A/N: Hello to all I am back with the first of my two-shot alternate ending. This is my first new story in three months and my first new story of 2013. As mentioned these two chapters are based on the original episodes 25 and 26 rather than the movie ending used as the original. I figured someone might be interested in this and I wanted to do it so I hope you enjoy. Again, my beta reader is on hiatus so I'm on my own here. Much like the rest of the series, trying to make sense is not recommended.
Disclaimer: I don't own Evangelion or Strike Witches
Eila was dead by her own wish and thus the Angel threat that hung over Earth since Second Impact had been adverted. Alone in a dark room, Yoshika sat under a spotlight.
(Why did you kill here?)
"I didn't have a choice! Eila was an Angel!" cried Yoshika.
(Even thought she was human as well?)
"She was still an enemy! An Angel!" cried Yoshika.
(She was as human as you)
"Eila wasn't! She wasn't! She wasn't!" cried Yoshika as suddenly Sanya appeared before her.
"Despite her being as human as me?" asked Sanya.
"Eila was an Angel!" answered Yoshika unable to look up at Sanya.
"That's why you killed her?" asked Sanya.
"Yes! She would have started Third Impact and killed us all!" answered Yoshika frantic.
"That is why you killed her." said Sanya.
"I didn't want to! I didn't have another other choice." replied Yoshika.
(That's why you killed her)
"Help me." said Yoshika desperate.
(That's why you killed her)
"Help me please!" cried Yoshika.
(That's why you killed her)
"Please God help me!" cried Yoshika
(That's why you killed her)
"Is there anyone listening?!" asked Yoshika frantic.
(That's why you killed her)
"Somebody help me!" cried Yoshika before everything went white.
Yoshika then found herself back on the lakeside with Sakamoto standing behind her. This was the night she killed Eila.
"Eila didn't deserve to die. She was kind and nice. It should have been me." moaned Yoshika.
"No. Eila gave up her will to live. Your life is not a mistake Miyafuji. Eila was an Angel bent on ending humanity. You did the right thing." replied Sakamoto but, to no avail.
"Are you sure?" asked Yoshika her voice echoing.
(Uncertainty)
"Are you sure that it was right?" asked Yoshika.
(Uncertainty)
"What so I do?" asked Yoshika unsure.
(What is your fear?)
"I don't know." answered Yoshika.
(What is your fear?)
"I'm afraid of myself." answered Yoshika honestly.
(What is your fear?)
"I'm afraid of being hated." answered Yoshika."
(What is your fear?)
"By who though?" asked Yoshika
(What is your fear?)
"It's my..father and sister." answered Yoshika as flashbacks of her abandonment flashed before her, "They abandoned me. They hate me."
Yoshika then found herself standing surrounded by darkness.
"What do I do if others hate me?" asked Yoshika worried.
The scene around the girl changed again. Now, a vast plan sat before her with stumps barely popping up above a layer of fog on the ground.
"Where am I? Where do I go?" asked Yoshika as she found herself in the thick of this new setting, "I'm confused. I don't know what to do."
Confused Yoshika decided to figure out her plan. However, her indecisiveness hindered her so he she deiced to look for guidance.
"Major! Please help me Major! I don't know what to do!" called Yoshika.
Yoshika stood anxious but, got no reply. She then decided to try again.
"I need help. Sakamoto! Hanna! Sanya! Hartmann! Lucchini! Perrine! Shirley! Sister!" cried Yoshika desperate, "Father. Mother. Somebody, please tell me what to do."
Things then went black yet again. Suddenly, Yoshika found herself floating in a never ending space colored red. Before her stood Unit-01 looking like a monster and all black. '
"Striker Unit-01." said Yoshika who was suddenly caught in chains coming from the machine, "After everything I still have to pilot it. I had to kill Eila. Sister and the others say I must still pilot it even though I don't want to. Why the hell don't I get a say? Please answer me mother?!"
(Why do you pilot Unit-01?)
"Everyone tells me to." answered Yoshika again sitting under the spotlight.
(That is why you pilot?)
"It's for the sake of humanity. That should be good enough." answered Yoshika
(So, you pilot for everybody else?)
