Chapter one:
"When are you going to just leave it?" Peter exclaimed. He wasn't exactly satisfied with his youngest sister today, but he hadn't been satisfied with her ever since they had gotten back from Narnia. It had taken his little sister, the one that always had to know everything, just about two days, to start asking questions to Peter. The major one being; why and how she would go back there and not be able to take him with. She had refused to believe that Peter could not go back, along with Susan. Even though it was Aslan who had told this to her, Aslan who was always right and made his choices for the best and always with the best reasons, she still refused to acknowledge going back without them.
"Don't you miss it?" Lucy questioned and Peter having been startled by this question, met her eyes and for the first time gave her his full attention. "I miss it." She started and Peter threw her an acknowledging look. Of course he missed it, he missed it even more now, realising that he would never return there again. After all Narnia had very much felt like a home for him, maybe even more then his home here. Everything he knew, everything that he believed in, it seemed that he had gotten that all from Narnia and that part of that all was still in Narnia. He could not yet master never coming there again.
"I miss it too." He stated and Lucy smiled warmly as she pulled him in a hug for no reason. They didn't do that nearly enough, Lucy found and although neither Peter and definitely not Edmund would ever admit it. Lucy's hugs still held a lot of emotion and comfort for them.
"I'm just not sure that me and Ed would ever be as good a help to Narnia as you and Susan were. Sometimes I realise that after all, it was the both of you that more or less saved Narnia, not me nor Ed." Lucy's voice was not seeking for pity, she was just narrating the truth, or what she believed was the truth.
"That's far from true and you know that. You might not be a talented fighter or an archer for that matter, but you have been the best help Narnia could get. Who was able to see Aslan, when the rest of us didn't? Who was able to get to him in time to save our asses. Who killed the ice queen, when both Caspian and me were not able to?" Peter could understand his sister's thoughts and worries, but he would never forget that both her and Edmund had shown to be at least as much a help to Narnia as him. He had taken the lead, but that did not mean that his brother or Lucy couldn't. They were far more than just the girl and boy they looked like. "It was you and Edmund." He stated his answer as she still had not looked convinced enough for his liking.
"Thanks." Lucy said as she realised that that just had been one of the best peptalks she had ever received, though she had intended to give him one. "I just… I can't believe your time there is gone." Lucy stated and Peter smiled warmly, although not feeling like that at all. Yes, he couldn't really believe that either.
"Sometimes I wonder if there is a part of my sister that has been left behind in Narnia." Edmund said as he startled Susan and she threw him a surprised yet confused look. It was not Edmund's way of creeping up on a person and start talking cryptically.
"Trust me, I'm here completely." She assured him, while she returned back to the paper in front of her but she couldn't focus on it anymore, she barely remembered what was the meaning of the words that stood down on the paper. It was because she had gotten unfocussed, realising how much truth Edmund's words held and she was afraid that he had uncovered that what she had been hiding all along.
"No, you're not." Edmund said, as she closed the book in front of her and turned her attention on him completely, he went to sit on her bed close to the desk she was sitting at. She sighed when she realised that he was trying to read through her wit his piercing eyes and tried to keep herself strong. She missed Narnia more then she could have ever imagined. "I don't get why you're trying to hide that fact. Me, Pete and Lu, we can relate."
"You actually can't." She whispered more to herself then to him, as she hadn't meant to say those words out loud. But she had and she was afraid that this time she had really said too much. She didn't want any of her brothers, nor her sister to know. She didn't want them to show any sign of pity.
"Susan, we were there, remember. Even if I would have closed my eyes, I would still be able to picture what happened there. You can't go on and pretend like nothing happened, now." Edmund started, while he thought about his words that he had spoken then. "I'm older and I don't think I want to understand." Maybe those words had not entirely been the truth, for if he understood, he would be able to know how Susan must be feeling.
He was however smart enough to realise, that that moment and mostly that person, held the most part of the reason why Susan would be missing Narnia.
"Doesn't mean that I don't want to pretend like it never happened." Susan's counter was spoken out harshly and her eyes also turned away from Edmund.
"You don't mean that." Edmund stated and he knew he was right.
"Why not? We lived in Narnia for fifteen years and then came back. It was odd and it was hard, but it didn't take us that long to have our lives back together." Susan stated, while she stood up from her chair and looked at Edmund disbelieving. He was far from the person she had guessed that this conversation was going to be with and yet she couldn't stop herself.
"You did! Pete and me and especially Lucy, we hadn't even gotten our lives sorted back together when we returned here." Edmund exclaimed, knowing that it was not always good to interrupt his sister, but feeling the need to put this off the chest. Susan had been the one telling everyone to try and forget Narnia, Susan had been the first one to think that they were never going to return there and Susan had been the only one, who'd almost been disappointed when they had finally gotten back there.
