DISCLAIMER: Alright well I don't own any Angel/Buffy characters they all belong to Joss Whedon… spelling? I do own Ash so if you steal her I will be forced to turn into the Hulk. Well enjoy the story!

Angel grimaced as the rain fell upon his chest. A trail of blood followed him as he walked down the driveway of a house; he stopped in front of the doorway and hesitated for just a moment before pushing the doorbell. The door swung open and Buffy stood shocked looking at him.

"Angel what are you doing here?" She asked slightly angered. Angel looked down at her swollen stomach then looked back up at her her astonished. "Your pregnant?" He asked before collapsing into her arms.

"Xander I need your help!" Buffy yelled as she began to pull Angel inside. Her and Xander laid him on the living room sofa. He grimaced when Buffy touched his chest; she pulled her hand away to see that it was soaked in blood.

"Xander get the first aid kit" Buffy stated as she began removing his shirt. Underneath were huge gashes, stabs, penetrations and even burn marks.

" Angel what happened?" Buffy asked slightly distressed at the state of her friend.

"We destroyed the black thorn and the Senior Partners decided to take us out by sending every demon they could after us."

"What do you mean us?" Asked Xander as he walked in with the first aid kit.

"Me, Spike, Illyria, Wesley, Gunn... all of us they're all dead." Angel said. He it seemed as if he was clarifying the loss of his teammates not only to the people before him but also to himself.

"That's not true Spike called about an hour ago. He's more alive than ever. Some how he managed to gain his mortality." Xander said to Angel before sitting on a chair across the room.

The three of them looked at the stairs as they heard footsteps coming down from upstairs. A teenage girl came down she had long black hair, pure blue eyes and seemed slightly confused.

"Uhh, I just came down to tell you that Drew and Carmen needed a lift home... But I figure now isn't the best time. I mean considering the fact we have a guy on our couch with no shirt on bleeding everywhere." She began to turn around to back upstairs when Xander stopped her.

"Get your friends to wait in the back and I'll give them a lift home. We're going to need you to stay here with our guest because Buffy and I have to pick up some stuff on our way too okay?"

"Uhh, sure" The girl said before turning around and going back upstairs. Buffy finished bandaging most of Angel's wounds before her and Xander began to get their coats on.

"We're leaving you with Ashriel." With that said the two of them left out the front.

"They gone?" Ash asked from the stairs.

"Yeah" Angel replied as he sat up on the side of the couch. He looked at his shirt that had been torn to pieces. He tossed it back onto the sofa in irritation.

"Want another shirt?" Ashriel asked. Angel nodded and watched the girl go up the stairs and come back down with a black t-shirt.

"This is all I got. It's big on me so it should in theory fit you." Ashriel tossed Angel a shirt and began walking towards the kitchen.

"So what's your name anyways?" She asked him as she began preparing some coffee. She walked out a few minutes and sat next to him expectantly. He still hadn't told her his name. Was he afraid of something worried about what she would think?

"Well, what's your name?" She asked again with slight irritation.

"It's Angel" he replied with a monotone voice.

"Ah, I see. Angelus, well at least you were once. The vampire with a soul." Ash replied back with thought. She quickly broke out of it and then looked at Angel.

"I have a question for you. How is it that you can have Vampires that don't have souls that are still good in a sense but have vampires such as yourself?" She asked him.

"I guess I was just evil to begin with." Angel replied as he looked at her.

" That's not true. Perhaps you just have really bad moral judgment so when you lost your soul, so pretty much your conscience any sort of bad feeling you got just disappeared." Ash told him. She got back up to go check on the coffee. She poured two glasses and put milk and sugar into hers and left his black.

"So, what exactly is the relationship between Xander and Buffy?" Angel asked as he took a look around the house. Buffy already had the playpen set up and there were pain cans sitting by the door. Angel suspected that they were used for painting the babies room.

