You said you'd never break up with me

I really hated the episode. If Finchel are forever broken up. I quit watching glee! I only watch it just for them! STRICTLY NO PUCKLEBERRY FANS PLEASE. Don't watch us Finchel fans suffer. Oh and please review after reading.

Disclaimer: I don't own glee. Although if I was then I would fire Mark Salling and I would hang around with Lea Michele and Cory Monteith. P.S I hate Taylor Swift.

Chapter One: The Break Up.

"I thought you'd never make me feel this way" He said angrily...

Finn's eyes were full of anger and sadness. I started to cry, I had let the anger out of me and tears started to fall from my eyes that were once full of joy and love. I stood there in shame, I felt guilt running over me. I covered my face with my hands, my hands that were once warm and always had a hand to hold onto. But they were lonely and they hid my face to cover the shame and the weakness that showed on my face. How could I be so selfish? He broke up with me again. I thought he would enver break up with me again. And then that's when it hit me. The cold ice running down my clothes, staining them like he stained me. I didn't care who threw the slushie at me. I took my shaking hands that revealed my sad face and was now covered with blueberry slushie. I didn't care if people started to laugh at me, I didn't care if it was Santana who threw the slushie at me, I didn't care what I looked like with the slushie all over me. But what I did care about... was that he stood there doing nothing... he watched me and I could feel what he was thinking; Maybe I do deserve this... I felt a warm hand that gripped my shoulder that showed that someone actually cared. I looked into their eyes. It was Kurt... What was he doing here? Why is he here knowing that Karofsky was here? "Come on Rachel, follow me". I followed him into the female's bathroom that was full of cheerios and they all turned around and laughed. They laughed as if was they were going to die. They laughed through my mind, their laughs echoed. I realised one of the girls there, she had blonde hair and blue eyes, the girl who used to be with him. The girl who used to make my life a living hell. Quinn. She looked at me with sympathy but at the same time she was laughing aswell. I always thought that we were friends, but she had changed. She had changed when she got her head cheerleader position back. Kurt looked at me and tried to give me a smile but it didn't comfort me, I couldn't handle it. I couldn't handle this. So I ran to the safest place I could find. The Choir Room. I scanned everywhere to see if anyone was in there, no one was there. I entered the room slowly and steadily making sure that I didn't fall since my eyes were quite blurry because of the tears that had fallen. I sat on the piano stool as I cried there until the slushie had dried on my face and my clothes. I was playing with the piano until I realised that my hands were on auto pilot and started to play a familiar song. I smiled a little knowing this was the right song that expressed myself right now.

I always needed time on my own

I never thought I'd need you there when I cry

And the days feel like years when I'm alone

I started to sing the song with the most passion I had. I miss Finn... You stupid, selfish girl! Why did you ever kiss Puck? I started to cry again but I still managed to pour all my heart out to the song. Then a flashback came in and I saw Finn breaking up with me to find his 'inner rockstar', I knew what he meant by his 'inner rockstar', he meant he didn't want to lose his popularity because he was so embarrased to be seen with a sad loser like me. Maybe that is what I am. I looked down at the necklace that he once gave me, it made me smile just to have that nice cosy memory with him...

When you walk away I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

I started to remember that look on his face. I started to remember what he said after I said that he promised that he wouldn't break up with me. He lied. He lied once again. I don't know how many chances I can give him, but this time it was partly my fault... Why are you a loser Rachel?

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

The words I need to hear to always get me through

The day and make it ok

I miss you...

I miss his smile whenever he looked at me. That smile when we sang 'Marry You' in the wedding... It looked like he meant it. I continued crying and singing throughout the song. Then I remembered all the times he said those three words. 'I love you': Regionals... The wedding... And... Before we broke up. I never once said it to him. You're a jerk Rach, you're also a slut.

I've never felt this way before

Everything that I do reminds me of you

And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor

And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

He has changed my life so much. I felt these pair of eyes watching me but I didn't care so I ignored it and kept playing. What was my life like before Finn? I couldn't remember. How do I erase him from my memory? I couldn't... He was a massive turning point in my life... Before Finn, life didn't exist then.

We were made for each other

Out here forever

I know we were, yeah

And all I ever wanted was for you to know

Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul

I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

Why hasn't he come back running to me yet? I need him. I love him. I don't think he doesn't love me anymore... This could be the end of our story... I tried to think postive but all these negative thoughts are invading it. Maybe I should just quit everything and focus on my classes. Quit glee club. Quit ballet classes. Quit trying so hard to make friends. Quit trying too hand on your work. I am a failure after all... I ruin everyone's lives. Maybe this is why Shelby abandoned me, maybe this is why Jesse broke up with me... BECAUSE IM A SELFISH BITCH! I realised that I said that too loud. And I cursed! I cursed for the first time in this damn jewish life. And when I stopped playing because of the pressure, I stopped and just sat there crying repeatedly. A big hand that was soft came in contact with my shoulder. I didn't see who it was, I just started to cry at their shoulder, it was buff. I just cried on their shoulder until I heard the bell rang which signified that it was time for glee club. I examined at the person's face. It was Puck. "Puck, what are you doing here?".

"Look I'm sorry Rachel, it's actually my fault too..." Suddenly a tall figured man came in the room and when he saw me hugging Puck, he suddenly clenched his fists and had a hurted expression on his face. "Finn! It's not what you think! Please Finn I love you!" I stood up and ran to Finn to embrace him but I was unwelcomed and pushed me down to the floor. I was shock. Hurt. Heart Broken. This was something I haven't experienced before. The whole world seemed to be against me. Salty liquid started to fill my eyes and it was stinging my eyes which added more pain in me. The glee clubbers started to enter the room and stared at me with devastation. "Rachel you broke my heart. I don't think I can ever forgive you. Just stay away from me ok?" His voice was deep and different. It felt like it hurted more more than just physically hurting me. Santana then came into the room and walked over to Finn with a huge smirk on her face and held Finn's hand who gladly accepted. So... He moved on that quickly? "So you and Santana..." I stopped and gulped, feeling the lump in my throat that seemed to be growing, "...Are together now?" I closed my eyes hoping that he wouldn't say those exact words which would pain me. "Yeah we are you annoying rat!" Santana stated with a nasty tone in her voice. The humiliating feeling was returning again, this time the whole school seemed to be watching the whole rant in the choir room. I made eye contact with his eyes and it felt like a whole new world. There was no warmth or home in there for me anymore.

Author's note: I really hate the writers who made Rachel and Finn not together anymore. It should be against the law. I wanna kill Ryan Murphy! I cried when I saw the episode! And did everyone see Lea Michele and Mark Salling's tweets on twitter? Eugh. STRICTLY NO PUCKLEBERRY. I MEAN NO PUCKLEBERRY. I WILL KILL ALL PUCKLEBERRIES. WHO IS WITH ME :) REVIEWS PLEASE

P.S I will update my other story, 'We Made Promises', tomorrow or the next day.