Letters

A/N: Alright, this is the second in my DC series. It's the sequel to Capeside: Revisited. I don't think you really have to read the first story to understand this which is basically the letters Jen wrote her friends right before she died. I do suggest that if you plan on following the series you should probably read the first story.

Disclaimer: Dawson's Creek and its characters do not belong to me. They belong to the WB and Kevin Williamson.

Spoilers: Mostly for the Series Finale and my first story Capeside: Revisited, kind of.

Summary: Before Jen died she wrote each of her friends a letter for a final goodbye and got a nurse to send them out to her friends after her funeral. Here are the letters. Part 2 in my series, the Sequel to Capeside: Revisited. 

Chapter 1: Jack

Dear Jack,

 I love you. I know how you must feel; actually I don't because no I've really loved has died. But I'm not gone Jack, I'm right here. I've never left your side, not once. Whenever you need me just reach for this letter, and remember I'm right here. I'll always watch over you Jackers, just like I know you'll watch over Maddy.

  Make sure that Grams is alright for me, I know she'll be here with me soon; you just got to watch her for me until its time. She'll have a hard time with this, she's only got you, Jack, and Maddy left. I don't know how Grams is going to deal with this and you've got to make sure she's still got her faith, because that really matters to her and I don't want her losing it.

   As for you Jack, I've got a few pearls of wisdom left for you. We may no longer have our patented Jen/Jack, Fag/Hag banter anymore, but keep the memories close to heart because by doing that you keep me just a little more alive. Forget the bad times, and the hard time because they, God knows, they hurt the most but focus on the good times, the times we used to laugh about time and time again.

  Trust your instincts Jack. Be it in life or in parenting. Your instincts are always right Jack. If they tell you to run, run. Just don't keep secrets because whether your instincts tell you to or not secrets can hurt. Trust me, I know more than I'd like to on that subject. But in love Jack, oh, in love is where they count most. You can tell the creeps from the genuine good guys with your instinct most of the time. Dougie, is a good guy Jack, he's your guy so don't let him go. I could never forgive you if you did.

   Love Jack. Love is important and you need to love as much as you can. Without love you can't go very far. Love Madison with all of your heart, Love Doug with ever fibre of your being, Love Joey, Pacey, Dawson, Andie and Audrey in however way you can. We all need to be loved, being loved can make you a whole as much as it can make you a half. It can help you along the road as much as it can render you immobile.

   As for one last pearl of wisdom, never give up. It's been said too many times by too many people and yet it still needs to be said. No matter how bad things are, no matter how much you hurt, never ever give up. Hold on until you fall, stand up and try again until you fulfill what you were trying to do. You cannot give up, it would be unacceptable to give up.

  Now, I trust that you'll carry on with my dirty work. Even as a mother I still had a few tricks up my sleeve. Watch out for Pacey and Joey. They're my main project Jack, those kids can't see love when it's right in front of them, can they? I always knew they were meant for each other and now that I'm not around to meddle I'm sure you'll do the honours. I don't know if Joey does know it yet, or if she's already admitted it to Pacey. Just make sure they make it Jack. Also, take heed with Dawson and Andie. I have a feeling that not all is platonic in that area, or at least won't be for very long. They are living with each other after all. As for Ms. Liddell, meddling is not called for but if Todd breaks her heart, break his neck.

   Now, for the extremely emotional section of the letter and if you need to cry, cry all you like, know that somewhere I am crying with you. I do not know if there is a heaven, or if I am even going there. Just know that no matter where I am I will be watching you, laughing with you and crying with you. I've already told you that I will watch over you, that I am with you all of the time and I am. When you cry know than I am right there with my arms around you, feel comforted in knowing that I'm there even in you can't hear me or see me. When you laugh, I'm in the room with a smile on laughing with you as I always have. As long as you live everyday Jack, as long as you laugh and cry you keep me alive, you keep me with you everywhere you go. I can never leave Jack, as long as you and Madison and the others are around there will always be a part of me with you, in you.

   Of all my time in Capeside I don't think I ever really fit in until you and I became best friends. When I arrived in Capeside I was the girl who stirred up trouble between three childhood best friends. I love Dawson, Pacey and Joey but they had been friends since their early childhood and my arrival rocked their perfect world. Joey hated me, Dawson pined for me, and Pacey was too wrapped up in his 'coming of age'. We were friends, good friends, but I never really had a place. Then, you and Andie arrived in town. When you were around Jack, when we spent time together and laughed I had found my place, my soul mate. I've searched high and low Jack, and I have not found a guy better than you, I never will.

  Jack McPhee you are my everything. You are my best friend, my soul mate, and you were there for me when I needed you the most. You will make a great father Jack; there is no doubt in my mind. Take care of Madison and make her fit in.

  I love you with all of my heart,

                    Jen.