"That's right! I don't see anything wrong with that! I am doing the right thing!" called Yoshika, "When I do it the others appreciate and like me!"
"You liar!" snapped Hanna who suddenly appeared in front of Yoshika, "Are you stupid? You know you do this for yourself! You're just making up excuses like always!"
"I do?" asked Yoshika uncertain.
"Pretending to be sacrificing yourself is an excuse! You feel special playing the martyr!" answered Hanna brashly.
"I don't know if that's true." replied Yoshika.
"You feel lonely and isolated. It's it." said Hanna disgusted.
"I am?" asked Yoshika confused.
"Of course! You totally live on sympathy and with your Striker you get it!" answered Hanna.
"You might be right" admitted Yoshika.
"You love it when others depend on you. It satisfies your warped mind." said Hanna.
"That might be it." sighed Yoshika disgusted with herself.
"If you want happiness then you need to get it yourself and not wait for others to hand it to you." snapped Hanna when suddenly Sanya appeared behind her.
"That is exactly what you do." said the pale girl.
(The Case of Hanna Justina Marseilles)
In an escape pod deep in the depths of Lake Ashinoko, a girl sat alone. Hanna was in her Striker unit both of which were in the capsule isolated from the world.
"Why must I be in this again?" asked Hanna sorrowful, "I'm being forced pilot this but, this damn thing won't work. It's only junk because of what I have become. I'm worthless. Nobody needs me anymore. Nobody needs a pilot who can't control her Striker."
"You seek your value in the perception of other people." said the disembodied voice of Sanya echoing.
"Shut up!" cried Hanna.
(Separation Anxiety)
"Are you afraid of being alone?" asked Sanya.
(Separation Anxiety)
"You are afraid of losing your identity if others leave." said Sanya.
(Separation Anxiety)
"The only reason you pilot is for praise." said the young Hanna.
(Attachment Behavior)
"Shut up!" cried Hanna not wanting to face reality.
(Attachment Behavior)
"Leave me alone! A doll like you can't tell me that!" cried Hanna.
(The Case of Sanya V. Litvyak)
"Who am I?" asked Sanya sitting bandaged outside the NERV infirmary.
"You are Sanya V. Litvyak." answered another Sanya.
"Then who are you?" asked Sanya.
(Sanya V. Litvyak)
"Are you also Sanya V. Litvyak?" asked Sanya III.
"That is correct. I am the person referred to as Sanya V. Litvyak." answered Sanya II.
"We are all the person referred to as Sanya V. Litvyak." added Sanya I.
"How could those all be me?" asked Sanya III.
"The others have come before you." answered Sanya I.
"Your body and soul are false." said a floating Sanya head that suddenly appeared.
"Am I not false. I am me." replied Sanya III remembering the glasses in her room.
"No. Your body is an empty shell with a false soul created by a man named Ichiro Miyafuji and continued by his daughter Minna." said the floating head, "You pretend to be human but, if you look deep within you know the truth."
"You are wrong. I became myself through Instrumentality and my relationships between myself and others. They create me as I do them. They shape my heart and soul."
(Are these what connections are?)
"That is what I share with those who interact with the being known as Sanya." answered Sanya III.
(Are these what connections are?)
"There is another who is your true self." noted Sanya I as the other clones flashed before Sanya III, "You might not know her but, she does exist. You try to deny that reality."
(Because you are afraid)
"She might not have a human form." said Sanya II as colorful pictures flashed before the Dummy Plug Plant reappeared, "Because you're present form might cease to be."
(You are afraid)
"This is the thing you fear. You will be nothing. You fear you will vanish from the minds of others if there is another." said Sanya I as she and her clones stood surrounded be the Sanya clones after being destroyed by Perrine.
"What am I afraid?" asked Sanya III.
"Your current self will have never existed." answered Sanya II smiling.
(It scares you, correct?)
"You would cease to exist." repeated Sanya II.
(It scares you, correct?)
"No. I am not. I am indeed happy." answered Sanya III now in the chair, "It is because I wish to die. I wish to have despair. I wish to return back to nothing."
Sanya then found herself in her room. The full moon shone brightly through her window. The girl stared at the pair of glassed on her nightstand.
"I cannot have that because she refuses to let me." said Sanya.
