Authors note
So yeah, I don't own KnB (obviously) and this is my first Fanfic so it's probably going to suck, so be prepared. Also WARNING: Self-harm, depression, swearing, abuse and A LOT of angst. So yeah, don't read if you don't like that stuff.
The first round for the qualifiers of the junior high had just begun and we were wining. Normally people would be happy for these sorts of things, but not me. They, my teammates weren't letting me pass them the ball. Heck, they weren't allowing me to even touch it. I could barley steal the ball much less pass it, and when I did it was horrible. I wasn't really into the mood of playing basketball slaughter edition. But even though I was doing horribly no one was really noticing my mistakes. Or so I thought.
BEEP
"THE fourth quarter of the first qualifiers has ended!" shouted the referee.
I was just going back when Akashi-kun passed me and said: "That was a shabby play out there Kuroko. Don't do this again."
Murusakibara-kun hastily came up to and repeated the same words in his own way. So did Midorima-kun, Kise-kun and Aomine-kun, he even rejected my fist bump. I was walking the hallways of the gym after I changed and bumped into Momoi-san. 'She's going to criticize me to, isn't she?' was my first thought but I reassured myself by reminding myself that she wasn't like that. But alas I was wrong.
"Hey Tetsu-kun?" she begun.
"What is it Momoi-san?" I ask.
"What happened put there? You were REALLY bad today, for some reason. You shouldn't weigh down the team like you did today." She says with her eyes dotting everywhere.
"Eh?"
"Well, you know." she says rubbing her feet to the floor. " We don't want others to think that you are a burden to us, you know. Otherwise Akashi-kun might kick you of the regulars."
"Do you think I'm a burden Momoi-san?"
"Huh? Um, well, uuuuh."
'Huh, so even Momoi-san thinks that I'm a problem.'
"You don't need to say anything more Momoi-san." I say with a monotonous voice.
"No, wait! Tetsu-kun, I don't mean-" She says with a face of desperation.
I start running away from her and somehow I got away from her, huh that's strange, I thought that she was faster than me. She probably knows that what I said was right and therefore she won't chase me, or she simply doesn't have anything to say to me. I was continuing my pondering until I was outside and noticed a certain group of rainbow heads talking to each other.
"Oi Akashi, why aren't you taking care of Kuroko?" The Oha-Asa loving freak asked .
"Yeah, didn't you see what he did? It was fucking HORRIBLE!" My light replied.
"Shouldn't you punish him Aka-chin?" A candy eating monster added.
"But wouldn't it be bad for Kurokocchi? I mean he's weaker than us so he wouldn't fair, well if he would be punished." An annoying model reprimanded.
"I will not punish Kuroko." A commanding captain determined.
"Eh?" The rest of the GoM said in unison.
"I'm sure that Kuroko will sort his punishment out himself."
As I was about to step out of my hiding spot and ask Akashi-kun what he meant when Momoi-san came running out of the building, luckily not out the same one I did.
"Dai-chan have you seen Tetsu-kun?" She asked.
"No, why would I?" He responded
"What do you mean 'why would I?' you're his light!"
"Um, yeah about that I-" Aomine-kun was cut of by a sudden coughing that came from a person nonchalantly walking past me.
"Hey, isn't that Kurokocchi?" Kise asked.
I sped of using my misdirection knowing that Momoi-san would run after me.
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I soon returned home hoping that my parents weren't there. I walked trough the hallway leading to the kitchen and saw a piece of paper on the table.
"I'm going away for a business trip for a week, your father won't be home until late and your sister will live in her schools dormitory for a while. I expect that you shall prepare food for your father everyday until I come back and obey the rules, or else. I left you some pocket change seeing how come your father won't be feeding you and I don't want the authorities over in MY house looking for your useless corpse. It should suffice for a week if not you carelessly spend your money like you did last time. - Your mother"
I look down at the table to see that there's only 620 yen there, (that's roughly 6 dollars.) That wouldn't be enough for me to buy my milkshakes this time, I wonder if mother and father got into a fight again and mother's using the business trip as an excuse to get away from him. I check what time it is and realise that I have about 5 hours until father returns home, that's enough time for me to figure out what I can make and finish my school work until father comes home.
I walk into my room and work on my homework.
I'm finished with my homework and I have a good 1 and a half hour left, I go into the kitchen to prepare for dinner. While I get ready to cook dinner I realise that I don't know what I should cook. I can only make eggs, but father hates eggs. He made it pretty clear last time I made it for him. I decide that I shall make white rice with cooked beef and some vegetables. Seeing how bad my cooking skills are it took me a good 1 hour and 20 minutes until I was finished, that's good seeing how come father should be home in 10 minutes. I put his dinner in the microwave, but then a sharp pain strikes across my back. I quickly go into the bathroom to check what it was, I take of my shirt and look through a mirror which reflected another mirror so I could see my back. There's a big brown mark on my back, a burn mark my mother gave me four days ago, I think that she was fighting with father again that day. Luckily my older sister Terumi helped me out by treating my wounds, but looks like I have to do something about it this time.
I take a towel from one of the cupboards and soak it with water, I try to hit the mark but I fail miserably. I can't seem to get it, granted it was a big mark ranging from my right shoulder down to my side to I was able to get most of it. I don't really know if this is what you're supposed to do if it starts to burn, but I'd do anything to get away from this agonising sensation. I think back to all the times Terumi helped me with my wounds after mother's and or father's "lectures." I feel as if though I have too thank her sooner or later.
