"What we fear comes to pass more speedily than what we hope."
Publilious Syrus
Love Ridden
"P-please God….", I said with a shaky voice, barely able to see Edwards face through the almost unexisting light in the dark damp room, those two pathetic words were all I could mumble out, between the shaking of my body, it would probably be incoherent to him if he were a… human?
Hmph, human.
In the beginning I didn't care what he was exactly, just who. I tried to pretend that everything was perfect just they way things were, my love, and our love. But I always, always knew, our love was quite unorthodox. I couldn't help thinking about it, nor he. So I was quite surprised when things took an abrupt turn of events, it was inevitable of course. First he (Edward) stopped visiting me at night, only showing up when he felt the need to. Then he stopped coming by for a short while, I pushed it aside, maybe he was hunting, and felt that there was no need to tell me because we had been together for quite sometime that of course I would know when he was hungry. But after a long period of time, I started to call, and call very often, to his cell phone, the house phone, even Alice's, heck even the whole families cell phones. But not once did I get an answer. Had I done something wrong? Did I do something to offend not just Edward, but his whole family?
I didn't understand. I never did.
My car had broken down in the middle of an abandoned road just outside of Forks.
It was sunny that morning, yet out of nowhere it began to pour. Getting out of my old red truck, I popped open the hood of my car, but of course my attempt to seek out the problem seemed futile, for I knew nothing of cars. So I jumped back into my car to wait out the storm so when it finally did clear out I could walk to the nearest gasoline station to get help. I closed my eyes, relaxing to the sound of the elliptical shaped rain droplets hitting the front window of my car. For some strange reason I felt the sudden urge to rev up my engine again just to make sure there would be no need for long walk to the gasoline station. I turned the ignition slightly clockwise. The load roar of my old trucks engine never sounded so sweet. Then something silver caught my eyes. It was Edwards's car! It was parked alongside the street adjacent to mine. I saw a form move inside the car. The car lights turned on, and in the blink of an eye, his car was gone, and already doing 100. I knew it would prove futile for me to follow him. Why had he left? Why had he left me? WHY?!
But that only meant one thing, Edward, was definitely not hunting. And I was going to get some answers out of him. And if he wasn't going to do it willingly, I was going to have to make him.
There was another thing I did know, something I had probably known since I had first met Edward. There was something, something that he, and his family knew, something so terrible, that they were trying to dispel of it themselves. Something so unimaginable that they just couldn't keep it locked up anymore. And they were going to have to tell me sooner or later, one way or another.
How stupid………
I should've ran away……….
While I still had the chance………………………