Sanya then found herself talking to Minna and smiling shortly before the Fifth Angel attacked. Then she was back in the chair.
"When everything is finally over and I am of no use she will abandon me. I once prayed for that day but, I fear it now." said Sanya.
Suddenly Minna appeared before her. Instinctively Sanya jumped to her feet.
"Let us go now. It is finally time. The time you were created Sanya." said Minna coldly.
"Yes ma'am." replied Sanya obediently.
(The Instrumentality of mankind begins)
Yoshika was in a bad mental state. After confronting the things she tried to ignore she was faced with the cold reality of her life. She now found herself naked, legs pressed against her chest in a vast void of darkness.
"I don't understand what feeling this is. It feels like I've felt this before. It feels like my body is dissolving. I don't hate it. It feels like my soul is stretching out to cover the world." said Yoshika being encased in darkness.
(That was the beginning of Instrumentality. In order to fill the emptiness in their lives all must return to nothing. Instrumentality has begun.)
"You are wrong. We are not returning to nothing we are returning to the beginning from which we came. Returning to the womb we lost. All souls and minds will become one obtaining balance. That is the objective." said Minna stepping forward.
"So, that's Instrumentality?" asked Sakamoto facing her friend.
"Indeed. At our core exists an emptiness that has never been fulfilled since the first complete thought. Humanity has known about this always at our most primal level. We have tried to escape this and making accomplishment after accomplishment man had tried to fill this void but, it's never enough." answered Perrine.
(This is the hunger and fear in our hearts)
"So you're just rob everyone of their individuality and fuse them together to fill this void?!" asked Sakamoto outraged, "Nobody appointed you man's overseer! You came offering salvation but, your kindness was no more real than our friendship!"
"That's exactly what you wanted!" cried Perrine.
(Mio Sakamoto)
Now Sakamoto found herself under the same spotlight. Like the pilots, it was her turn to face the her demons.
"Where the hell am I?" asked Sakamoto looking around.
"This is the Yoshika Miyafuji that exists in your mind." said Yoshika suddenly appearing.
"Then this is the me that exists in your mind as well." said Sakamoto quick on the uptake.
"In order to figure out my purpose and why I exist I must communicate with the mind of other people to discover what is at the core of me." explained Yoshika, "What do you wish for?"
(Do you wish to be a good girl?)
"I must be a good girl." answered a young Sakamoto the same age as Second Impact.
(Why?)
"I have no mommy. She's too busy with work. I won't bother daddy." answered the young Sakamoto sadly, "I don't want to grow up like my parents. They fight a lot. I can't cry or depend on others. I need to be good. Then maybe things will get better."
"I hated my mother." countered the grown Sakamoto under the spotlight, "I hated always being good. I hate it. I am sick and tired of it. I'm tired of always being clean and pure. I'm sick of it all. I want to see myself dirtied to the point people can't stand me. I want to see everything I have worked for ruined."
"That's why you began seeing her?" asked Perrine appearing behind Sakamoto.
"No! I dated her because I did love her!" answered the Major dismissively.
"Did you really love her?" asked the younger Sakamoto.
"I did!" answered Sakamoto uncertainty in her voice, "She accepted the real me!"
(Is that so?)
"That's why we made love!" cried Sakamoto.
Sakamoto found herself in her old apartment from college. While she should have been out she was in bed with a Liberion redhead entangled. However, to her horror she saw Yoshika standing in front of the bed watching these actions unfold.
"Don't show Miyafuji that! I don't want her to every see that side of me!" cried Sakamoto.
"After everything that's happened you're still embarrassed." sighed Shirley.
"I'm ashamed of that!" cried out Sakamoto.
"Why does this embarrass you?" asked a voice sounding like Sakamoto, "This is exactly what you wanted. You weren't embarrassed then."
"Please stop this!" replied Sakamoto overcome.
"You said that you wanted to dirty yourself so you should be happy to show this side of yourself to Yoshika." said the voice.
"No! No! No!" cried Sakamoto.
"Maybe it's your mother you want to show this to?" asked the voice snidely.
"No!" answered Sakamoto falling apart.
"You wanted simple peace of mind." said the voice.
"No!" cried Sakamoto.