I look at what time it is and realise that father should be home by this stage. I haven't eaten anything since lunch today, and with the qualifiers that were today I was practically starving when I came home. I'm not allowed to eat ANYTHING that belonged to mother or father that includes what I make, that includes anything I make, even if I did make an extra portion for myself. I could go out and by something, but then I might risk the chance of not being here when father returns. Last time that happened he was sure to tell me EXACTLY why that was bad, ugh just thinking about that gives me goose bumps, that was one of the harder lessons he gave me.
I soon conclude that going out now when father was supposed to be home any second was a bad idea, and I sat down in my bedrooms working table and repeat what I learned from my homework. I don't want a failing grade again, mother was especially angry that time I did. An hour passes and I hear footsteps outside the front door, it must be father! I put on my shirt and rush over to the front door and hastily open it up so that father doesn't need to.
"Welcome home father." I say immediately after opening the door.
"Huh, Tetsuya? Ugh, and here I thought that your angel of a sister was going to open up the door, instead I got you." My father Haruto Kuroko snared at me.
"I'm sorry father but sister isn't at home right now, and she won't be home for a while."
"Huh, why?"
"She's currently living in her schools dormitories."
"I said, 'WHY?' not WHERE!" My father spat at me with an angry look on his face while taking of his shoes.
"I don't know. I found a piece of paper on the kitchen table stating that she wouldn't be home for a while."
"And who wrote it?" He said while taking of his jacket.
"Mother did."
"Speaking of which, where is your mother?" Father said while walking into the kitchen.
"Mother's on a business trip."
"Where is it?"
"Huh?"
"DON'T YOU, 'Huh?' ME YOUNG MAN! WHERE'S THE DAMN FOOD?!"
"In the microwave father."
"WELL GO AND GET IT!"
I don't understand why father's like this towards me, he's polite and gentlemanly towards everyone else but me. I start heating up father's dinner up and during the time it took to heat the food up father asked if I wanted my allowance money, however I decline seeing how come I already got my allowance from mother. He responded with a loud shout saying that I shouldn't talk back to him and accept what's given to me without question, he takes out two 50 yen coins and puts it on the kitchen table. I take the coins and stick it into my shirt pocket. I walk over to the microwave and take out father's dinner out and place it in front of father along with a knife and fork. I walk over to the cupboard to get father a glass of water when I hear a loud cough and my father ordering me to give him the glass of water. I give it to him and he drinks it up really fast and then bangs the glass on the table.
"WHAT IS THIS SHIT?!" Father shouts at me.
"Are you alright father?" I ask politely
"Alright? ALRIGHT?!" Father glares at me and then throws the glass towards me, nearly hitting it's target.
I take a step back and take my arms up to shield me from the eventual pain.
"THE RICE IS OVERCOOKED!" Father shouted at me while striking me on hitting my arms while I was slowly going down on my knees.
"THE BEEF IS UNDERCOOKED! Father yet again punched me but this time on my arm while I was collapsed on the floor.
"YOU FUCKING BURNED THE VEGETABLES ON THE INSIDE! LIKE HOW DO YOU MANEGE TO DO THAT?!" Father continues on and for every time father complains about the food I can expect at least one or two strikes from him. After the seventh strike to my arm it starts to feel numb and I soon realise that it's not cover my face with it any more, leaving free space for father to hit me with, which he did.
After a good 12 minute beating father grunts off and walks to the basement while I slowly start to sit up. I get lost in thought and a certain red head's sentence suddenly reminded me of something important.'I'm sure that Kuroko will sort his punishment out himself.' That's what Akashi-kun said, but what does he mean? I decide to clean up the glass shards lying on the floor. But when I pick up one of the glass shards I just start to stare at it. My body gets cold and I only hear my breathing and heartbeat. The hand which I'm holding the shard with feels, weird, and the other arm feels like it's begging for the it's embrace.
"Punishment, huh?" I say with a blank face.
I put the cold, sharp, wetish substance to my arm and carefully slice my pale arm, man it feels so much better than mother's or father's punishment. Just watching the metallic liquid flowing down my arm. I cut my arm once again watching the same process, I do it again and again, and again until I hear father clamping up the stairs from the basement, I start to pick up the rest of the glass pieces so that he doesn't see me just lying on the floor ready for another lecture. He comes into the kitchen and I prepare myself for the beating, but it never came, so I continue cleaning up the mess in the kitchen. I was finished with throwing away the glass pieces and was about to clean up the food when I felt that father forcefully pulling me by my hair. Father drags me of to the sink and throws my head into the sink filled with freezing water.
I was about to pull my head up when I felt a rough hand holding my head down, I heard things falling into the water and I take a peek to see what it was. I could faintly see ice cubes falling into the sink, I could also see bubbles appearing very close to me. It took me only a second to understand that those bubbles came from me, and I was losing oxygen, fast. Father pulled me up so that I could catch my breath but put me back immediately afterwards. I didn't struggle, if I did father would prolong my suffering. Soon after 10 minutes of consecutive attempts to heal my face from his punches and nearly drowning a couple of times father stopped. I took my head out of the icy water and I scan the kitchen for the food I served father, if he wasn't going to eat it then I could. But alas I was mistaken for I saw father tale the meal I prepared and throw it into the garbage. I did the dishes and walked into my room. I collapse onto my bed and grip the cover tightly. I wish that Terumi was here, usually she'd either stop mother and or father from beating me and or she'd comfort me, and man I need someone to help me right now.
So yeah that was that, I hope that it was alright! And that I didn't make to many mistakes. So what do you think? I would like you two review it so I can improve this fanfic. Well until next time.