A/N: I know people always do the scene with Garrus, Shepard, and Sidonis but this will be different. I think…so enjoy! I own nothing!

"This isn't you Garrus." Shepard glanced at him, wary of his expression. Turian expressions are hard to read but this one was simple enough. Hate. Pure and utter hate. He obviously hated Sidonis. And Shepard understood why. But she wouldn't let it consume him. "What happened to the old Garrus?" Shepard whispered.

"The old Garrus died when you died Commander. The old Garrus died when I let my squad die on my watch. Besides…I'm not you."

Shepard flinched at his words. His cold calculating voice sounded truly threatening. 'I miss the joking Garrus.' Shepard thought sadly.

The small shuttle landed on the top balcony and Shepard stole another glance at Garrus. Sniper-mode was written all over him. "What's the plan Garrus?"

"You get him to talk and move when I tell you to so I can take the shot. Simple." Garrus responded coolly. Shepard doesn't respond and takes the shuttle down to meet Sidonis.

"Can you hear me?"

"Yep."

A moment's pause. "Wave him over."

Shepard waves Sidonis over and she could see the nervousness in his eyes. "Let's get this over with."

"You're in my shot. Move to the side."

In a snap decision Shepard said, "Listen Sidonis I'm here to help you."

"Don't ever say that name aloud." Sidonis shifted his eyes around to see if anybody heard. But of course, nobody paid any attention to them.

"I'm a friend of Garrus'. He wants you dead, but I'm hoping that's not necessary."

Garrus cursed silently. 'Come on Shepard.' He pleaded uselessly in his head.

"Garrus? Is this some kind of joke?" Sidonis backed up a few feet and Shepard along with him.

"Damn it. If you or he moves, I'm taking the shot."

'He wouldn't." Shepard thinks. 'This is Garrus. My best friend. No…he won't risk it.'

'She'll move." Garrus thinks. "This is Shepard. My best friend I've ever had in a long time. She'll move…'

"You're not kidding are you? Screw this. I'm not sticking around to find out. Tell Garrus I had my own problems…" Sidonis shakes his head in disbelief and proceeds to walk off. Shepard could've let him go and everything would've been fine. But Shepard had to play the paragon.

"Don't move." Shepard jerked him back toward her.

"Get off me!" Sidonis pulled her hand off.

"I'm the only thing standing between you and a hole in the head." Shepard said icily. 'This is getting to be too much.' Shepard thinks. 'Is he really worth saving? No of course he is. Everybody is.'

"Fuck." Sidonis sighs. "Look…I didn't want to do it. I didn't have a choice."

Garrus scoffs. "Everyone has a choice."

'So do you Garrus.' Shepard thinks, wishing for clarity to reach his mind.

"They got to me. Said they'd kill me if I didn't help…what was I supposed to do?" Sidonis waves his arms, expressing his every word.

"Let me take the shot Shepard. He's a damn coward." Garrus snarls in her ear via comlink.

"That's it? You were just trying to save yourself?" Shepard says disdainfully.

"I know what I did. I know they died because of me, and I have to live with that."

"I wake up every night…sick…and sweating. Each of their faces staring…accusing. I'm already a dead man. I don't sleep. Food has no taste for me. Some days I just want it to be over."

"No you don't." Shepard whispered to Sidonis.

"Just give me the chance." Garrus pleads with Shepard.

Shepard almost relented to his words. Almost. Shepard shifts an inch away from Sidonis. A mistake.

'There…an opening.' Garrus lines up his shot and takes it. Another mistake. Shepard shifts back into place and the shot doesn't hit Sidonis. It hits her.

"Ahh!" Shepard yelps loudly. Something hits her neck. Out of instinct, Shepard grips her neck automatically. Slowly everything goes blurry. "Garrus…"

Her eyes go wide with recognition. He shot her. "No…" She murmurs.

"Damn!" Sidonis yells out. "Garrus if you can hear me…no! You were right human! Garrus why?" Sidonis kneels down to Shepard and scans the room for staring pedestrians.

Sidonis gets up back quickly and sprints off, cursing the whole way.

"No. No…I didn't shoot her. I didn't." Garrus' eyes widen with acknowledgment of what he had done. "Shepard!" He yells frantically.

Garrus takes a flight down and rushes over to the fallen body of Commander Shepard.

"Garrus…?" Shepard questions. Her eyes are glazed over with her hand pressed tightly against her bloody neck.

Garrus yanks a medigel pack from his belt and applied pressure to her fragile neck. "I told you I was going to take the shot if you moved." Garrus mutters.

The medigel was working quickly, the skin starting to heal. But there was so much blood still pouring over his trembling hands. 'Too much blood loss.' Garrus thinks. Garrus was about to comm. the doctor but what would she say? Would she say anything at all or banish him from the Normandy? "Oh Garrus…" Shepard mumbles.

"Shepard…just hang on." Garrus surrenders and comms Chakwas. "Doctor Chakwas! Shepard…something went wrong. Come down! Hurry!"

Chakwas doesn't say a word and he could hear faint footsteps before she turned off the link. Garrus continues to save Shepard. But it was a useless fight. "Garrus…don't…be so…hard on yourself. Save…others…once in a…while." Shepard says shakily, tiny blood droplets spilling down the side of her mouth.

Garrus could hear noises all around him. But the only thing he was focused on was Shepard. His best friend in this whole damn galaxy…and now she was leaving. Like all the others…"Don't leave Shepard. Why'd you have to play the paragon?" Garrus bawls angrily at her. He could feel a tear slip down his face. A tear…oh how long ago has it been since he cried?

"So…I could…save you…from yourself." Shepard reaches out to him and Garrus takes her hand willingly. "So beautiful…" Shepard smiles at him.

Garrus hears human feet rushing to him and Shepard. He knew it was Chakwas and a few select team members to help her. But it was too late.

"I don't mind…dying Garrus. I've…done it…before…one more time…won't hurt…me." Shepard replies with that smile still plastered to her pale face.

"You won't die Shepard. Not on my watch." Garrus replies sadly.

Somebody shoved him aside while Chakwas was doing something to Shepard. He couldn't see what though. He was too busy envisioning Shepard's peaceful face when she would die. "I told you I'd take the shot Shepard…" Garrus whispers to himself, trying desperately to reassure himself that everything will be alright.

Chakwas yells something out while someone got it for her. Curses marked the air. Garrus knew the verdict. His Shepard was dead. Dead as his squad. Dead like how Sidonis is going to be when he finds him. Dead as dead can be.

"Garrus…what happened?"

"I took the shot. I took it. She moved so I took it. But she moved back…Shepard…she's dead isn't she?" Garrus stares off into space, dreading his thoughts.

"Garrus...where's my Garrus?" A shaky voice broke into his mind.

"Shepard?" Garrus stood up immediately. His blue eyes searched for her blue eyes.

"Garrus…I'll miss you." Shepard says even more shakily. Her gunshot wound was all patched up, but her blood loss was too much. He could tell by the amount of human blood marked on the floor…on the crew member's armor…on his armor.

"Don't leave me Shepard! You're the only one trust in this whole universe and I'm not about to let you go!" Garrus grips her dying body. Shepard just smiles and her dark blue eyes gaze at him, dead. Garrus slips his head toward hers and knows that non-turians wouldn't understand the gesture, but he couldn't help himself. "Good-bye Shepard."

They say that you don't realize what you have until it's gone. Garrus understood. Twice in a row he did…both the same person. Garrus realized that he truly needed his commander. His best friend. He probably felt something more but he'll never know now…