"You wanted that and warmth then." said the voice.
"No!" cried Sakamoto.
"You wanted to find your mother in Shirley's embrace." accused the voice.
"That isn't true!" cried Sakamoto.
"Oh, but it is." answered the voice.
Sakamoto then found herself in another familiar setting. This time it was on the sidewalk headed home after their wedding of her two friends Ai and Yoshi before the Twelfth Angel attacked. Shirley was of course by her side.
"I was afraid of ending up like my mother. But, I was also the happiest I'd been before then. It was wonderful. However, I hated that. I ran away because of that." thought Sakamoto to herself.
"You did need a reason to start our relationship but, you did need one to end it." said Shirley upset.
"Yes. You were kind enough to disgrace and deflower me. I was afraid of ending up like my parents." answered Sakamoto.
"You hate yourself doesn't mean you should hurt yourself that's just a way to relieve pain for a little time. Don't keep doing this." replied Shirley concerned.
"Next you'll tell me to take care of myself." said Sakamoto angrily.
The Major then found herself back in the chair, alone in the darkness. Under the same burning spotlight.
"People always do that. They'll escape to their job or their or world and always leave me behind." said Sakamoto bitterly.
"Just like our mother did." said the little Sakamoto appearing behind the older one before vanishing.
"They always escape from the harshness of reality. I am her harsh reality. I am the problem." said Sakamoto.
The Major then found herself the bedroom of Yoshika. It was after the death of Sanya II and she was trying to comfort the younger girl.
"Stop this!" cried the girl.
"Nobody else should love me! I hate myself!" cried Sakamoto.
"You're vulgar and impure." said Lynne disgusted.
"Pathetic." spat Perrine.
"You're vile and just disgusting. I've never seen such an disgraceful relationship!" cried Hanna.
"Congratulations on being promoted Major Sakamoto." said Amaki more kindly.
"The me everyone knows is the me that preforms her role to optimum efficiency in order to be appreciate. However, that is not the true me." said Sakamoto.
"The true you is always crying?" asked the little Sakamoto. As the older one saw herself crying as a little girl.
"That is true. Though, I am happy." answered Sakamoto.
(Are you truly happy?)
"Yes I am." answered Sakamoto.
(Are you truly happy?)
"Yes I am." answered Sakamoto raising her voice.
(Are you truly happy?)
"No I'm not! This isn't the happiness I want!" answered Sakamoto accepting the truth.
(What is happiness?)
"This isn't my true self! I just don't want to face reality!"" answered Sakamoto frantic as suddenly Yoshika appeared.
"We must face reality because we cannot live another way." said the girl, "You would be alone and afraid."
"You would be unstable." added Sanya.
"You would be lonely if nobody was sleeping next to you." said Perrine bitter.
"You're afraid of sleeping alone." said Hanna knowingly.
"Or does that remind you of the emptiness in your life?" asked Lynne.
"She needs others around her." answered Shirley.
"Then you'll sleep with anyone." said Amaki.
"No I won't!" cried Sakamoto.
"You just want to be filled with ecstasy. You use a temporary escape to fill the void in your own heart." said the disembodied voice from earlier,"You take advantage of the primal needs of others to sooth your own soul.
"No! No! No!" cried Sakamoto.
(What does she want?)
Hanna found herself sitting alone under the spotlight forced to face her inner demons. Suddenly, Yoshika appeared behind her.
"This is the Yoshika Miyafuji that exists with your mind." said the Fuso girl.
"This is the me that exists in your mind." replied Hanna.
"What is it you want?" asked Yoshika.
"I want to be by myself. I don't want mama or papa. I'll be by myself then I won't cry again." answered a young Hanna upset before crying.
"I'm still crying. Stop crying." said Hanna.
"I'm sorry but, I just don't like Hanna." said Amalia matter-of-fact.
"For a doctor you're acting like a real bitch." replied Hans.
"I told you once; I am a human being first and foremost." said Amalia.
"Then how could you say something about a child?" asked Hans.
"That girl acts too adult and besides, she clearly doesn't like me either." said Amalia, "There are times she scares me."
"Well, I have never felt that way and you are Hanna's mother." replied Hans.
"I am your wife before her mother." said Amalia.