"Wow, for someone so close to Buffy you sure are out of loop. Buffy and Xander are married and she's eight and a half months pregnant. They started dating like three days after she came back from Rome. She said that he always did love her and that it took sometime to realize that she loved him too." Angel was distraught. Not only did Buffy get pregnant and not tell him, but she also married Xander. He was waiting for her to be ready to come back into his life; he respected her request for space and tried to move on. All his mind could keep going back to was the day he was infected by the Morey demon's blood. What would have happened if he stayed that way? Then he considered all of the events that came forward after that day, and he realized that she would be dead and the world would have most certainly ended. But still, why didn't she even tell him that she had gotten married.

Ashriel walked out of the room and placed the mug in front of Angel. He looked at her eyes and realized they were an odd shade of purple. Her hair fell over her shoulder and she tipped her head down to place her glass on the coffee table, she almost had a fallen angel quality. Her face looked warm, but full of sorrow. Both Angel and Ash flinched as the front door swung open. Ash let out a sigh and removed her hand from her chest. Buffy looked at Angel with anger, Xander looked at Ash, his facial expression was either that of panic or fear, but if Buffy was involved it was most likely both.

"Why don't we go drive up and grab some coffee!" Xander suggested to Ash. She looked at him and smacked her forehead.

"Are you in grade two. I think we should leave the two of you alone for a little bit. We're going to go for a drive, behave yourselves, don't break anything… and you!" she said pointing to Buffy. "Don't go into labour!" With that she got up, grabbed her coat slipped on her running shoes and walked out the door with Xander.

"What the hell do you think you're doing?" Buffy yelled at Angel. "You think you can just come to my house a year and a half since I had seen you last, half dead asking for my help! I thought we agreed to stay away from each other." She hissed. He looked at her angered and frustrated at her response.

"Key word there Buffy, half dead! Did you think I could go to a hospital and say oh yeah a gang of demons attacked me and I'm a vampire! I had no one else to go to! You were the only one I trusted!" He stated.

"Yeah well why didn't you go to your son that you didn't tell me about!"

"You… how did you know?" He asked her. No one should have known except Himself, Wesley and Connor that and everyone at Wolfram and Hart.

"Yeah, shocked that I found out your little secret. Willow told me. She found out from the powers that be. So thanks for not telling me!"

"You don't understand the situation behind that! No one is supposed to know. I traded my life with MY son for Wolfram and Hart. Next time you get information from the PTB make sure it's complete. Also, what makes it wrong for me to keep my son a secret from you when you're keeping your whole life a secret from me! You told me to wait for you, that when you were ready you and me could be together! Then you go and get married and are going to have a baby and leave me waiting! The last time I even heard about you was in Rome!"

"You followed me in Rome!" she yelled.

"It was on business and then Spike and I saw you with the immortal." He replied with an ashamed tone to his voice. "That's besides the point. Why didn't you tell me? You knew I was waiting for you!" Angel began to sound distressed now. It finally hit him that he was never going to be able to have the one thing he wanted.

" Well, after time I realized that I didn't love you. It was an infatuation, and a thrill. I wanted to live on the wild side and eventually my feelings for you disappeared. I'm sorry if you thought I actually loved you, but I don't." She said. Angel collapsed back onto the sofa. Buffy and he looked towards the door as it opened up and Ash and Xander walked in. Ash walked passed the living room and headed upstairs. Buffy looked at Angel and pointed to the door.

"Get out." She said. Angel got up and walked passed Xander. Xander looked at him and under his breath, just enough for Angel to hear he said, "I don't know why your so upset? It's not like you actually have a heart." Angel glared at him before leaving.

AUTHOR NOTE:

Well hello everyone. I hope you liked the story please R and R I'm sorry if people are mad that I made Xander so nasty I just know that he doesn't really like Angel and that he liked Buffy. Also sorry to all the people that like Buffy/Angel pairings. Sorry for all the errors they're fixed now, see you all at chapter TWO!

Well Hope you liked it RnR! With love

Brianna