Disclaimer: I still don't own the characters of Numb3rs.
A/N: I needed an end to this. I couldn't write without it... read on...
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He never used to drink coffee every morning,
but then he learned how wearing it was to be
a father
totwo exceptional sons,
who were both hassles.
Ever since the first few
months
since Don was
born
coffee became what he
lived
on.
It was as important to his body
as oil was to car's engines.
The past year had been
extremely hard
for him and he drank more
coffee
because of it.
The more awake he was
the more he could
keep his mind off
of everything.
The death
of his wife...
was just the
beginning …
Alan
couldn't
go to the store anymore
afraid
of what he might miss if he did…
He'd moved
everything out of
themedicine cabinets
and thrown most of
the pills
away…
He'd stopped watching
overly dramatic
cop shows because
he couldn't
stand to see
guns…
Even thinking of the
weapon
made his head spin
and his stomach heave.
He tried keeping thoughts of
his sons
out of his mind,
because every time he thought of them
he only saw their
dead bodies…
Their eyes
open
and
vacant.
One
pale
with contrasting
dark curls.
The other
spattered
with
crimson.
A cup of coffee can
calm people
in the morning,
but not always,
and not for Alan...
He had way too much
on his mind…
What
disturbed
him the most though
was that
he wasn't there
with either of them
when they…
Where was he?
Why didn't they want to be
with him
at the end?
He didn't know
nor care
to dwell on it…
"Morning Pops!"
a voice said
into the quiet.
He turned
and
relief
washed over him…
Images don't always
fade
and memories
can become
lost
in your tangled
consciousness,
but watching
someone you
love dearly…
someone you
saw die
by their own
free will…
alive…
walking…
and talking…
you not only feel
relieved
but glad that
coffee is able to
bring you out
of your sleep crazed state sooner,
so that the nightly nightmares
leave.
He took another sip
of the
caffeine induced
drink
glad
that he
drank it black…
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A/N: Happy? I am. I felt totally lost and unable to write anything with Charlie and Don ever since "Hey, Buddy". So I wrote this up quick so I could get back to my other fics. Please review and tell me if you hated this. I don't care about what kind of reviews they are anymore. I read them all anyway.
TheDudeLordOfFantasy a.k.a. Kathleen