Motivation

Disclaimer: I do not own Blue Bloods only my own ideas.

A/N: Hello and welcome to Motivation. This story is AU and starting off while Jamie is still attending Harvard University. Also in this story Joe is alive and well. The main focus is going to be on Jamie and the family. I hope you guys enjoy the story.

Chapter 1

Danny and Joe were standing outside Jamie's apartment door in Boston Massachusetts. The two brothers were leery to knock because it had been over two months since the last time they spoke with their brother. Jamie stayed in touch through monthly emails mostly and short almost recorded voice mails at odd hours when no one would answer the phone. When any member of the family would try to call the phone would always ring twice and go to a prerecorded message that said, "The person you are trying to reach has a voice mail that is full or has not been set up yet." The whole family was worried for communications compared to before rarely came. Everyone at first wondered what they did to upset Jamie. This fear quickly turned to is something wrong? Frank Reagan was so worried, he asked his two son's Danny and Joe to visit when the monthly email did not arrive.

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Inside the apartment, Jamie was getting a blue tie he forgot to pack, for a day he looked forward to and dreaded. For today everything ended, and Jamie could move on with his life knowing this was in the past. While searching for the tie, Jamie let his thought wander to his family. Jamie could not deny; he shut his family out besides short messages monthly so they knew he was "okay". "But really what was the meaning of that word?" In his head, Jamie could hear his older brother Danny upon seeing him saying with glee," Look the kid has finally decided to grace us with his presence." As he pulled Jamie into a hug. Jamie could also see the looks of joy on everyone's faces as if they were in his apartment. Jamie's thoughts were interrupted by a knock at the door. After a few seconds Jamie regained his bearings, and headed towards the door, however before he got to the door he heard a voice say, "Let's try the campus."

Jamie continued with what he was doing and decided to ignore the knock for no one knew he was here. In fact he wasn't even supposed to be here. Although Jamie did have to admit the voice sounded oddly familiar. A few seconds later, Jamie found what he needed and left; a few minutes later, his brothers arrived back at the apartment realizing it would be easier to wait then search the campus. As they parked the car Jamie walked into the courthouse and was greeted by a voice, "How are you?"

"I am fine I just want this over with."

"If you say so, I do have to say you're looking better, but not like yourself yet. You sure you're up for this?" After a pause the man said," Who am I kidding I could never keep you away, we are over here" All the while Jamie was thinking, "I may look better but I have a ways to go." Everything in court took longer and was more draining than he thought possible. When it was all over, Jamie gladly walked out of the courthouse for this was a time he was glad not to be a lawyer. Before Jamie had a chance to reach his room he heard a voice say, "Jamie man is that you?" Jamie immediately turned around all the while trying to hide the fear on his face and the instinct to jump. Although he inwardly thought, "Man what is wrong with me that is clearly Spencer. Why do I have to jump almost five feet in the air whenever someone says my name?" Although all his friend Spencer Croft said with a sad smile was, "Want to go get a coffee?"

"Sure" Jamie replied as they walked into a coffee shop. After both had ordered a beverage and sat Spencer said, "The cross was harder than you thought I take it."

Jamie just rolled his eyes for nothing got past his friend, "Yeah but finally a full week later and the trial is almost over. Hopefully tomorrow I can move back home." Jamie replied, as he undid his necktie and took off his suit jacket. The conversation continued on for a few hours covering anything and everything.

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Meanwhile at Jamie's apartment Danny and Joe had given up waiting in the hall when they heard a neighbor say to another neighbor, "Those men have been here all day I think they might be casing the place. If they don't leave soon I am calling the police." So instead they were now sitting in Danny's black Jeep with the windows down in a parking spot perpendicular with the apartment's entrance. After a few minutes of sitting in the car Danny said, "I can't believe it we are here to visit Jamie and we land on a stake out." As Danny said this he started to laugh at the irony of the whole situation. Then in a serious tone, "Joe where is he? Jamie should have been back by now?"

"Danny he did not know we were coming, it's possible he is in class."

"True but that's his own fault and it's getting late."

"Okay maybe he's not in class, he could be at one of the countless libraries."

"Maybe, but I am starving."

"Well what do you want to do call it a night?"

