A.N. Hey people~~ Wow... I'm kinda getting stuck into writing one-shots. ^^'' Even though I for one prefer reading long stories, I seem to write one-shots the most. I wonder why? Anyhoo... this is a look into Hinata's mind. I have always wondered what he felt, so I decided to write this. Even though I'm not a guy, so I aren't exactly sure whether I did this okay. But yeah...
Disclaimer: I do not own Kaichou wa Maid Sama.
Why do I feel this way?
This strange sensation.
I had already decided that Misaki-chan was the one for me. I had decided it all those years ago, when I was still a little chubby boy. I thought at the time that Misaki-chan was my one and only. I had thought that we went so well together; the sun and the moon, a fork and a spoon. She had picked me up, helped me grow into who I am today.
And I was so overjoyed when I found her! Staring at her, looking into her amber eyes… I knew that despite the slight changes, she was still the Misaki that I had met all those years ago. And she recognized me, too. I could see it in her face; the surprised look, the widening of her eyes in recognition. At that moment I had felt pure happiness.
But he was there.
Usui Takumi, who has been with her when I was absent. I saw the way she looked at him. It was an expression that I had never seen on her face before. It was serene, happy, bright, and she glowed as if she had had the sun shine down onto her.
It was a look that I knew I had worn when I looked at her.
It was a look that I knew symbolized love.
It was a look that I so desperately wanted her to give me.
It was a look that made me envious of Usui Takumi.
I hated that. I hated the fact that my dream that I had held onto for all these years had been broken by one person. It was so frustrating! I had thought that I simply had to find her, talk to her, make her remember if she had forgotten me… so why did that guy have to be in the way? Why did it have to be him?
And why did Misaki-chan have to like him so?
It would've been fine if she hadn't liked him. She would be the damsel in distress, and I'd be the hero come to save the day. It would be the perfect fairy-tale, the glittering look into our magical lives. And he would be sent away, never to come back again. The evil villian sent away to the castle dungeon, to spend the rest of his life there while the prince and princess lived happily ever after. It would have been perfect.
Why did she have to like him?
It made things so difficult… even though in the end I wanted her to be as happy as possible, my entire being ached for her to be with me, not him.
It made me wonder. What if I had found her before him? Would all this have turned out the same? He would be the one ending up on the sides, desperately trying to find a way in. He would be the one watching from the sidelines, staring sadly at the sight before him. It would be him suffering instead. I knew that it was selfish of me, but part of me wanted him to feel that. The sadness and envy I felt.
Was it really too much to ask for her to like me instead?
Well… even though my dream had been broken, nothing said that I had to leave it like that. I could re-piece it all together, one at a time. Maybe over time Misaki-chan would grow tired of that guy, and come to me instead.
I could only hope.
A.N. Well.. it was quite short, eh? But I hope you enjoyed it!
If it isn't too much trouble, please review! Thanks~!