"Both of those are important." said Hans.
"For the view of society that is true but, you are always her father while I can quit being her mother whenever I please." replied Amalia coldly all while Hanna had heard the whole conversation.
"Mama! Don't leave! I'll be a good girl! I promise just don't stop being my mother!" cried Hanna clutching a monkey doll. Don't ignore me! I don't want to die!"
In her hospital room Aisha Marseilles was sitting in her bed. She was looking down at the doll she believed was her daughter and talking to it.
"You're papa hates mama. He doesn't need me. He never loved me from the start. Let's die together Hanna." said Aisha, "Papa doesn't want us anymore. He doesn't need me anymore and he doesn't want you anymore."
"Papa doesn't want me?" asked Hanna upset.
"Die with me Hanna." said Aisha ripping the head off the doll.
"I am not a doll! I have a free will and I will live for myself!" cried Hanna.
"Then I came home and found my mother hanging from the ceiling. She had a smile on her face." said Hanna sitting under the spotlight, "I hated that smile. I don't want to die. I want to live. I hate this. I hate people. I hate my father and mother. Nobody gives a damn about me. Everyone abandons me."
(What does the girl want?)
"I want to be self-sufficient. However, I hate it! I don't want to be all alone! Don't leave me!" cried Hanna when suddenly Yoshika and Sakamoto appeared behind her.
"Don't leave me alone." said Yoshika.
"Don't ignore my presence." said Sakamoto.
"Please don't kill me." begged Hanna.
"What the hell is this?" asked Yoshika sitting in a chair as the light suddenly turned on.
"This is Instrumentality. The goal of your sister and father before her." answered Sakamoto behind her.
"So, this is what she used me to achieve." sighed Yoshika starring at the three figures on stage.
"This is a part." replied Sakamoto.
"You can't tell what the truth is." replied Hanna appearing behind Yoshika.
"The truth is objective so you can't tell fact from fiction." said Perrine.
"The truth is inside you." said Sanya.
"The facts stored in your memory will become your true self." said Ferrara.
"The truth can be changed on occasion." added Perrine.
"Then is this fact? Is the result of everything that has occurred?" asked Yoshika.
"This is real but, one of only many realities." answered Hanna.
"This is what you wanted." added Sakamoto.
"I wanted this?" asked Yoshika confused.
"You wanted the destruction of everything so nobody could be safe." answered Sanya.
"I didn't want this! Nobody saved me!" cried Yoshika.
"There is nobody who can save you from yourself." replied Perrine.
"This is what you wanted." said Shirley.
"You wanted oblivion. You wanted a return to nothing." added Hanna, "In your subconscious you wanted this."
"This is the reality you desired." said Sakamoto.
"This is your world Yoshika." said Sanya.
"This is a world that exists only for you." said Amaki. "A world time and space do not exist. And, they are no people."
"This is a world were you control every facet of reality." said Nishiki.
"This is a world others give you something because you cannot get it yourself." said Lynne.
(This is your reality)
"Unless you wish to change reality, this is your world." said Sakamoto.
"If this is reality then nothing can change that!" cried Yoshika.
"You have the power to make that decision." replied Perrine.
"You have the power to decide what will be." added Ferrara.
(This is your reality)
"Whether you wish to live..." began Sakamoto.
"Or wish to die the power is all with you." finished Hanna.
"This dark world is what I wished for?" asked Yoshika overcome.
"Yes." answered several voices.
"You wished for a world that was closed and thus comfortable for you." explained Ferrara.
"You wished for it to protect you because you felt weak." said Amaki.
"To protect your weak ego." added Nishiki.
"This is the result of what you wanted." said Lynne.
"In this closed world you wanted others cannot be with you and so they cannot hurt you." explained Sakamoto.
"Thus you closed off the world around you." said Hanna.
"Your wish ejected everything you disliked and left you alone and isolated." said Perrine.
"This is the world your wish created. A safe haven for you and you alone deep within the recesses of your mind." said Sanya.
"This is but one of many possible endings." said Hanna.
"You chose this fate." said Sakamoto.
A/N: So we'll end part one there. Don't worry if you're confused everyone is by this. Next time is the conclusion so I hope you stick around and please review.