"How about we go get some food, then come back and see if he is home."

"Alright but no fast food" Joe said as Danny started the car.

"Oh fine." Danny replied with a knowing smirk.

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"Jamie and Spencer were leaving the coffee shop when a friend of Spencer's came over. Spencer greeted him with a high five and said, "Hey what's up?"

"Not much just going to play basketball with some friends want to come?"
"Spencer you should go." Jamie replied thinking he wasn't invited.

"I was hoping you would come to." Spencer's friends replied.

"Alright sounds fun I will be there I just have to change first." Jamie replied with a thousand watt smile.

The game was a blast, in fact Jamie could not remember having this much fun in what felt like forever. During the game Spencer at first was worried for Jamie although he looked more like himself again and less like that fragile boy he saw just over two months ago, so Spencer let his worries ease away out of his mind for now. The game had so many players it was like playing an actual basketball game. Everyone took breaks and no one even noticed Jamie took more than everyone else. Spencer and their friends did not realize just how late it was until they were leaving the gym they saw the street lights on, a black cloudless sky and a full moon. As everyone was heading home someone said, "I am starving want to go get some food?"

At the mention of food Jamie thought," I could go for a burger with fries and a milkshake." The dinner was interesting and fun. As Jamie and his friends left they saw the quitter streets of Boston. Someone asked," What time is it?"

"Oh man 12 o'clock."

"I got to go see you guys around." Jamie and his friend Spencer replied simultaneously as they walked away.

Once out of earshot Spencer asked, "No word yet?" as he could see Jamie staring at his phone for the first time since the café with a shocked look.

"Yeah I guess they are still debating so much for this being over." Jamie said in a disappointed tone.

"Hey what you have to remember is that none of this is your fault and sooner or later they will lock him up and if not you are still Jamison Reagan and I have faith you will move on to great things." Spencer replied as he pulled Jamie into a manly half hug.

"I know I just wish that this was already over."

"I understand but hang in there. Hey did you tell your family?"

"No" Jamie flatly replied. As he moved out of the hug.

"Jamie they are your family they would.."

Before Spencer could finish Jamie said," Support me, have my back, I know the drill I just do not want them to know."

"Jamie how is that even possible it is a public case you were..."

"Only here no other state has easy access and this won't follow me."
"Of course it won't, Jamie I may not be in law school but I do know you did nothing wrong. But still there is the media"

"I will cross that bridge when I come to it. I have to go. See you tomorrow? "

"Yeah sure." Spencer was worried that his friend was in denial, but understood that Jamie had to deal with this on his own. But he could not help it that his best friend felt like his brother.

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A few minutes later Jamie arrived at his hotel room and was so mentally and physically exhausted that he totally forgot about the familiar voice and crashed. Jamie however like many nights had fitful sleep and was awoken by his phone at 8:30 A.M. "Reagan"

"Mr. Reagan court will reconvene at nine thirty."

"Okay thanks." Jamie replied in a sleepy voice. After hanging up the phone Jamie looked at a clock and saw the time read 8:36 realizing he had under an hour to get ready and to the courthouse Jamie rushed into the bathroom. In less than fifteen minutes he was on his way to the courthouse.

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Danny and Joe were rolling up outside of Jamie's apartment building hoping to catch their brother for worry was growing since Jamie had not returned and their calls went straight to the prerecorded message. After parking the car Danny and Joe headed into the building to go and knock. When there was still no response they headed back out to the car. Just as they sat down Joe's cellphone rang.

"Hello"
"How is everything going?"

"Not great, hold on I'm going to put you on speaker."

"What's wrong?"

"Dad we made it here late Monday. But we haven't seen Jamie."

"We are on a stake out." Danny butted in.
"I see well that is odd, I say give him till tonight if you still don't hear from him go file a missing persons report enough is enough."

"Alright talk to you soon." Joe replied as he hung up and got comfortable, for he felt like today would be another long day.

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Meanwhile at the courthouse, Jamie was stunned he got the outcome he was expecting for the man got six years parole in three. However Jamie also got a good dose of the unexpected for although unusual the judge forced the convicted on top of his jail stay to pay Jamison Reagan quadruple the cost of the accumulated hospital bills in order to cover any future complications. Jamie was so stunned he did not hear the commotion as the convicted broke free the only thing that momentarily brought Jamie to his senses was the pain he felt as his head impacted with the floor but then everything went black.

