turned her to him, looking into her emerald eyes.

Maybe she was fighting against love too.

He brought his lips to hers, one last time, desperate to feel her lips against his again. She struggled, but he held her wrists lightly. As his lips moved against hers, she began to kiss him back, and stopped her struggling. Instead she kissed him back, one last time.

James pulled away, looking into Lily's eyes, pleading for her to say something.

Lily pulled away, letting her hands fall to her sides.

They gazed into each other's eyes, both of them loving each other.

" I'm sorry James. That can't happen again, I'm sorry," Lily said, slowly turning away, and then running toward the castle.

This time James didn't chase after her. Instead he just watched, lowering his gaze, and turning away as he felt his heart break.

Lily ran, in tears toward her dorm, ignoring all the people she pushed down.

She spent the whole night, gathering up anything that reminded her of James, and promptly stowing it away in a box.

She put her diamond earrings, emerald necklace, gold bracelet in there too. The earrings were from Sirius, but reminded her of James. The emerald necklace was James's Christmas present to her. And the gold bracelet was from James's mother. Then last of all Lily pulled out her locket, and hung it on his door, then packed her stuff, and moved from the Head's dorm back to her other dorm.

She conjured up a doe, but this one glowed a bright golden color, and suddenly it charged, galloping away.

It was dark magic, well not really. It was ancient magic. Something you couldn't learn from a book.

She was reading a book on jinxes and hexes, when she noticed James walk in, with Sirius and Remus following.

" Hey Remus," she greeted, not even glancing in Sirius's direction.

" I wish you two would make up, I miss you two being together," Remus said quietly.

" He wanted it to end, so he can't complain. How is he doing?" she asked casually, and it was only a day after the break up.

She had vowed that now, she wouldn't cry over him. If he didn't want her then fine. She didn't need him either.

" He's still crying over you Lily. He misses you, and he loves you," Remus replied.

" He's crying?" Lily snapped, her eyes narrowed.

She turned to look at James, and he did look like he had been crying.

" Don't you dare cry over me. I'm over you, and you know what James Potter? You. Have. No. Right. You ended it, so I don't see why you're crying. I should be crying but you know what? No, I refuse to cry over you. I loved you, so if you loved me, why would you tear us apart? I gave you my heart, I gave you everything I had! And yet, it still isn't enough for you. I'm not going to cry, because this is your fault. And I don't want you back, so if you know what's good for you, you'll stay away from me," Lily snarled furiously, and then with a swish of her cloak, she was walking away.

James turned away, but didn't say anything.

She conjured her doe, and watched it from the tree by the Black Lake, and it seemed to gallop around.

She loved to make her gold doe, it reminded her of hope when everything seemed empty.

It was supposed to be a mix of a patronus for dark wizards, they would send them at the enemy.

James ignored that she was there, and tried to do what she had, get over it.

" Remus!" Lily called, her patronus ran up, at her side. She hugged Remus.

" Don't you love it?" she asked gesturing to her doe.

" That's amazing? What spell is that?" Remus asked.

Lily swished her wand, and the doe vanished.

" Watch, it goes Facula Animaus," Lily replied, bringing her wand through the air, and out burst the doe. ( Pronounced fac-coo-lah anim-A-us the capital a means the letter says its name)

It was gold and tuned it's amber eyes on James. It charged, rearing, eyes flashing.

Lily made no move to stop it, but did not encourage it. She stood there blankly, not saying a word.

Remus drew his wand, and suddenly Lily vanished it.

" What was that for?" James hollered.

Lily shrugged. " I didn't tell it anything."

" You sent it after me!" James snapped.

Lily rolled her eyes. " Oh please. It's not like you care anyway," she said turning and marching away.

" What makes you think I don't care?" James yelled.

" Like you cared any more than when you broke my heart James!" Lily didn't even bother to turn around. " Besides, it's not like she did any lasting damage." She conjured her doe again and this time a silver one as well, letting the two bound side by side.

She wanted to cry, but she refused to.

That night, she found a dozen white lilies, on her bed.

She sighed, and kept them, but didn't talk to anyone about them.

They became mutual friends, and then James became an Auror, and Lily a Healer.

They both joined the Order of the Phoenix.

But they weren't together.

Then came James's' wedding day. Supposed to be the perfect day until...Lily.

He didn't notice her in the crowd, she wasn't invited. So she hung in the back, dressed in blue.

She snuck into his dressing room, and left him a note.

Then she left, and didn't see him follow.

Love, Lily

That was her note. But on the note, she left a single dried lily petal, before she ran.

He turned, disapparating.

He arrived on a sidewalk, and he noticed a park.

Peering into the darkness, he saw Lily, her legs kicking lightly, as she sat on the swings.

He approached, walking toward her.

She twiddled her wand between her fingers, whispering a spell.

The golden doe appeared, and looked straight into him as though reading his soul.

It took a step forward and then walked, leaving light starry hoofprints.

" James, why aren't you at your wedding?" Lily asked, slipping her wand back into her pocket and then turning to watch her doe.

" I'm not marrying the person I love," he replied.

She sighed, closing her eyes. " Don't."

James didn't dare to say anything.

" Don't say you love me," Lily whispered.

" Why not?" James asked.

Lily stood turning to face him, and studying him for a moment.

" Because I already know," she replied, and kissed him.

" Do you know why I broke up with you all those years ago?" James asked, pulling back.

She rolled her eyes. " Yes, I do and I don't care. Voldemort can threaten me all he wants, if I ruin your bloodline, who really cares?"

" I do if he hurts you," James replied.

" You're an Auror, I am in the Order I don't think we have anything to worry about," Lily replied.

" Will you go out with me?" James asked.

Lily looked thoughtful. " No, but I will attend to your wedding," she replied.

" Works for me," James replied and turned, disapparating with her.

As he turned, the note in his hand fell, and landed lightly on the grass.

It read:

Let her go. Or else.

Anyone not understand?

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