"Well I did, and now… now it seems that I can't anymore. Because every time I wake up and realise that I'm here in my bed in England, I'm disappointed." Susan spoke out her pain. Literally pain, it pained her to be here and not there.
"You miss Narnia."
"I miss Caspian." She finally spoke out the truth, that Edmund had known but she hadn't been able to admit just yet. There weren't any other two months that had ever seemed to last this long as the two months that had passed since their return.
"I don't get why mom wanted us to go here." Edmund stated as he walked slowly over the green grass and looked over to his both sisters and brother, who seemed to be just as not-excited as he was, about this park. Yes, it held more green then the rest of Finchley, but that did not mean that he hadn't seen much more green in Narnia. This was nothing compared with even the less radiant parts there.
"Because mom is quiet sure that we'd be mesmerized by the green that they had put together here." Susan spoke wisely, remembering that there were very few people here, who knew about their adventures in Narnia.
"I think it's beautiful." Lucy stated, while she picked up a few leaves from the ground and threw them at the person standing closest to her. The second the leaves touched Peter's face, Lucy knew she was in big trouble and ran off. Although her head was still full with adventures and wisdoms from her time as an adult. It was getting easier to just be a child again. Unlike the rest of the family , she still enjoyed being the child and mostly also being treated like one.
"Oh you little.." Peter said threatingly, when the earth suddenly shook and he crossed gazes with Susan. It was not hard enough to thrown them off their feet, but it was strong enough to find it very unnatural. Then earth shook again, quiet powerfully this time, causing Susan to have to grab Edmund's arms to stand straight, who on his own supported back on Susan to remain on his feet. It also caused Lucy to smack against the ground, her hands outstretched in front of her to soften her fall. Only Peter seemed strong enough to remain upstraight on his own and he looked around surprised, it become evident that all other people had barely felt a thing.
Lucy pushed herself from the ground, running towards him and taking his hand in her as she was starting to get a little bit scared and also Edmund and Susan walked closer to them. As they looked over the park, scanning anything suspicious, one of the larger trees of the park, very close to them suddenly made an awful sound, the ripping of roots where heard and then suddenly it came crashing down, Lucy yelling in fear as it missed them by barely a few feet. Any of them could have died, if they had been standing a little bit further.
Lucy now grabbed the hand of her other brother too as more trees were starting to fall down, making awful sounds in the process, but most of the fear had left her when she had started to feel something entirely else. Magic had come over her and she knew well enough that her siblings felt the same thing. As Susan took Peter's hand, unknowingly finishing their circle, the earth started moving again, now trembling under their feet and their eyes watched with astonishment as the whole earth seemed to split in front of them.
Lucy closed her eyes, while squeezing both her brothers hand's as a sudden blow of air more powerful then any she had ever felt pushed them towards the ravine. As she trusted the magic of Narnia in this, she could almost enjoy the fall, the air sweeping past her. But then she felt one of the hands she was holding slipping away from her and although she tried to hold on to it tightly, the hand was soon gone. Then she hit ground, her body smacking against the ground again. It felt like a cushion though it was just ground and she had just fallen at least fifty feet. When she opened her eyes and look sideways her heart cried when as predicted only Edmund was there.
Lucy was immediately one hundred percent sure that it was Narnia where they had landed in, but wasn't so happy with it, as she had always been. Narnia felt a lot less wonderful without Peter and Susan at her side.
"But I was holding his hand, they were right beside us." Lucy exclaimed as Edmund released her hand trying to get an idea of where they had landed. "Aslan had said that they would not return." Edmund replied.
"So he pulls us away from there with them standing right next to us? Aslan isn't supposed to be that cruel. He shouldn't do this so soon. It was only yesterday that Peter told me how much he misses Narnia." Lucy replied. She had always been the biggest fan of Aslan, but could not master how he could do something like that, knowing that that would hurt Peter and most probably Susan too, if not Susan even more.
"It was only yesterday that Susan confided to me that she misses Caspian." Edmund spoke, and Lucy suddenly looked down. It was that another though had entered her mind and while she tried not to think about it, she soon realised that she couldn't.
"He's most likely dead isn't he?" She questioned and Edmund threw her an understanding look.
"In the year that we were gone, over twenty generations passed here. Mathematically, Caspian should be about 200 years if he'd still be alive. Even if he had a long life, he would've died over one hundred years ago." Edmund said and Lucy nodded, having her fears confirmed. So then it was just going to be the two of them, then.