Tears
I lie down on my bed, staring at the ivory ceiling. Not really thinking, not really moving, not really doing anything at all. I clutch my eyes attempting to stop the tears that are forming. A small whisper escapes my small, pink lips, as a lonely tear escapes my dark brown eyes. It makes its way down my porcelain face, caressing my rosy red cheek; slowly dancing down my swan-like neck, soon disappearing. Leaving behind a moist from where it used to be.
A tear of pain, a tear of agony, a tear of anger, a tear of fear, a tear of missbelief, a tear wishing to change my life, a tear of hopelessness, a tear of dispair, a lonsome, crystal tear.
That lone tear soon came accompanied by many hopeless tears, tears flowing in every which direction. Streaming down my face like rain streams down a river. Yet there are still timid tears burning in my eyes, blurring my vision. Tears afraid to come out, fearing that if they escape their dark prison, they will be followed by a tender rain of crystal tears; tears very hard to control, tears that come out unwillingly, tears you'll regret ever shedding.
I lie motionless on my bed, my eyes shut tightly; and my teeth piercing into the soft flesh of my angel lips, or as so they were called by my late Goku, attempting to gain control over my cries. I let out a heavy sigh, as a thick shadow of darkness clouds over me. My eyes become heavy, my body turns numb, happily welcoming that darkness. Unbenoethed to me, I shed one last tear gingerly caressing my face, soaking into my pillow. Yet that last tear was different, that one last tear was one of thankfullness and of joy, a tear that felt lucky to be alive, a tear that shall never die.
Darkness takes over me, and at last I feel free; no more pain, anger or anguish, as my mind is filled with memories of my beloved in my dreams. The one I loved more than life, the one I fell madly in love with ever since the first time I ever layed eyes on his spiky hair and chubby cheeks as a child. A child full of joy and pure inosence one can only dream of having and fall in love with. My sweet Goku…my strong and loving Goku. You gave me something one could only dream of having, a wonderful son, and another one on the way. You made my dreams come true, I only wish you were here with me, holding me in your strong, and loving embrace. Yet a part of me knows you aren't forever away. For you planted a seed within me, as one last gift in rememberence of you. I only want you to know that I love you, I always have and always will. You will remain forever in my heart and in my soul. Without you I am never complete, but you gave me one last gift I will treasure forever.
I lie down on my bed, staring at the ivory ceiling. Not really thinking, not really moving, not really doing anything at all. I clutch my eyes attempting to stop the tears that are forming. A small whisper escapes my small, pink lips, as a lonely tear escapes my dark brown eyes. It makes its way down my porcelain face, caressing my rosy red cheek; slowly dancing down my swan-like neck, soon disappearing. Leaving behind a moist from where it used to be.
A tear of pain, a tear of agony, a tear of anger, a tear of fear, a tear of missbelief, a tear wishing to change my life, a tear of hopelessness, a tear of dispair, a lonsome, crystal tear.
That lone tear soon came accompanied by many hopeless tears, tears flowing in every which direction. Streaming down my face like rain streams down a river. Yet there are still timid tears burning in my eyes, blurring my vision. Tears afraid to come out, fearing that if they escape their dark prison, they will be followed by a tender rain of crystal tears; tears very hard to control, tears that come out unwillingly, tears you'll regret ever shedding.
I lie motionless on my bed, my eyes shut tightly; and my teeth piercing into the soft flesh of my angel lips, or as so they were called by my late Goku, attempting to gain control over my cries. I let out a heavy sigh, as a thick shadow of darkness clouds over me. My eyes become heavy, my body turns numb, happily welcoming that darkness. Unbenoethed to me, I shed one last tear gingerly caressing my face, soaking into my pillow. Yet that last tear was different, that one last tear was one of thankfullness and of joy, a tear that felt lucky to be alive, a tear that shall never die.
Darkness takes over me, and at last I feel free; no more pain, anger or anguish, as my mind is filled with memories of my beloved in my dreams. The one I loved more than life, the one I fell madly in love with ever since the first time I ever layed eyes on his spiky hair and chubby cheeks as a child. A child full of joy and pure inosence one can only dream of having and fall in love with. My sweet Goku…my strong and loving Goku. You gave me something one could only dream of having, a wonderful son, and another one on the way. You made my dreams come true, I only wish you were here with me, holding me in your strong, and loving embrace. Yet a part of me knows you aren't forever away. For you planted a seed within me, as one last gift in rememberence of you. I only want you to know that I love you, I always have and always will. You will remain forever in my heart and in my soul. Without you I am never complete, but you gave me one last gift I will treasure forever.