While Jamie lay unconscious, the judge was shouting for order as two bailiffs restrained the convicted and another two went to Jamie, once the convicted was restrained another bailiff helped out. The judge spoke over the loud noise and said, "Call a bus."

A bailiff replied," On its way."

"Courts still in session. Your punishment is still the same amount of time but now you will pay all of the medical bills until Mr. Reagan is cleared for a year by a doctor of his choosing also the defendant will pay an additional two million dollars to Jamison Reagan on the after tax basis. Bailiff please take this man into custody. Court is adjourned. "As the gavel came down the medics arrived. After a few seconds Jamie was wheeled out of the courthouse and rushed to the hospital. Upon arrival at the hospital the doctors immediately examined him. Seeing his breathing was slow they placed him on oxygen. Upon not seeing any problem in the x-rays the lead doctor decided to see if he woke up on his own. While Jamie was unconscious he was stitched up. While the doctor went to speak with the family. He was surprised to see two cops and a lawyer step forward with genuine concern for the man. Upon learning the man had no family in town the doctor told them what he knew then left. Seeing Jamie was waking up the doctor gently coxed him back to consciousness after some tests were completed Jamie asked, "When can I leave?"

"We would like to keep you here for observation at least for a bit however when you get out you will still have to take it easy and rest. You have visitors if you're up for it." After Jamie nodded he went and retrieved the visitors. After a brief visit everyone left so Jamie could rest. Jamie was woken up every hour. The first few hours went smoothly and the doctor was pleased with the results however while a nurse was walking outside of Jamie's room she heard the sound of the patient heaving. As she entered it looked like he had the nausea under control and was fine but then when he spoke he sounded confused. The nurse immediately told a passing nurse to call the doctor. At this Jamie said, "Don't I am fine." The nurse was not convinced "Were just going to have the doctor make sure" the nurse said as she checked his vitals. Jamie knew that he wasn't going to win the battle and fell asleep. He fell asleep so fast at first the nurse thought he might have gone unconscious but the light snores relieved those fears.

When the doctor arrived a minute later he was worried for Jamie looked unconscious so he decided to shake Jamie's shoulder. The doctor was a little worried when Jamie did not stir so he pulled out a pen light and started to check his pupils after a few seconds Jamie woke up. The doctor's relief was short lived. As Jamie started to sit up he fainted. Everyone swung quickly into action examining him again. The doctor ordered more tests. While this was happening Jamie regained consciousness and said, "Seriously I am fine." When the quick test results came back the doctor said,"So far everything looks good"
"So I am free to go?"

"Although your test results are clear I am still waiting on more results so I am admitting you."

"Well I would like to leave."
"Jamison, I thought you were intelligent."

"Sir I will rest easier at home, I promise I won't overdue it."
"How about I rush the last results and if they are clear you can go as long as there is someone to stay with you." The doctor replied knowing that look meant his patients mind was made up.
"Deal." Jamie replied.

"Alright I will be back when we have the results, but for now rest."

An hour later the doctor returned "Well your results look good so here are the papers." A few minutes later Jamie was back in his suit and sitting in a cab on his way home with a follow-up. The cab ride seemed like it went by slow however they made great time and he was home in a matter of minutes. Jamie headed straight for the shower. As he was getting out of the shower his phone rang, "Hello"

"Hey it's Spencer I am running late I will be there in an hour."

"Alright and thanks again."
"Don't mention it." Spencer replied then hung up.

After hanging up the phone Jamie knew it was too early to go to bed so he put away everything from the hospital and what was dropped off from the hotel. After a few minutes his body could not take being awake any longer so he decided to take a nap so he set an alarm for an hour. As Jamie started drifting off he was awoken by a loud knock. Jamie for a moment was confused but then moved to answer the door. As Jamie looked out the peep hole he was surprised to see his brothers standing there. He opened the door but before he could say anything a large bear hug ensued. Jamie inwardly thought," It's great to see you but I don't want all the questions that are coming." After a few seconds he said," I can't breathe." After the brothers stepped back Jamie said it's great to see you but what's wrong?"